I just need to end it, I can’t do this anymore
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Hi, just to let you know i want to die as well. Im homeless living in a tent in the woods, i have degenerative disc disease, bi polar and anxiety with major depression. Social security denied me disability. Im unmedicated and waiting on a wait list to talk to a free shrink. All there going to do is get me a script and i have to pay out of pocket. If your broke they really just dont give a shit. I cant pay for it anyway. My income is about $90 a week from plasma donations and its not a guarantee. I havent showered in 2 months. I eat bread and peanut butter alot and drink water mostly. I have nothing. I do have somethings but might as well say i aint got shit. Im rarely happy. I dont understand how anyone could be happy with my life.
I fail at everything. Jobs, family, complete strangers, church you name it.
Most people are just self centered and greedy. They dont give a shit until it happens to them. Im pretty sure im going to die out here if i dont kill myself first.
Everyday is pain. I walk like 10 miles a day. I hurt from head to toe. im 46. I have to do this just to survive. My family is dead. I have no friends. I dont want friends.
I cant even get into a shelter cause they said i have to be from this county or i only get 3 days. Shelters just fuck with homeless people and kick you eventually.
I just thought maybe you need to hear from someone who is going through alot of shit and wants to die as well. Maybe not? idk.
I fail at everything. Jobs, family, complete strangers, church you name it.
Most people are just self centered and greedy. They dont give a shit until it happens to them. Im pretty sure im going to die out here if i dont kill myself first.
Everyday is pain. I walk like 10 miles a day. I hurt from head to toe. im 46. I have to do this just to survive. My family is dead. I have no friends. I dont want friends.
I cant even get into a shelter cause they said i have to be from this county or i only get 3 days. Shelters just fuck with homeless people and kick you eventually.
I just thought maybe you need to hear from someone who is going through alot of shit and wants to die as well. Maybe not? idk.
I'm so sorry to hear of your terrible circumstances and I hope you can get more help soon. You should be able to appeal the disability decision if you haven't already. It's awful that you were denied disability at age 46 with the conditions you have.
I'm not very familiar with the system in the US but I would think you might be able to get food stamps at least. Here in Canada we have plenty of homeless people as well but there are places that give out meals, at least in the cities, and there are also food banks/food pantries. We have a lot of members here from various places so maybe if there's someone in your area they can advise you.
I have to admit I would be very despondent in your situation, but we have several members here who are (or have been) homeless. When I was in hospital (psych unit), a few of the other patients were homeless and the hospital social workers were looking into housing for them. I'm not sure if that would work the same way in the US.
