How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[AvidFan]

Freezing cold. Even though its 21C in my living room.

I feel good, I think I saved enough money for my PhD in another country. I don't have any financial problem to go there anymore. I have to have publication in a good journal though. Wish me luck. Although I believe in my research I spent 3 years of my life over this research. It's original completely.

I hope your life in another country will give you some peace and happiness and freedom to be who you are ❤️ good luck with the steps to get there!

 

[MyGirlyGirl]

Freezing cold. Even though its 21C in my living room.


I hope your life in another country will give you some peace and happiness and freedom to be who you are ❤️ good luck with the steps to get there!

Thank you, I believe in myself. I've always been the best student in the class. Although I study in the hardest situations. I have a big, noisy family, a dad who won't allow me to go to library and threatens me every day. But I manage somehow. I love studying it's the only think I'm good at.

 

[Something.idk]

I feel good, I think I saved enough money for my PhD in another country. I don't have any financial problem to go there anymore. I have to have publication in a good journal though. Wish me luck. Although I believe in my research I spent 3 years of my life over this research. It's original completely.

Good luck i hope you can get there safely!!

 

[KM76710]

not great, still recovering from post sepsis syndrome. the swelling on my left foot is getting a little better, i finally can put a sock and slipper on lol. at least it's my left foot not my driving foot lol. fatigue is still bad but getting better.

mike

I hope that things continue to improve and get better for you and that you see good results soon.

 

[KM76710]

I wonder, [mod edit methods], would i be succesful at doing it or im just fooling myself? I am either scared or dont have access to other methods.

Wishes that you will continue to join in and see the support you can and do have here, it is a good positive so I hope you keep posting here.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Lousy.

 

[Windhover]

(h) @SillyOldBear

 

[Windhover]

yearning

 

[KM76710]

yearning

I do get that way at times, a bit wistful and missing older and slower times than these.

 

[meow124]

feel like crying or just dying, and I don’t know why. I think I’ve been suppressing a lot of my emotions, and I suddenly feel somewhat sad.

 

[Pebble mouse]

I'm having another good day today. I believe I'm up to 3 days now, which is atypical for me. I hope I can keep it up!

 

[Something.idk]

Tired i feel like my brain is working in slow motion. Im already dreading going to sleep and its only 5pm. I really want to kill myself.

 

[cymbele]

Finished my last service at the church for a while. The pain is achy so a low level today after sitting for six hours. (I have pain in my hip). Taking two months to see when the steroid injection wears off. I am so worried about my bucket list trip to Alaska and the hip. The plane portion is 6 hours of flight. I still intend to go.
and no I don’t think I will forget how to run the equipment for the church. I have done it for over five years.

 

[KM76710]

Tired i feel like my brain is working in slow motion. Im already dreading going to sleep and its only 5pm. I really want to kill myself.

I hope that feeling passes quickly and that things improve for you.

 

[AmberMarie]

Tired, out of energy, and quite a bit overwhelmed.

 

[LumberJack]

I feel bad. I don’t have a reason, and I’m keeping that in mind. It’s been so continuous for me lately, that I kind of greet it in recognition, like, “there’s my despair again, oh well.” It does come and go. It would be nice if it didn’t come back so quickly after it goes, but I have depression, so that’s what it does.

I think I need to learn to work with what I’ve got, instead of trying to reach some goal state where I have gotten any significant amount of my shit together. I don’t know what that would even look like, anyway.

 

[Windhover]

I'm trying to find some sustainable emotional/mental place above the attitude of 'I give up.' I'm still doing nominal amount of stuff for hygeine, food and workouts. Work has gone to a weird output but that's alright I suppose. I was talking to someone today about ADD. As a consequence of the conversation, I'm fairly certain I have always had it. They were saying work and pretty much everything is easier when they're on medication.

 

[I_waste_everything]

Again, like the timeline around me isn't mine.

At the very least, the idea that the universe and time and sights around me are *literally* fake is waning starkly. I realize that around me, for itself, and for everyone *other than* me, it's fitting time and a real universe with its own right to exist, and people around me have a right to identify by it.

However, more and more, night by night, I feel that this isn't me. I'm stranded in this setting that imitates possible elements of my life, but I don't actually live here, what "happened" to me here hasn't actually *happened* even if little traces around me reflect decisions I have made in relation to this true-to-everyone-else-but-not-true-to-me timeline, and I feel the real present beckoning me.

I've actually had a good time tonight. Enough to let go, briefly, of the yearning to kill myself out of this place/time I don't belong. And in fact, being away from that gives me more time to take in this unbelonging, this alienness. I hope I get more of it, because when the yearning to get myself back to my own time does take hold again, I want to be more learned than I am when I'm too close to see details that the relative distance that my current mood offers me, makes feelworthy.

 

[meow124]

I feel like everything is falling apart. I feel so alone and like I have no friends

 

[Something.idk]

I feel like everything is falling apart. I feel so alone and like I have no friends

Im sorry everything sucks. Sending hugs