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) but they're damaging. I have a feeling you might know this already. Happy to chat PM if you care to about it.
Like, Angie, frustrated with doctors, medicine and insurance. My insurance is now paying claims so I hope that is fixed. Have ophthalmologist appt on 9/5 for review of cataracts in both eyes and bad angle in one. Now I have Annual Wellness appt on 11/19, plus f/u on 11/14 from May visit and blood draw on 11/7. I want to be young again and rid of damn doctors and their appointments.
Just got off the phone with our new therapist. His 70-year-old father passed away yesterday from a chronic illness. He's leaving for Ontario tomorrow for the burial & seeing his family until Thurs., Sept. 5 when he comes back to Vancouver. So, my in-person session after tomorrow is being turned into a virtual session a week later at 12 noon, 3:00 pm his time. He asked me how I am. I told him I'm fine. He doesn't know me yet. I don't think he realized he was talking to me, 17, & not mosaic hearts. or maybe he did & just didn't let on? Who knows. It doesn't matter to me. I answered to her name no matter. Having her session postponed isn't great but what are you going to do?
Thank you but I'm fine. His father dying is a crisis for him & his need to be with his family trumps our need for a session. We're not heartless or selfish. We can handle another week of not talking to a mental health professional. Well, I can anyway. If mosaic hearts can't, we'll she'll come here for emotional support. And, one of our protectors finally spilled the beans to her best friend. He told her she is suicidal often & that others inside are too. That includes me. She (mosaic hearts) didn't tell her how she's actually feeling for fear her friend couldn't handle it or would see her as burdensome. She's afraid of things like that where others aren't. She's also afraid of loosing control of herself when the severe suicidal urges come. I'm not. I find them a comfort, like a beckoning almost. It's just how things are for me. I cope with guilt from the ab*se we suffered. She doesn't. Maybe I shouldn't say this but this is how I feel. So, the best friend knows some of our secrets now. But, alas, she lives on Vancouver Island and we're on the mainland in Vancouver. It's not like mosaic hearts can stay with her when she feels real bad. It's not a good day today. A lot of DID switching.
I am sad, my friend died, he loved me once and wanted us to live together and have a lovesit and put flowers for me but his alcoholism won and we ended up being friends and now he was run over in a stupid accident. I feel like noone will ever again want to have a loveseat and flowers with me in a same sentence. I feel shattered into a million pieces but i have to still go on. I promised myself to be better and i promised him to keep on keeping on so I have to.
welcome to SF @Floracuatica we are a peer community that cares but never judges. please look at the different threads and post when you feel comfortable. we have a section devoted to grief.
i'm sorry that you lost your friend. it's a tragedy when someone is addicted to drugs or alcohol. you did your best to help him and that's all that you can do. please try to look at the good times that you had more than this tragedy. i'm pretty sure you will find someone else eventually. my heart goes out to you
mike....
i'm sorry that you lost your friend. it's a tragedy when someone is addicted to drugs or alcohol. you did your best to help him and that's all that you can do. please try to look at the good times that you had more than this tragedy. i'm pretty sure you will find someone else eventually. my heart goes out to you
mike....
Hi @Floracuatica
Welcome to SF,
I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, but I'm glad you found us
We're a caring, supportive community
Feel free to post as much or as little as you like about your life, your friend, or whatever else is on your mind
peace
Welcome to SF,
I'm sorry for the loss of your friend, but I'm glad you found us
We're a caring, supportive community
Feel free to post as much or as little as you like about your life, your friend, or whatever else is on your mind
peace
thanks for the hugs @nicktheundoer . I hope you are feeling better. I'm doing better now than when I wrote that. 
