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How are you today 1-10?

AvidFan

AvidFan

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#13,928
#13,928
Probably 4 or 5. Still have ideation (it's a constant really), but I never find my ideation irrational. It is a logical response to ongoing suffering in some ways and a last resort means of escape, control and dignity in the face of the opposite. Ironically if I ever did reach for my method, it would probably be from this place or lower rather than higher levels, because I would be congnizant of being driven by my amygdala and and other lower brain functions rather than my higher selves and recognise that acting from that place would be a reactive mistake rather than a considered response. Interesting I'm at 4-5ish. This is one of the absolute worst points in my life to date (physical pain and health problems, financial issues, work issues, other challenges), but at the same time Saturday morning is the usual hight point of the week, so am trying to just enjoy that. Probably explains why I'm calm enough in the moment, while recognising it's not going to last.
 
DarkNightshade

DarkNightshade

Well-Known Member
#13,929
#13,929
AvidFan said:
Probably 4 or 5. Still have ideation (it's a constant really), but I never find my ideation irrational. It is a logical response to ongoing suffering in some ways and a last resort means of escape, control and dignity in the face of the opposite. Ironically if I ever did reach for my method, it would probably be from this place or lower rather than higher levels, because I would be congnizant of being driven by my amygdala and and other lower brain functions rather than my higher selves and recognise that acting from that place would be a reactive mistake rather than a considered response. Interesting I'm at 4-5ish. This is one of the absolute worst points in my life to date (physical pain and health problems, financial issues, work issues, other challenges), but at the same time Saturday morning is the usual hight point of the week, so am trying to just enjoy that. Probably explains why I'm calm enough in the moment, while recognising it's not going to last.
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I'm glad you can at least have some respite this morning. Take care.
 
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Lostman85

Well-Known Member
#13,935
#13,935
AvidFan said:
Probably 4 or 5. Still have ideation (it's a constant really), but I never find my ideation irrational. It is a logical response to ongoing suffering in some ways and a last resort means of escape, control and dignity in the face of the opposite. Ironically if I ever did reach for my method, it would probably be from this place or lower rather than higher levels, because I would be congnizant of being driven by my amygdala and and other lower brain functions rather than my higher selves and recognise that acting from that place would be a reactive mistake rather than a considered response. Interesting I'm at 4-5ish. This is one of the absolute worst points in my life to date (physical pain and health problems, financial issues, work issues, other challenges), but at the same time Saturday morning is the usual hight point of the week, so am trying to just enjoy that. Probably explains why I'm calm enough in the moment, while recognising it's not going to last.
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I hope enjoy your day and know things will get better. You deserve better. Keep posting to let out the disturbing thoughts. Releasing them will and should help a little. I hope feel better soon and know challenges come and then they will go. So things will looking brighter after. Have great day on your Saturday. We are here for you
 
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