Gained more weight over Christmas holidays. More to lose. so do I exercise? No my hip hurts so much I am content to sit in the one chair that does not cause it to hurt. It's a nice day but I don't go out for a walk even. I realized yesterday (as I was trying to persuade myself to do something) that I am dealing with a low level depression. The first month of retirement was all PT exercises. The second was getting ready for Christmas. Now it is reality that I face. And although I always wanted to have the opportunity to exercise it seems like I have too much time. And I need to get going.
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Frustrated. I'm back in admin hell with the ISP and they are not doing anything differently for this problem that has been ongoing since end of September. It takes me over an hour to get to someone who can deal with my connection because it's managed as one big network for the entire building, and naturally you cannot reach that without going through an IVR - exhausting all the useless automated troubleshooting steps to get to an agent who is in the residential support team and needs to send you to the bulk wi-fi support, who also cannot help so they need to send you to a different sub-department, but it's been 50/50 on whether I get that far before the line just disconnects. Takes 30 min each time with no exaggeration - my source is the timer on my phone that says how long the call has been connected. And since that takes two attempts, it's an hour's worth of frustration round trip.
I guess when you have an entire apartment complex locked into your stupid site-wide system wherein residents cannot even get their own ISP if they pay for it separately, you don't have to give a crap about your customers. If we (all the residents) could leave en-masse, I would bet large amounts of money that this would be getting a higher level of attention.
I guess when you have an entire apartment complex locked into your stupid site-wide system wherein residents cannot even get their own ISP if they pay for it separately, you don't have to give a crap about your customers. If we (all the residents) could leave en-masse, I would bet large amounts of money that this would be getting a higher level of attention.
Right now, sad, and grieving. I deleted messages in my email to clear space, before realizing I can and should just pay the relatively modest storage upgrade. I have deleted some socia media and receipt emails- and possibly even some personal ones, though I did add the -(emails/names I want to keep) to my searches to lessen that, so I can't confirm.
Anyway, at the time I did it to save space and "put the past behind me", but what everyone calls the "past" isn't my "past", it's my present, an anchor in this unstable "future" I've woken up in. So I feel like I've just deleted some core digital items to understand my life and present and map my timeline and alleged life and "life".
Right now that feels very mortal. I've tried introducing the part of me aware of and caring for those bits to my belief in the memory-carry-over-retry, yet right now the part of me in that present is not ready to be introduced to anything that can help it cope. So I must allow this sinking feeling.
Anyway, at the time I did it to save space and "put the past behind me", but what everyone calls the "past" isn't my "past", it's my present, an anchor in this unstable "future" I've woken up in. So I feel like I've just deleted some core digital items to understand my life and present and map my timeline and alleged life and "life".
Right now that feels very mortal. I've tried introducing the part of me aware of and caring for those bits to my belief in the memory-carry-over-retry, yet right now the part of me in that present is not ready to be introduced to anything that can help it cope. So I must allow this sinking feeling.
practicing acceptance, but I need more practice, evidently. I get upset about things I shouldn't, because it happens every time. I feel like Charlie Brown trying to kick the ball with Lucy. She pulls it out from under him and he falls over every single time but he never learns. It's like what in the hell was I actually expecting?
But, like I don't have to be happy about it, do I? Even tho it's not a surprise that I'm getting sent all over IVR hell, it's still frustrating. And then I beat myself up for allowing myself to be frustrated. I can't get a break from myself sometimes.
But, like I don't have to be happy about it, do I? Even tho it's not a surprise that I'm getting sent all over IVR hell, it's still frustrating. And then I beat myself up for allowing myself to be frustrated. I can't get a break from myself sometimes.
Hi @cymbele. Sorry to hear about the low level depression. I know my meds help me and was wondering if you considered taking meds? Not that that's the end all be all.
Have you considered volunteering. I know around here there's the soup kitchen, boys n girls club, art center etc. I believe United Way has a list of agencies and their needs.
Have you considered volunteering. I know around here there's the soup kitchen, boys n girls club, art center etc. I believe United Way has a list of agencies and their needs.
sorry, the physical pain I had been dealing with got to me. I don't know how others like @1964dodge does it. It's coloring my world and the isolation because of it is depressing. I called the pdoc. He talks to me. I'm worried i'll be out of shape for my bucket list trip in July. I'm feeling better this morning,
Love to all. Thanks for taking the time to support me.
Love to all. Thanks for taking the time to support me.
My heart, am I supposed to be OK???? A massacre beyond one’s imagination is happening in my country and no one cares. I was there until 2 years ago and the things I saw were beyond describe and definitely triggering.
How does the university expect us to function and take exams like a normal human. As I am even guilty to be alive right now…
How does the university expect us to function and take exams like a normal human. As I am even guilty to be alive right now…
