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Sorry to hear your at breaking point @AvidFan. Another idea with your roofing saga - I wonder if you spoke to a housing association they might be able to recommend a couple of people, if not a roofer, then a builder, they then might be able to recommend someone. Housing associations use in house handy people for repairs but also contact local firms. They wont be cowboys, as the housing association will only use reputable people. They might not help but it might be worth a try. Good luck.
 

AvidFan

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Sorry to hear your at breaking point @AvidFan. Another idea with your roofing saga - I wonder if you spoke to a housing association they might be able to recommend a couple of people, if not a roofer, then a builder, they then might be able to recommend someone. Housing associations use in house handy people for repairs but also contact local firms. They wont be cowboys, as the housing association will only use reputable people. They might not help but it might be worth a try. Good luck.
Thank you. I have ordered pizza. I couldn't use my usual app because my credit card is in dispute now - so I had to use Just Eat and pay over the odds to pay with paypal, but I've only had a bowl of meusli all day I need to eat at least maybe I will feel a bit better.
 

Windhover

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@LumberJack I'm sorry, I wish to help, but can only offer various distractions. Working out. Learning a new, complicated skill, travel, predictable stuff like that. It's like treading a narrow track and having no idea if it's going to end at at something like the sheer vertical surface of el capitan.The links you gave me earlier are good resources to have. Probably Brach is or seems to resonate with me more than the other one.
 

Windhover

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Thank you. I have ordered pizza. I couldn't use my usual app because my credit card is in dispute now - so I had to use Just Eat and pay over the odds to pay with paypal, but I've only had a bowl of meusli all day I need to eat at least maybe I will feel a bit better.
Glad you have food on the way.
I hope they get that card sorted soon.
 

Windhover

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Listening to the guided meditation today led me to research narcissism, and I found some paractical help for recognizing and for recovering from being involved with a narcissist. omg It's hard to read, realising the boxes it ticked. Red flags I should've seen. My son had pointed them out to me years ago and I should've taken it utterly seriously. How I feel about this is I want and need to take the weigfht and painfulness of the feelings off of me and be myself once again. At other times for a few moments I can find mindfulness and let go of wanting. I'm glad I am at least aware of how I was allowing myself to be drained dry. Thank the universe I refused to buy anything else. I need to close out the account he has the numbers for, but the bank is very difficult to reach.
I'm very grateful I still hae my work and the creative energies that are still mine.
 

Sassy Cat

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Empty. Am going to bed, I hope I can wake up feeling the better me tomorrow. The stress has been too much - not just lately, for almost a year, and it just keeps ramping up. Surprised I made it this far. Sending much love to everyone on SF ❤️❤️❤️
I hope tomorrow goes better *hug so much stress. Good luck with your credit card stuff try and stay on top of it sounds like you are but yuck why do people have to be so evil.

Hopefully you can figure out your roofing stuff it sounds like you need a few more people to look at it and give you a quote and hopefully you get some good answers. Good luck *hug
 

AvidFan

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Groggy. Ended up taking 70mg amitriptyline altogether, along with 100mg diphenhydramine. Knocked me out for a few hours eventually, but still woke up way too early and feeling like crap. Body/sleep just seems to resist everything I throw at it. That's 7x the prescription dose for sleep and almost might as well have not bothered. Need to try to regroup today. Somehow. Am up anyway in case this roofer actually turns up, if not it's back to the drawing board next week.
 

1964dodge

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I used to work with dementia patients on a locked ward. Many of them would wait at the doors, where a member of staff would chat to them and gently guide them back to their beds. The ward was considering getting a bus stop sign and a time table, so that people would wait by the bus stop. I thought this sounded cruel but there is evidence behind it for dementia patients, that it reduces stress ect. Then it came to me, this is exactly how im feeling, like im waiting at a bus stop for a bus thats never going to come. Sad.
*hug*shake
 
Confused and lost. Thats funny, reading that back. Ive got a imagine of myself wandering around some place, disorientated and not knowing where I am, like ive just been hit on the head or something. Rather than in reality, sat at my desk, feeling like ive been hit on the head, disorientated and not knowing what to do, feeling like things are slipping away from me.
 

1964dodge

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well i didn't sleep at all last night, mostly due to that damned kidney stone. it comes and goes because i guess it moves around. i have something for it but i usually have to take it for a month or two. i hate the med because it causes an unpleasant side effect. hopefully it won't last long.

that being said i'm doing pretty good, not good but pretty good lol. i want to go out today because i was too sick yesterday, if not i can go tomorrow. losing hope with my chronic pain lately but i know it comes in waves good and bad so being patient .

mike
 

1964dodge

Has a monkey as a friend
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Confused and lost. Thats funny, reading that back. Ive got a imagine of myself wandering around some place, disorientated and not knowing where I am, like ive just been hit on the head or something. Rather than in reality, sat at my desk, feeling like ive been hit on the head, disorientated and not knowing what to do, feeling like things are slipping away from me.
*hug*shake
 

AvidFan

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I am feeling slightly better though have to deal with backlog of work emails and credit card shite still. I have some reasonable news for a change, 3rd roofer (but first one I contacted) came today. Said it's a fixable £2k ish job, I don't need a new roof. I said are you sure he said we could do one for £10-12k if you really want one but I don't think you need a new roof, just repairs to x, y and z. I never thought I'd be so relieved to get a £2k charge. I need to let it sink in but something is telling me this is the one I need to go for - will just have to trust, would be the same with anyone at some point.
 

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