I've been talking to a close friend of mine, B, about whether I should get help in a hospital of some sort for my depression or not. B says I should do what I think is best but, I'm not used to making decisions like that. The top things that keep preventing me from going forward with any of it is not wanting my family to worry any further about me or even find out in the first place I have depression, I dont want jobs or schools in the future to find out and Im scared of how my sister and niece would view it or even what will happen with them while Im not around. I do want to get help, Im already taking medicine for my social anxiety and health problems. I dont want to keep adding medicine as a solution to everything, I just want actual help that'll help. How does a person that always thinks of others first, make such a huge decision?