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How Are You Feeling Right Now?
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i really do not feel anything right now. i have loads of thoughts that i can't find words for... but no feelings. It's as if i am numb to everything n anything. i know i should feel... some sort of something... when i read many other's posts. So i can't help but think of how selfish i seem to have become. Selfish and extremely needy. It should piss me off... in the past is would have and did.... probably will again someday. But for now... there is nothing.
I’ve gained so much weight on Seroquel. Granted, it helped put a stop to my bouts of uncontrollable crying during that hellish late Summer, but now I feel trapped in another nightmare brought on by my own shame. I’m so self-conscious that I’m hesitant to even go back to the gym, even though it’s the very thing besides dieting that will help.
I’m still feeling a state of equanimity. Not as stable as yesterday, but still there when I tune into it. Equanimity is interesting, in that it’s different from the spectrum between optimism and pessimism. It’s not forcing myself into thinking “everything is going to be alright,” but more like, “does it really matter?” Usually it doesn’t, but when it does, I still can do the right thing without choosing to be upset.
Probably going to take me a while to move past my habit of struggling, but I’m feeling like I could get there. It’s a choice. It’s a hard thing to choose equanimity, because our instincts and social conditioning pushes us toward being upset.
Thus I think it’s unhelpful to say to a struggling person that they need to choose a different perspective. That’s shaming, and fundamentally aggressive.
Nonetheless, when we feel stable and resourced enough to practice behaving differently, then it’s a good direction to aspire to be imperturbable.
Probably going to take me a while to move past my habit of struggling, but I’m feeling like I could get there. It’s a choice. It’s a hard thing to choose equanimity, because our instincts and social conditioning pushes us toward being upset.
Thus I think it’s unhelpful to say to a struggling person that they need to choose a different perspective. That’s shaming, and fundamentally aggressive.
Nonetheless, when we feel stable and resourced enough to practice behaving differently, then it’s a good direction to aspire to be imperturbable.
Tired. But understandably so. I did 8 hours of grind yesterday, but today have been putting my application together for super duper promotion job my remote job has invited me to apply for. I need to write a blurb and make a video. I've got the blurb written and did a rough video, proving I can actually talk unscripted for 3 minutes with few stumbles. I was impressed when I played it back - I'd hire me 😂 This opportunity could be genuinely life-changing so I'm in a kind of weird mood of angst and excitement. Trying not to get to hopeful in case it all falls flat.
Hopeless. Today was a horrible day that I cried. Multiple bad things happened. People laughed at me. Why do they have to be so mean. 
mike....
Oh goodness that happened to me as well. I was on 150 mg daily, and gained 30 pounds in two months. I was sleeping 14 hours out of 24, which means I had barely enough time awake to shower and commute on workdays.
So, you’re not alone. The newer AAPs such as Aripiprazole are associated with less weight gain. It’s all so dependent on your own genetics; etc. I have heard from others who found it made them impulsive. So as always, work with your provider, and they might have an idea about what else to try.
So, you’re not alone. The newer AAPs such as Aripiprazole are associated with less weight gain. It’s all so dependent on your own genetics; etc. I have heard from others who found it made them impulsive. So as always, work with your provider, and they might have an idea about what else to try.
Greed, is why. Not just for money, but also attention, pleasure, and power. Jesus Christ is often misquoted as saying that money is the root of all evil. The scripture says that the love of money (aka greed) is the root of all evil.
Greed deceives us into thinking in win/lose terms, as in anything you have is less for me. It’s not like that, though. We’d all be better off if we cooperated instead of competing.
Greed deceives us into thinking in win/lose terms, as in anything you have is less for me. It’s not like that, though. We’d all be better off if we cooperated instead of competing.
My coworker is gone. (He lives about 1k miles away so I will never see him again). My job sucks and I have never said that in 6 years there. I have been ruminating about it since the beginning of this week and I know that I have to suck it up. At least until the property taxes and some other stuff get paid off. So dear readers you are going to be scrolling past my rants in the next few weeks until my head is clear and I have made the right decision.
love you all.
love you all.
That’s much like my experience. I oversleep and barely have any time and energy to keep up my routine. Why does anything helpful have to have unbearable side effects?
Sadly, aripiprazole didn’t work for me. I wasn’t tired all the time, but I was unbearably jittery. Either way, my new provider and I are in agreement that antidepressants and their adjuncts just aren’t a viable option anymore considering the abundance of medications I’ve already tried. I’m going to report the weight gain and fatigue at my next appointment, so who knows if he’ll replace Seroquel or just have me stop the mood stabilizers/antipsychotics altogether. Most likely the latter.
Sadly, aripiprazole didn’t work for me. I wasn’t tired all the time, but I was unbearably jittery. Either way, my new provider and I are in agreement that antidepressants and their adjuncts just aren’t a viable option anymore considering the abundance of medications I’ve already tried. I’m going to report the weight gain and fatigue at my next appointment, so who knows if he’ll replace Seroquel or just have me stop the mood stabilizers/antipsychotics altogether. Most likely the latter.