How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Windhover]

Pretty ironic, and self defeating that I had written 7 paragraphs about why this is the case! 🤪

Maybe but I, if it's not already obvious, love reading and words so it's all good. "Music expresses that which cannot be said and on which it is impossible to be silent." Victor Hugo

I'm continuing avoiding feeling or thinking about the break-up because I need a space without so much heart pain.

 

[HappyKitty]

My eyebrows is weirdly flaky, red cheeks and oily T-zone and drs would say its combo skin on face hmn. But not for the scalp, its so itchy.

 

[LumberJack]

I’m sad, and unhappy.

 

[Windhover]

Harsh? Self-critical? Stupid? I don't know the word to describe this nobody kind of feeling; wanting but unable to be proud of myself for getting decent things done. I am critical of myself for my run and workout.

 

[Inanimate]

So bored all the time. I have no life outside of seeking treatment for my depression. No career. No friends. No passion. I have nothing. I don’t know what I want, where to start, or why I even try.

 

[puffymilk]

Bored...

 

[HappyKitty]

Took 2 off days from work again, I have docs appt yeaz.

 

[HappyKitty]

The summer heat is giving Hagrid's hair....🥺 So hot af, frizzy hair and sunburn and oily face kinda package. 🥵☀️

its giving this... again...

 

[Inastorm]

Depressed and very bitten my insects as I have been working out in the garden. I'm doing my best to keep going but I'm feeling so alone and like I am being punished for things that I didn't do.

 

[puffymilk]

Absolutely tired today

 

[maybeicanheal]

Devastated and completely alone.

 

[1964dodge]

I'm in a pretty good mood, even though I'm also feeling a bit lazy/sleepy

i'm glad that you're in a pretty good mood

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Absolutely tired today

 

[1964dodge]

Devastated and completely alone.

i'm sorry that you feel devastated, would you like to talk about it? i'm sorry that you feel completely alone, you can talk with us anytime.

mike...

 

[1964dodge]

I’m sad, and unhappy.

i hope you feel better soon

mike....

 

[1964dodge]

Harsh? Self-critical? Stupid? I don't know the word to describe this nobody kind of feeling; wanting but unable to be proud of myself for getting decent things done. I am critical of myself for my run and workout.

 

[maybeicanheal]

i'm sorry that you feel devastated, would you like to talk about it? i'm sorry that you feel completely alone, you can talk with us anytime.

mike...

Thank you- isn’t it amazing what talking to just one person can do? I talked to my dad for a long time and feel a bit better. He’s very good at putting things into perspective and today I guess I just feel alone because I don’t really have anyone I’m close to anymore, outside of my parents, and even if I did…I don’t know. I never felt comfortable reaching out to even my very closest friends with suicidal ideation thoughts? But I think…that’s pretty par for the course.

thank you for reaching out/listening.

 

[1964dodge]

So bored all the time. I have no life outside of seeking treatment for my depression. No career. No friends. No passion. I have nothing. I don’t know what I want, where to start, or why I even try.

 

[maybeicanheal]

Depressed and very bitten my insects as I have been working out in the garden. I'm doing my best to keep going but I'm feeling so alone and like I am being punished for things that I didn't do.

Would you like to tell me about your garden? Ive been looking for a new hobby and I have the opposite of a green thumb 😂 How did you get started?

 

[1964dodge]

i am actually feeling pretty damned good. i was supposed to go to my lung specialist today but we had to cancel because my wife isn't feeling great today and i don't like driving alone. it's no big deal because my breathing is so much better lately, i have bad days but not many, it used to be too far for me to walk to the parking lot so my wife had to push me in my wheelchair, last 3 or 4 months i can walk all the way with my walker.

my weight specialist wanted me off mirtazepine and put me on duloxetine. i finally remembered i took it before but had to stop because of shall we say personal side effects lol. i stopped it and screw it. so i stopped any depression meds and i'm doing so much better, no depression at all. also pain is at a good level. it's has been so high for too long. i usually go in cycles i'm so grateful it's on a lower cycle

life is good

mike