How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[nicktheundoer]

Sad again

Hugs.......take care,friendd.......🫂🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️🫂🫂❤️❤️❤️❤️

 

[nicktheundoer]

sad how I've wasted all this time

Don't worry sir..common thing for both of us then....

 

[nicktheundoer]

tired of the struggles of this life

Sorry..hugs.. I wish you could find the comfort that you need..

 

[LumberJack]

I was better this morning. Now I’m still relatively good compared to yesterday, but I’m trending down as the day goes on.

 

[LumberJack]

sad how I've wasted all this time

I know that feeling. It’s not easy to work with. One way that I look at it is that I didn’t have then the knowledge and experience that I do now. If I would have made different decisions in the past, given my current wisdom, that is a sign of progress. Kind of cold comfort but it takes the sting out a little.

 

[AvidFan]

Sorry,friend(sir) wanna say what's going on?

Too much. Far, far too much 😢

 

[AvidFan]

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Sorry things are so bad for you.

 

[AvidFan]

Not doing well. I actually got my hands on my method today and started sobbing feeling like I'm not a million miles away from using it. I put it back in the cupboard.

All I can say is I won't do it today. I'll go to bed and pray I sleep and pray I wake up feeling a bit more able to cope tomorrow.

 

[Windhover]

Not doing well. I actually got my hands on my method today and started sobbing feeling like I'm not a million miles away from using it. I put it back in the cupboard.

All I can say is I won't do it today. I'll go to bed and pray I sleep and pray I wake up feeling a bit more able to cope tomorrow.

hug @AvidFan
Send a mesage anytime if you want to talk.

 

[Windhover]

Don't worry sir..common thing for both of us then....

I hope you don't worry either sir...if only the world was a birghter place, but it's not.

 

[Windhover]

I know that feeling. It’s not easy to work with. One way that I look at it is that I didn’t have then the knowledge and experience that I do now. If I would have made different decisions in the past, given my current wisdom, that is a sign of progress. Kind of cold comfort but it takes the sting out a little.

Thank you for taking the time to respond LumberJack. That's a valuable mental path for me. Usually I exist stuck in a weird bubble of thinking far too much.

🫶🏻

 

[SillyOldBear]

The fanny pack I ordered to carry stuff to the gym in came. Glad I ordered one with and extra long belt. I am soooo fat.

 

[snails]

The fanny pack I ordered to carry stuff to the gym in came. Glad I ordered one with and extra long belt. I am soooo fat.

Very impressive, going to the gym! I bet you're not, but hope you can feel better in your body soon.

 

[snails]

Not doing well. I actually got my hands on my method today and started sobbing feeling like I'm not a million miles away from using it. I put it back in the cupboard.

All I can say is I won't do it today. I'll go to bed and pray I sleep and pray I wake up feeling a bit more able to cope tomorrow.

I hope you can find the strength to throw it away. I'm hoping I will too soon
You matter

 

[AmberMarie]

Wishing i had energy right now! Not sure what i would do with that energy... just wish i had it.

 

[LumberJack]

Thank you for taking the time to respond LumberJack. That's a valuable mental path for me. Usually I exist stuck in a weird bubble of thinking far too much.

🫶🏻

I’m a chronic overthinker too. One of my most difficult symptoms is that I have so.many.WORDS racing through my mind. It’s debilitating, in the sense it makes my job harder than it should be.

 

[snails]

I’m a chronic overthinker too. One of my most difficult symptoms is that I have so.many.WORDS racing through my mind. It’s debilitating, in the sense it makes my job harder than it should be.

Oof same! You said exactly what I was thinking.

 

[LumberJack]

Not doing well. I actually got my hands on my method today and started sobbing feeling like I'm not a million miles away from using it. I put it back in the cupboard.

All I can say is I won't do it today. I'll go to bed and pray I sleep and pray I wake up feeling a bit more able to cope tomorrow.

A good night’s sleep can do wonders for your outlook. I used to have my method in a little box that I hid from everyone else. Eventually my therapist persuaded me to give it to a friend for safekeeping. He really wanted me to throw it away, but I wasn’t ready. Fast forward a year and I have lost touch with said friend and I don’t know if she still has it. So I might have well just tossed it, but giving it to a friend was easier.

Which turned out to save my life. I would have used it this year if I still had it, and I am confident it would have succeeded.

 

[1964dodge]

I feel just insanely suicidal right now. I’m still constantly having memories of painful past experiences coming up every minute I am not actively distracting myself. I’m not able to think of any way out. To the contrary, I’m sensing that trying to analyze my way to health is not working.

Perhaps thinking so much is only digging me deeper. I don’t know what else to do, though. The obvious answer (to me) is to reach out to someone who cares about me. I’m downplaying the possibility of that, because I don’t want to burden someone else with my dangerous feelings. My loved ones have their own problems and obligations and I worry that I might be asking too much.

So instead, I’m working at 5:00 AM. It feels so pointless. I know this is a temporary state. I’m also aware that it’s been so long since I’ve felt even okay that I hardly remember what it’s like.

 

[1964dodge]

bloody crap lol

i hope today was a bit better

mike...