How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[crowgarden]

I'm sorry things are so bad @cinnnamonflakez , it sounds awful.

Is there a way that SF can help?

Sending hugs if you would like hugs

Thanks May but I don't think so. This is just how my mind works. Nothing can change that.

 

[may71]

Thanks

You're welcome!

 

[AvidFan]

Thank you.

 

[cymbele]

Incredibly boring day at work. Thursday I give my boss the proposed schedule for part time. I still am a little nervous. Go figure- I can give notice of resignation no problem but discussing part time work very traumatic for me. But I am having trouble keeping myself busy so it will relieve me of some stress.

coincidently I have figured out that most of my current depression stems from exhaustion. Why I don’t know. I use the CPAP, go to bed early, do all the right things and still have little energy. I had planned on going out for a walk in the morning before work but it seems like it would make me feel more tired. And then being tired all the time makes me want to do less things. And I am gaining weight because I am not exercising.
Thanks for listening. I’m very bored right now

 

[LumberJack]

I feel like I made a big mistake getting born into this world. I’m sure it wasn’t my choice, but I wish it was, so that I could somehow make this lifetime my last. But I can’t not exist now that I do exist. However, according to the observations drawn from the Hubble telescope there are literally too many entire galaxies in the observable universe, meaning that we can’t observe who knows how much is ultimately out there. So maybe next lifetime will be less painful. Maybe.

 

[AvidFan]

I am feeling like myself just now. Tired, but my head isn't ringing, I'm not spinning with dizziness and feeling depersonalization from the benzo rebound. Nearly 7 weeks out and I think I'm getting there - as long as I keep the stress off.

 

[Windhover]

I was just thinking that in my next life or whatever sort of existence I might experience beauty and harmonious things and even create them.
Feeling-wise, I'm sad, ashamed and I regret the fact I was too nice, that I showed trust and love to someone fake.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Sad and surprised. I discovered that my sister died 2 weeks ago. Her husband (pedophile) never reached out to me or my niece, tacky. I keep thinking about her and how she took care of me as a child, she's older. Tomorrow, I'm driving the 2 hours to visit the grave and pay my respects. I hope that there's an office that can talk me where she's buried.

So sorry to hear about your loss. Very tacky of her husband not to inform you. Most cemeteries do have an office to help you locate the burial spot. Take care on your drive.

 

[AvidFan]

Had an odd night walk. The friendly cat wouldn't come out of the garden but I saw this flash and the black cat came out, had a little fuss, then ran back in again. Funny things.

I finally have some days stretching in front of me where I have a lot less meetings and human interaction than has been the case lately, so I can pace myself, just keep on top of keeping plates spinning, and hopefully get some much needed recovery time. Got a 3 day weekend as well as I'm taking my birthday on Monday off. Still got a few tradesmen to deal with but hopefully they will be better than the crooks and I'll get at least a couple of things fixed. Goodnight and love to all on SF ❤️❤️❤️

 

[KM76710]

Sad and surprised. I discovered that my sister died 2 weeks ago. Her husband (pedophile) never reached out to me or my niece, tacky. I keep thinking about her and how she took care of me as a child, she's older. Tomorrow, I'm driving the 2 hours to visit the grave and pay my respects. I hope that there's an office that can talk me where she's buried.

Sad to hear of your loss of your sister and you use kinder words than I would for describing her husband.

 

[Windhover]

What a jerk your inlaw was being to fail to inform you of your sister's death. @Lane I hope there's no need to see him in person. Let us know how it went when you return home safely.

 

[Congratsbaby]

Lol, all female. It is hard to tell gender here. Sure, I'll try to answer. Thanks @Congratsbaby.

Yea I see. Do you love your fiance ?

 

[Inastorm]

Feeling-wise, I'm sad, ashamed and I regret the fact I was too nice, that I showed trust and love to someone fake.

I totally relate to this and found that this also sums up my experience. Its a difficult one, as i dont think i could act/ be any other way, as im all or nothing. But i have feelings of foolishness as to being the way i am.
Hope you feel a bit better soon.

 

[Lane]

Yea I see. Do you love your fiance ?

He makes it hard to at times. But yes, at least I try.

 

[Congratsbaby]

He makes it hard to at times. But yes, at least I try.

I see. Would you like if I make any further comments?

 

[Baywasp]

So burnt out, but I don’t really have any options right now

 

[Congratsbaby]

So burnt out, but I don’t really have any options right now

I am sorry. I wish it gets better for you as soon as it can

 

[Windhover]

But i have feelings of foolishness as to being the way i am.

I know what you mean, it's the same for me. In my case a temporary case of foolishness it is not: it's simply the sincere and intense way I relate to people. So, I've used mindfulness to tag this particular emotion; I want to de-weaponise it.
I hope you feel better soon too @Inastorm

 

[AvidFan]

Like I went to bed with wet mortar mix in my head and it's solidified into thick cement overnight. Had some dreams/sleep but it's been a busy week and think my poor head is paying the price.

 

[Lane]

I see. Would you like if I make any further comments?

Sure, no problem @Congratsbaby . Thanks