So I’m sort of seeing this guy I really really like who was my ASL teacher for six weeks. We got to be good friends. He’s in Bangladesh rn with his family until Jan 22nd and we talk every day and he makes me feel so beautiful and appreciated and important and special. It’s really different and so nice.
Flashback to maybe three years ago, I was seeing this guy for a year on and off. One night I went to his place for a party and was planning on staying over because i always stayed over with him when I was there.
He ignored me the whole night and at the end of the evening I was getting ready for bed and he threw me a blanket for the couch and said goodnight and went upstairs with another girl right in front of me.
We hadn’t spoken since then, but in October he sent me an email with a hand written apology letter attached and we’ve been communicating ever since then. He says he’s changed and is more self aware and I’m still stupidly attracted to him even though I don’t trust him at all. He says he’s still attracted to me too.
I’m frustrated because I always felt, and still feel, a really strong connection to him, but on the other hand I don’t trust him and I want to keep hating him.
I’ve never been in a situation where I’ve had to choose between two guys.
Right now I’m leaning toward my ASL teacher. He’s deaf and our communication in person is hard sometimes but he helps me a lot and we text every day about everything. He’s so kind and considerate and really seems like he wants to be with me.
The other guy still seems aloof and like he thinks he’s further along on his path to self improvement than he actually is and that scares me. He was an alcoholic and still drinks but insists he has it under control. I don’t like that he’s so stubborn about changing a lifestyle that he knows has caused him so many problems. But I like him a lot too. Which is so dumb, I know. But I don’t know how to explain the connection I feel/have with him.
I’m just very torn and confused right now.
Tell me I’m an idiot lol
Flashback to maybe three years ago, I was seeing this guy for a year on and off. One night I went to his place for a party and was planning on staying over because i always stayed over with him when I was there.
He ignored me the whole night and at the end of the evening I was getting ready for bed and he threw me a blanket for the couch and said goodnight and went upstairs with another girl right in front of me.
We hadn’t spoken since then, but in October he sent me an email with a hand written apology letter attached and we’ve been communicating ever since then. He says he’s changed and is more self aware and I’m still stupidly attracted to him even though I don’t trust him at all. He says he’s still attracted to me too.
I’m frustrated because I always felt, and still feel, a really strong connection to him, but on the other hand I don’t trust him and I want to keep hating him.
I’ve never been in a situation where I’ve had to choose between two guys.
Right now I’m leaning toward my ASL teacher. He’s deaf and our communication in person is hard sometimes but he helps me a lot and we text every day about everything. He’s so kind and considerate and really seems like he wants to be with me.
The other guy still seems aloof and like he thinks he’s further along on his path to self improvement than he actually is and that scares me. He was an alcoholic and still drinks but insists he has it under control. I don’t like that he’s so stubborn about changing a lifestyle that he knows has caused him so many problems. But I like him a lot too. Which is so dumb, I know. But I don’t know how to explain the connection I feel/have with him.
I’m just very torn and confused right now.
Tell me I’m an idiot lol