How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[mosaic hearts]

I’m glad you were able to use your skills to self-regulate. I would say that is a factor in your ability to calm down, which in turn is helping keep you safe.

As for telling mental health professionals- and this is a stat by state thing, but generally you will get involuntary 72 hour hold if you discuss plans to harm yourself or others. If you mention suicidal ideation, but make it clear that you do not have intent, then it is more of a gray area which would involve the judgment of the provider. Stating that you don’t have access to means goes a long way to keep you from getting put on a hold. I hope that helps.

TL;DR - if you do discuss this with your therapist, be careful to make it clear that you don’t intend to hurt yourself or anyone else. Expressing a specific plan will most likely result in an involuntary hospitalization.

Thank you for your kind thoughts & wise words. I definitely don't want to be in a hospital. However, I need to tell him what happened. I'll tread very carefully. I know my limits & when to ask for more help. It's a matter of trust. If I get to the point where I can't absolutely trust myself to stay safe, then I'll be more open with him.

 

[mosaic hearts]

I’m glad you were able to use your skills to self-regulate. I would say that is a factor in your ability to calm down, which in turn is helping keep you safe.

As for telling mental health professionals- and this is a stat by state thing, but generally you will get involuntary 72 hour hold if you discuss plans to harm yourself or others. If you mention suicidal ideation, but make it clear that you do not have intent, then it is more of a gray area which would involve the judgment of the provider. Stating that you don’t have access to means goes a long way to keep you from getting put on a hold. I hope that helps.

TL;DR - if you do discuss this with your therapist, be careful to make it clear that you don’t intend to hurt yourself or anyone else. Expressing a specific plan will most likely result in an involuntary hospitalization.

Hugs!

 

[Lane]

dread and sadness has its knives and forks in me already

I hope that you are being as kind as possible to yourself seabird.

 

[Lane]

Alone, tired, anxious. Just had enough.

 

[Lane]

My fiance doesn't put pressure on me to move. He lives 2000 miles away. And I have to admit I like my independence, I've been basically single for...20 something years, since my divorce. But I look around my house, at all my stuff, my cat and think that eventually I will have to go.

This doesn't bring me feelings of excitement really but more of dread. I almost feel like I shouldn't be writing this, but this is what I struggle with. I think he knows, because I joke about the cold in Utah. This marriage will give me companionship and help with financial security as I get older. I hope I don't sound like a horrible, but just honest person for saying so. I just have this impending move over my head.

 

[HappyKitty]

Feeling jetlag, had a great holiday in London, Exeter and Turkey. Now am home, trying to get over jetlag. My mum told me I slept for 12-15hrs. 🤣 Jetlag crazy. Im glad I only have been exploring temp jobs and havent commit fully to anything, cus I just know my dad be wanting us to travel frequently once/twice every year. We'll return europe again as long as my brothers are in school. So glad they are both continuing masters while I'm being so carefree exploring my capabilities for work and have fun hehe.


Can't wait to go to kpop concert September since I miss Coldplay and Taytay cus I'm late like I knew abt it when they sold out and this time I'm not late ha, as if I can make it up to it. Its been a fulfilling year for me. 😸

Oh yea, I made another instageam account for family travel pics.🤣🤣

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

@Aurelia i think the injection can be a great freedom. It will allow you to not have to think about the addiction problem twice a day, daily. Make sure you get in a support group online so you can ask questions if you are unsure. You can succeed.

@Bergerac - I hope you can find a way to calm your mind, body & spirit. you deserve a rest.

@mosaic hearts I am impressed with your ability to keep yourself safe. You have incredible strength when you need it most. Remember that we are here to Support you.

@Lane Honesty is what we are about here. Your thoughts are valid & real. Moving takes sooo much energy. Even if you live frugally, there’s still at least 20 years of accumulation! 😳😢 it is a big job.
Marriage is ultimately about companionship & security. We probably just used more romantic words as a young adult! 😉🤣

 

[FlamingoWrangler]

Calmer, distracted.
(I was a hot mess when I arrived.)

 

[Windhover]

My fiance doesn't put pressure on me to move. He lives 2000 miles away. And I have to admit I like my independence, I've been basically single for...20 something years, since my divorce. But I look around my house, at all my stuff, my cat and think that eventually I will have to go.

