How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Sassy Cat]

I think I know what you mean. I feel the same way even when I’m told otherwise. I get cynical and consider that they’re just saying that because it’s the right thing to say. Then I ponder that perhaps I’m taking them for granted and consequently feel bad about that too. It seems that entertaining these thoughts just makes things much worse than they need to be. I just wish I had the answers. I’m sorry.

Thanks some days it all just hits you we just have to get through those really low moments

 

[Sassy Cat]

I wish that you had people in person that care about you the way folks here feel about you. Online is good, but real life in person can matter so much...

Thanks some days you just need people in person but yeah I love my online family

 

[Sassy Cat]

I feel really strange, like ive had some kind of head injury and woken up after a coma with my life to shit. I do have my health but my mental health has never been very good and now things have happened that i just dont understand, where im left feeling angry, sad, alone, isolated, broken.

I leave the house saying bye to my cuddly (im a guy approaching 50 but ive had the cuddly soft toy for a while, it helped when i had really bad anxiety a few years ago) and i say hello to my cuddly when i get home from work. There is no one else, i sometimes wish my cuddly would say something back but they never do.
I believe im a good guy but extremely misunderstood.

sometimes we all need something we can connect to

 

[Sassy Cat]

i don't know about irl but here a lot of people care about you, i care about you. feel free to use my inbox to talk/vent anytime

mike...

Thanks

 

[AvidFan]

Weirded out and curious. My blood pressure and heart rate are normal as of right now, though my watch has indicated quite some stress today. I've caved in and after some reflection, I'm taking some sleeping meds. I have got to get some sleep, I've just got to.

Sending 💖💖💖 to everyone on SF

 

[LumberJack]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

Nonono we care! We need you in chat!! 💬 OMG this place wouldn’t be what it is without you!

 

[Windhover]

Alone very alone like no one really cares about me not really

I always like seeing you here, and your cat too.
That hollow, alone feeling is well known to me. But it can't be allowed to rule our lives, at least that is what I tell myself and push myself out for a run or whatever.

hugs

 

[LumberJack]

I leave the house saying bye to my cuddly (im a guy approaching 50 but ive had the cuddly soft toy for a while, it helped when i had really bad anxiety a few years ago) and i say hello to my cuddly when i get home from work. There is no one else, i sometimes wish my cuddly would say something back but they never do.
I believe im a good guy but extremely misunderstood.

I am 47, and I still have a teddy bear. A big one. There’s a story behind it, but it’s complicated. I heard my therapist mention object bonding at one point. It’s where a certain item becomes a symbol of safety or similar, and so it’s calming to have the item around. It’s generally observed in children, but I think there are more adults with object bonds than are willing to admit.

 

[LumberJack]

I have tried absolutely everything. It's gone. Ordered a new one but not available until tomorrow. Using old one. The stress is just too much and I've got nobody at all to turn to 😔

Lost an entire month of work as I hadn't backed up with the (still ongoing) roof saga. 😞

Oh. I didn’t realize it was that bad. Sheesh. I am probably in a worse place if I lose my HD. I know better, too! I used to work for a company that designed and built archive and backup solutions. I have seen some data retrieval projects that involved some real creativity. Soooo maybe there’s a chance you could get some data off the thing? Kind of brainstorming, but I do feel like I am qualified in this topic.

 

[AmberMarie]

i sincerely hope that you are reacting to a bad stretch right now. it's ok to just give in sometimes and just give up for a while. i sometimes give up because i am so tired fighting it, but i eventually get up to fight again.

you have amazing courage and have fought a lot so far. i hope you can get up and fight again. you don't always have to fight on a grand scale to cure everything. you can fight little battles like getting up in the morning and telling yourself you will do something to make you happy today. going out to dinner, go to a movie, or just a nice walk with a friend. hopelessness is the end but a tiny sliver of hope can move mountains

mike.....

i don't know how to properly explain the way i feel... or even IF i feel anymore. i'm so tired of being the only one to fight for me. i am always fighting for others. Those i know, family, friends, strangers... n when i do finally ask for help... there's no one there to help me fight. i used to cling to that sliver of hope with all i had left. That sliver has fallen through the cracks and gotten lost in the ocean of battles. i just cant fight anymore. i'm sorry. i appreciate all your encouragement you continually give, especially when going through your own battles!

 

[Inastorm]

Frustrated. I cause all of my problems.

How's work going?, you any further forward with some kind of ear plug/ muff?

 

[Inanimate]

Sad and lonesome. I don’t miss inpatient, but I do miss the patients. One in particular was a big guy who gave great hugs, and I’m pining for that feeling now. It seems so long ago. Why can’t we do that in our everyday lives?

 

[AvidFan]

Oh. I didn’t realize it was that bad. Sheesh. I am probably in a worse place if I lose my HD. I know better, too! I used to work for a company that designed and built archive and backup solutions. I have seen some data retrieval projects that involved some real creativity. Soooo maybe there’s a chance you could get some data off the thing? Kind of brainstorming, but I do feel like I am qualified in this topic.

I posted about it somewhere, but I managed to get my stuff by holding the case together at the right hand front corner - kind of squeezing. If I let go it screeched and died. So something's broken inside but kept it going long enough to copy my stuff off. Got new laptop but not up to setting it up yet. I am in complete paralysis about my roof at the moment.

 

[AvidFan]

Terrified. I have sort of committed to the middle quote on the roof. I've asked my friend to go ahead with the gift she offered me, otherwise it really buggers my finances. I've got new laptop, which is a complete waste of £350 just to get back to square one, and £1800 for the roof on top of that. Assuming they fix it properly. I've asked a few questions prior to fully committing. I have no clue if this will sort everything or they'll fuck it up and make the nightmare even worse. I feel so alone in this.

 

[ClassicsFan]

Hysterical

 

[Inastorm]

Just feeling pretty hopeless. I am so sad and nobody in real world gives a fuck. I just dont understand whats wrong with me, that people would treat me like a disposable object, that has no use to them now. Totally alone.

 

[AvidFan]

Just feeling pretty hopeless. I am so sad and nobody in real world gives a fuck. I just dont understand whats wrong with me, that people would treat me like a disposable object, that has no use to them now. Totally alone.

🥹

 

[AvidFan]

I feel scared, eventually had to go up to £2100 because I need a new gutter as well, the existing one is cracked, might as well get it sorted while someone's got scaffolding up. At least it's payment on completion, they offer a 5 year guarantee in writing, no dodgy cash payments but bank transfer like a proper business. I'm now waiting for a start date for the works. I'm still anxious about it but at least I've got rid of the total anxiety spiral about making a decision. I've made one and now have to see how it all pans out. Maybe now I can at least concentrate on work and earning enough money to pay for this bullshit and pay my friend back one day. So grateful to have a friend offer that help. I might actually eat something now.

 

[Inastorm]

That sounds like good news @AvidFan.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m torn. I feel a strong need to check the news. I end up more upset afterwards 10 times out of 10. So I am dreading that. I wonder if the anxiety of not being informed is worse than the anger and sadness of whatever new outrage the top 0.0001 % have cooked up to stick it to the rest of us.