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How many attempts have you had?
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Two serious, two were impulsive - so 4. I tried to overdose in September 2008 on 15 non-prescription pills (don't laugh, I was actually really naive). Never even ended up in A&E. Just ended up waking up 4 hours later with a dry mouth and unable to sleep for two nights. Turns out they were high in caffeine or something. I wanted to (so didn't attempt properly) slit my wrists once when I got bullied on the bus, didn't do more than get a scratch. Had a little scar there for a while. I also tried to overdose again with alcohol one morning before school.. again didn't even end up in A&E. Those were around Spring 2009.
My fourth and most recent time (August 2010) was impulsive and the only one to attract any attention (although it wasn't intended at all). Wanted to jump off a multistorey car park, but lost the nerve and ended up getting detained by the police. Heh.
Not neccessarily. My friend has survived two serious overdoses where he OD'd on anything he could get his hands on and sustained permanent organ damage the second time around. Even when people at their worst in mental health - it doesn't make suicide just easy to do. Sometimes it's impulsive and 10 minutes of desperation, other times it's more serious and premeditated. The only successful ways to commit suicide are ones that directly kill you.. but not everyone has access to things like guns, and it takes proper guts to jump off a high place, with hanging you risk surviving but ending up as a vegetable or severely physically disabled.
My fourth and most recent time (August 2010) was impulsive and the only one to attract any attention (although it wasn't intended at all). Wanted to jump off a multistorey car park, but lost the nerve and ended up getting detained by the police. Heh.
Not neccessarily. My friend has survived two serious overdoses where he OD'd on anything he could get his hands on and sustained permanent organ damage the second time around. Even when people at their worst in mental health - it doesn't make suicide just easy to do. Sometimes it's impulsive and 10 minutes of desperation, other times it's more serious and premeditated. The only successful ways to commit suicide are ones that directly kill you.. but not everyone has access to things like guns, and it takes proper guts to jump off a high place, with hanging you risk surviving but ending up as a vegetable or severely physically disabled.
Just one. I tried to hang myself, but the belt I was using broke. I can think of at least three other times where I was fully prepared to make an attempt as well, one back in freshman year of high school, one almost a year ago, and one just a month or two ago, but I didn't fully go through with those. I either reached out to a friend or someone for help, and in the last case I chose not to jump from my class building for fear it wasn't tall enough.
Trying hard not to attempt again, so I ought not to write something like "next time I won't fail" or something. I should at least try to overcome this, right?
I don't know. >.<
Trying hard not to attempt again, so I ought not to write something like "next time I won't fail" or something. I should at least try to overcome this, right?
I don't know. >.<
Wow, Im sorry to see so many of us that have tried multiple times. I cant help but to wonder if we put as much effort into getting better if it would make a differance? Im hurt to see that so many have thought that this is the way out of life. Life can and is hard on alot of us, but doesnt that make you a better person to overcome these obsticles, these kick in the balls, drag me behind a car hurts(how ever you would describe it).
Ive been sould searching lately, Ive come to the conclusion that yep Im not really where I thought I would be, but this is where I am so best just to keep trecking along and see what comes next. What if your next is what youve always wanted and longed for?
Ive seen so many go lately esp with the TV coverage of suicide. We have teenagers that want to end it because of bullies, we have adults leaving because there wives or husbands cheated. But dont we need to look at the bigger picture in life, we have people out there that dont want to leave but are being forced, by the bad in this world, bad people, bad living.
There is not enough being done about this!!!!
Ive been sould searching lately, Ive come to the conclusion that yep Im not really where I thought I would be, but this is where I am so best just to keep trecking along and see what comes next. What if your next is what youve always wanted and longed for?
Ive seen so many go lately esp with the TV coverage of suicide. We have teenagers that want to end it because of bullies, we have adults leaving because there wives or husbands cheated. But dont we need to look at the bigger picture in life, we have people out there that dont want to leave but are being forced, by the bad in this world, bad people, bad living.
There is not enough being done about this!!!!
the biggest thing for me lately is just trying to do things one day or one hour at a time and not get stuck thinking about all the ways i'm messing up or can mess up. i hate the things that i've done and how many times i've tried but it's been 5 months since i tried last so (not to sound conseated) that's good for me.
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