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Meditation 30 days
- Thread starter SonjaRot
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Sunday, September 9
Day 2, Day 3 - Check
Just finished meditation, feeling so peaceful... so so peaceful. Close to euphoria, maybe it's because of the song I just found and meditated to
This is a dream,
So far I have thought about things, trying to know myself better, to see which of my beliefs had changed, and to see who I really am.
I pinned down a few things that were obvious to me from the start, but I had never really looked at them. So these are few of the things I have been overlooking since I started using my brain again.
* I have let the world to destroy my romantic and kind spirit. I used to be a better person. Now I'm a sarcastic monster who believes and trusts in nothing... literally. Well, I had always beed that way, deep inside, but I never let that side to overshadow me. I gave up.
*There is no happiness in life without friends. Hardcore loneliness is crippling
* I am not my skeleton, I am not my flesh and blood, I am not the body, I am not my beliefs
* I see my shadows, I see the resentment, the alienation and rage in me, but I don't judge myself. I accept myself. Things will change If I will really want them to change
*Likes and dislikes divide life
*I remembered to be grateful
*I have been thinking, maybe I'm here to do something else. Some of my dreams have failed, and that has caused much depression in the past
but maybe It's because I had been focusing on only what I want, and not anything else. I lift my head from the "destiny" I had created for my self... and I suppose there are other options, that I could be good at and would enjoy. Maybe, form the strat, I had wanted more than I need. Maybe I am not as open-minded as I thought I was.
Day 2, Day 3 - Check
Just finished meditation, feeling so peaceful... so so peaceful. Close to euphoria, maybe it's because of the song I just found and meditated to
So far I have thought about things, trying to know myself better, to see which of my beliefs had changed, and to see who I really am.
I pinned down a few things that were obvious to me from the start, but I had never really looked at them. So these are few of the things I have been overlooking since I started using my brain again.
* I have let the world to destroy my romantic and kind spirit. I used to be a better person. Now I'm a sarcastic monster who believes and trusts in nothing... literally. Well, I had always beed that way, deep inside, but I never let that side to overshadow me. I gave up.
*There is no happiness in life without friends. Hardcore loneliness is crippling
* I am not my skeleton, I am not my flesh and blood, I am not the body, I am not my beliefs
* I see my shadows, I see the resentment, the alienation and rage in me, but I don't judge myself. I accept myself. Things will change If I will really want them to change
*Likes and dislikes divide life
*I remembered to be grateful
*I have been thinking, maybe I'm here to do something else. Some of my dreams have failed, and that has caused much depression in the past
but maybe It's because I had been focusing on only what I want, and not anything else. I lift my head from the "destiny" I had created for my self... and I suppose there are other options, that I could be good at and would enjoy. Maybe, form the strat, I had wanted more than I need. Maybe I am not as open-minded as I thought I was.
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Hi @SonjaRot I'm glad you're finding the meditation useful. I've been practicing mindfulness for a while and it's really helped me. I don't do so much mindfulness meditation anymore because I've kind of woven it into my everyday life. I especially enjoy mindful walks. They bring me so much peace.
I went to my first session this evening and it was great. So calming I almost floated home. I found it really hard to slow down my breathing so in the end I decided to not worry about the breathing and focus on the rest.
Really looking forward to the next one
Really looking forward to the next one
yeah, you are right, it takes a few times to get the breathing right, so take your timeAghhh... I forgot to do the meditation... again. Okay, I'll start anew.
Only this time I'll try something different.
Today I started a DVD Yan Tai Chi Chuan course, Of course, a DVD won't replace a real teacher, but in my patriotic country, we don't have any martial arts teaching places at all
I fell in love with it when I saw a demonstration and learned tree movements today. For me, it cleared the mind. You focus completely on your body. I feel it in my tighs, damn
so I will just include this in my workout plan so I won't miss a day since I never forget to work out.
So far I'm really excited about it
Only this time I'll try something different.
Today I started a DVD Yan Tai Chi Chuan course, Of course, a DVD won't replace a real teacher, but in my patriotic country, we don't have any martial arts teaching places at all
I fell in love with it when I saw a demonstration and learned tree movements today. For me, it cleared the mind. You focus completely on your body. I feel it in my tighs, damn
so I will just include this in my workout plan so I won't miss a day since I never forget to work out.So far I'm really excited about it
Get out of here!
That was my reaction when I found out that we have Tai Chi classes in this city afterall! Fuck it, as soon as I get my first pay in my new job, im signing up! I hope the excitement and desire will turn out to be genuine.
Aside from that, even though my meditation hasn't been persistent, I do feel slight changes. I feel closer to myself, I feel relaxed. Not like before, when I was running away from myself and feeling angry and cruel, but I still fight these urges. Though I am ready to strat doing something about them and that is what matters.
I have figured out what bothers me, what factors I should overcome.
09.15.
Attempt 3, day 2 - check
(meditation 10 min, and TAi Chi 20 min)
That was my reaction when I found out that we have Tai Chi classes in this city afterall! Fuck it, as soon as I get my first pay in my new job, im signing up! I hope the excitement and desire will turn out to be genuine.
Aside from that, even though my meditation hasn't been persistent, I do feel slight changes. I feel closer to myself, I feel relaxed. Not like before, when I was running away from myself and feeling angry and cruel, but I still fight these urges. Though I am ready to strat doing something about them and that is what matters.
I have figured out what bothers me, what factors I should overcome.
09.15.
Attempt 3, day 2 - check
(meditation 10 min, and TAi Chi 20 min)
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