How Are You Feeling Right Now?

[Lane]

Uncertain about many things in life and of myself

 

[Angie]

Uncertain about many things in life and of myself

Me, too.

 

[Lane]

Empty. Deeply Alone. Rebound alone, is that a thing?
It’s work and effort to not sit and ruminate and just cry throughout the day even upon waking
I’m Not wanting to go to doctor apt and therapy today. But I will

I hope that your appointments went well @JanisSPK . I hope that you feel better.

 

[seabird]

@Angie Sending my kind of prayers for the thrush or this thing, or whatever it is, to leave you be.

 

[seabird]

Uncertain about many things in life and of myself

I understand, at least I think so. I am asking my mind to sort out the uncertain bits and focus on the strengths. And hoping those strengths stay supple and vital. For all of us.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Remember the thrush issue of mine? It hasn't improved and I went back to my new primary today. She is concerned and confused that I haven't responded to treatment. She prescribed a tablet that dissolves in the mouth, an antifungal. 5 times a day for 7 - 14 days.

She is ordering labs to test a few things, like HIV. Also, she showed me photos of tongue diseases, and mine looked like one that is cancer.

She doesn't even know who to refer me to.

I've slept all day except for showering and going to the dr appt. And that in 106F temps.

I am quite upset and anxious.

Sorry to hear all of this. I have been told that a good dentist can often detect cancer when they examine a person's mouth. Would it be worth while to see yours again. HIV makes no sense unless you got it though a blood transfusion. Keep us posted.

 

[SillyOldBear]

Empty. Deeply Alone. Rebound alone, is that a thing?
It’s work and effort to not sit and ruminate and just cry throughout the day even upon waking
I’m Not wanting to go to doctor apt and therapy today. But I will

Hope the doctor appt answered some of your questions.

 

[seabird]

I've not been able to fix the mes, and I take responsibility it was me who made of my life. I just deepen the sadness of it in a number of ways. How much sadness there is in the world, and how little joy to counterbalance it

 

[AvidFan]

Remember the thrush issue of mine? It hasn't improved and I went back to my new primary today. She is concerned and confused that I haven't responded to treatment. She prescribed a tablet that dissolves in the mouth, an antifungal. 5 times a day for 7 - 14 days.

She is ordering labs to test a few things, like HIV. Also, she showed me photos of tongue diseases, and mine looked like one that is cancer.

She doesn't even know who to refer me to.

I've slept all day except for showering and going to the dr appt. And that in 106F temps.

I am quite upset and anxious.

Sorry to hear this. I hope you can get it sorted and soon.

 

[AvidFan]

Feel a bit better. Managed to get an uninterrupted sleep for first time in months now I've stopped overhydrating. I was advised to drink lots of water by the doctors to "flush the uti" (which is actually only partly true). The problem was after tracking my intake and output, I was already drinking sufficient fluids so following that advice meant I was drinking a litre over recommended normal amounts, and the extra litre I was drinking was just causing a boom and bust cycle with my kidneys and they were dumping excess all night 🫨🫠

 

[JanisSPK]

I hope that your appointments went well @JanisSPK . I hope that you feel better.

Thank you

 

[AvidFan]

Empty. Deeply Alone. Rebound alone, is that a thing?
It’s work and effort to not sit and ruminate and just cry throughout the day even upon waking
I’m Not wanting to go to doctor apt and therapy today. But I will

It is a thing for sure. I hope your appointments help.

 

[JanisSPK]

It is a thing for sure. I hope your appointments help.

Thank you🌻

 

[LumberJack]

Like 10 pounds of shit in 9 pound bag.

 

[seabird]

I've been wondering about my feelings and how to find more strength. This is what I want to achieve, lol, despite my broken heart and lack of brain power.
"Rare are those people who use the mind; few use the heart; and really unique are those who use both." It's a quote from an interview with Rita Levi-Montalcini, neurobiologist and Nobel Prize winner

 

[LumberJack]

Feel a bit better. Managed to get an uninterrupted sleep for first time in months now I've stopped overhydrating. I was advised to drink lots of water by the doctors to "flush the uti" (which is actually only partly true). The problem was after tracking my intake and output, I was already drinking sufficient fluids so following that advice meant I was drinking a litre over recommended normal amounts, and the extra litre I was drinking was just causing a boom and bust cycle with my kidneys and they were dumping excess all night 🫨🫠

Was that doctor aware of your already sufficient hydration routine?

They might have assumed just based on the statistics over the population as a whole, and I think most of us don’t get enough water from foods and a glass combined.

 

[JanisSPK]

I've been wondering about my feelings and how to find more strength. This is what I want to achieve, lol, despite my broken heart and lack of brain power.
"Rare are those people who use the mind; few use the heart; and really unique are those who use both." It's a quote from an interview with Rita Levi-Montalcini, neurobiologist and Nobel Prize winner

I wish it wasn’t true. And it is a good quote to have. Thank you. We are broken hearted and maybe we will rise out of it sooner than later🌹

 

[AvidFan]

Was that doctor aware of your already sufficient hydration routine?

They might have assumed just based on the statistics over the population as a whole, and I think most of us don’t get enough water from foods and a glass combined.

They are not aware of me at all really. They see a man in his 50s and assume I don't do any exercise, don't drink enough water, eat pies for breakfast, and don't understand anything about my health. Which is generally true of the population in this area, but the system doesn't allow for outliers like myself 😄

 

[AvidFan]

Trying not to get more stressed. Have a problem with house I really need to get sorted before the winter storms and have been struggling with my health and not got anywhere near sorting it. I had a word of mouth recommendation so I asked this person 2 weeks ago. Yes I'll come this week. Nothing. So I chased beginning of this week - I practically begged them to tell me if they weren't interested as I have only asked them and I need to get this sorted. "Yes I am interested, I will call you this week and come and look at it." It is now the end of the week and nothing. This sort of behaviour absolutely annoys the living shit out of me. No way will I be hiring this idiot after this, but it means I've lost 2 weeks and winter isn't getting any further away. I am terrified what happens in the middle of a storm and water starts pouring in around the window. I don't think I can cope with that. I'm trying to get it fixed but this latest person is like the 5 I tried last summer - say they'll help then ghost me. Over and over again. I'm that desperate I'm going to write to the council and ask for a referral to see if I can get any help. I don't want a handout. I just want to be connected to someone who can fix my house who isn't going to lie, ghost me, or scam me out of £1000s. 🤷

What makes it even worse is the latest person is actually a neighbour - lives 7 doors down from me and just cannot be bothered. I grew up on a street where everyone knew each other and everyone would do anything for each other, fixing cars, running errands, doing house jobs. The world has moved on and not in a good way.

 

[AvidFan]

Glad it's Saturday tomorrow, at least.