This doesn't bring me feelings of excitement really but more of dread. I almost feel like I shouldn't be writing this, but this is what I struggle with. I think he knows, because I joke about the cold in Utah. This marriage will give me companionship and help with financial security as I get older. I hope I don't sound like a horrible, but just honest person for saying so. I just have this impending move over my head.

What you wirte doesn't sound horrible to me not at all. I'm glad you wrote it. There are parallels to my life in it - startlingly so.
I hope the big changes you're planning can and do go smoothly. Leaving a home is a huge deal, all tied into endings, letting go of the past, turning one's energy to the unknown, basically. Best to you for your future, Lane.

 

[Windhover]

Alone, tired, anxious. Just had enough.

hugs

keep us posted okay, as to how you're doing🌿🌸

 

[Bergerac]

@Aurelia i think the injection can be a great freedom. It will allow you to not have to think about the addiction problem twice a day, daily. Make sure you get in a support group online so you can ask questions if you are unsure. You can succeed.

@Bergerac - I hope you can find a way to calm your mind, body & spirit. you deserve a rest.

@mosaic hearts I am impressed with your ability to keep yourself safe. You have incredible strength when you need it most. Remember that we are here to Support you.

@Lane Honesty is what we are about here. Your thoughts are valid & real. Moving takes sooo much energy. Even if you live frugally, there’s still at least 20 years of accumulation! 😳😢 it is a big job.
Marriage is ultimately about companionship & security. We probably just used more romantic words as a young adult! 😉🤣

thank you! how are you?

 

[Bergerac]

hugs

keep us posted okay, as to how you're doing🌿🌸

I will do. Thank you. Hope you're alright.

 

[mosaic hearts]

@Aurelia i think the injection can be a great freedom. It will allow you to not have to think about the addiction problem twice a day, daily. Make sure you get in a support group online so you can ask questions if you are unsure. You can succeed.

@Bergerac - I hope you can find a way to calm your mind, body & spirit. you deserve a rest.

@mosaic hearts I am impressed with your ability to keep yourself safe. You have incredible strength when you need it most. Remember that we are here to Support you.

@Lane Honesty is what we are about here. Your thoughts are valid & real. Moving takes sooo much energy. Even if you live frugally, there’s still at least 20 years of accumulation! 😳😢 it is a big job.
Marriage is ultimately about companionship & security. We probably just used more romantic words as a young adult! 😉🤣

Thank you!💕

 

[Livelife]

I've seen him once. He inadvertently triggered me last week. Will talk about that & how I'm feeling & what I'm experiencing when I see him. I'm his first DID client with an organized ab*se history but he's willing to learn. Thank you for caring about me.

 

[AvidFan]

Tired. If I could get some deep, restful sleep I would be able to function well I think, but working is taking its toll on so little sleep for the last month, and last week especially. Glad I'm getting some sleep but I would really like more. At least it's Friday tomorrow.

 

[Holding my breath]

Calmer, distracted.
(I was a hot mess when I arrived.)

Pleased SF has been able to help you calm. You are worthy of love and kindness. Xx

 

[Livelife]

Tired. If I could get some deep, restful sleep I would be able to function well I think, but working is taking its toll on so little sleep for the last month, and last week especially. Glad I'm getting some sleep but I would really like more. At least it's Friday tomorrow.

TGIF. I hope you can get some better sleep this weekend.

 

[Holding my breath]

Tonight is the night where the urges to sh are high. I am fed up with my husband sitting on the sofa all day, every day, taking a break!! While I work from the moment I wake to the moment I go to bed. I go into the kitchen to find no one has tidied up, so having worked for hours I am still the one clearing up after everyone else. Why does that make me want to sh? Because they make me feel like I am unworthy and just a slave to their needs.
it will take a lot of effort to not sh tonight. The thing is, I don’t want to make that effort.

 

[snails]

Bit scared of this newest wound, get it seen tomorrow. Tricky keeping going at the moment, few more days.

 

[snails]

Tonight is the night where the urges to sh are high. I am fed up with my husband sitting on the sofa all day, every day, taking a break!! While I work from the moment I wake to the moment I go to bed. I go into the kitchen to find no one has tidied up, so having worked for hours I am still the one clearing up after everyone else. Why does that make me want to sh? Because they make me feel like I am unworthy and just a slave to their needs.
it will take a lot of effort to not sh tonight. The thing is, I don’t want to make that effort.

I'm sorry that's really hard. I'm wondering if you feel taken for granted, maybe thar your needs don't matter. I hope you can stay safe tonight. Sorry uts taken a while to respond to this.