Ever since I was young I could never grasp the concept of learning from my mistakes. I am too stupid to learn from them even though I am 20. I am probably one of the most pathetic human beings you could ever know. I am a 20-year-old loser with Aspergers that lives with his parents. I dropped out of college because I can't do well in academics. I never had a job or made a living off of something once in my life. I would have to guess my IQ is at least in the 80s. I never had many friends growing up or was ever social. People probably thought I was going to be some sort of school shooter. I am 5'8 and weigh about 235 pounds. I have absolutely nothing in my entire life that I have achieved expect I graduate high school and graduated with a horrible 2.7 GPA. My mind is unlearnable. It does not have the ability to understand how to learn. For example, let's say I keep going down a single street where I get beaten and robbed compared to the other street where it is perfectly safe. It doesn't matter how many times I would get beaten and robbed because I will keep going down that one street because my mind doesn't learn from mistakes.
I am also an incel. At this point I don't see myself getting into a relationship because of the number of women that want someone who is their perfect 6ft or above, rich prince fucking charming. I know I will die alone but why can't I accept it? I know even if I make a ton of improvements in my life I would never have a shot of ever losing my virginity as well. The standards girls have are utterly fucking absurd to the point where a huge majority of guys do not have the physical and other attractive features that these standards are met towards.
It is fucking bullshit that I feel like I have no self-control to the point where I really feel like everything in my life was predetermined in this piece of the shit world I have to live in. I really want to change my loser ways but I can't because I have no choice but to accept reality and just watch life go by in this hellhole of a world. I serve no purpose but to slowly waste my parents' money and have them secretly view me as a disappointment. I can't wait till the day I die because I do not have the will power to kill myself. I do have multiple health problems like being prediabetic and a very high heart rate to the point I wouldn't be surprised if I got a heart attack at the age of 40. I have ADHD and bipolar which probably is the reason why I cant learn from my mistakes. Anyways pls help me. I don't know what I want to do anymore. I all do with my life is waste time on youtube and twitch until I sleep. Please send advice I really need it because I have reached a whole new low in my life.
I am also an incel. At this point I don't see myself getting into a relationship because of the number of women that want someone who is their perfect 6ft or above, rich prince fucking charming. I know I will die alone but why can't I accept it? I know even if I make a ton of improvements in my life I would never have a shot of ever losing my virginity as well. The standards girls have are utterly fucking absurd to the point where a huge majority of guys do not have the physical and other attractive features that these standards are met towards.
It is fucking bullshit that I feel like I have no self-control to the point where I really feel like everything in my life was predetermined in this piece of the shit world I have to live in. I really want to change my loser ways but I can't because I have no choice but to accept reality and just watch life go by in this hellhole of a world. I serve no purpose but to slowly waste my parents' money and have them secretly view me as a disappointment. I can't wait till the day I die because I do not have the will power to kill myself. I do have multiple health problems like being prediabetic and a very high heart rate to the point I wouldn't be surprised if I got a heart attack at the age of 40. I have ADHD and bipolar which probably is the reason why I cant learn from my mistakes. Anyways pls help me. I don't know what I want to do anymore. I all do with my life is waste time on youtube and twitch until I sleep. Please send advice I really need it because I have reached a whole new low in my life.