Memories of Those Lost but Still Loved

[Pebble mouse]

I miss my mum so much. She was a lovely, caring, kind women. I remember her laugh, I remember her hugs. I remember her love. I never let her go. I never had closure. I had no idea she was going to die and when she did die I was stunned. It didn't seem real. It still doesn't seem real. I never said goodbye. It's been decades but it still hurts so much. Bye, mum. I hope I will see you again sometime.

 

[Walker]

I miss my mum so much. She was a lovely, caring, kind women. I remember her laugh, I remember her hugs. I remember her love. I never let her go. I never had closure. I had no idea she was going to die and when she did die I was stunned. It didn't seem real. It still doesn't seem real. I never said goodbye. It's been decades but it still hurts so much. Bye, mum. I hope I will see you again sometime.

Sending hugs to you. My mom killed herself 20 years ago today and I feel the same way. All the "what ifs" and "lasts" and "lack of closure". Never really feels quite the same again, does it? I wish I had something thoughtful or insightful to say...but I don't... sorry. Thinking of you though.

 

[Pebble mouse]

Sending hugs to you. My mom killed herself 20 years ago today and I feel the same way. All the "what ifs" and "lasts" and "lack of closure". Never really feels quite the same again, does it? I wish I had something thoughtful or insightful to say...but I don't... sorry. Thinking of you though.

I'm sad you went through that, Matt. That would have been pure hell. You are a good man. I am thinking of you too. Stay strong. Today must be a crap day.

 

[lightning05]

Happy Birthday to my Uncle. I'm glad I could celebrate you in small ways today. Sometimes I miss you so much that I can't even stand it. <3

 

[Waves]

My mum. Died 30 years ago before I was fully grown. What do I miss about her? Easy answer. Her unconditional love and security. No matter what I could always count her for support. Oh and her fabulous bear hugs. 😌

 

[Kira]

Sending hugs to you. My mom killed herself 20 years ago today and I feel the same way. All the "what ifs" and "lasts" and "lack of closure". Never really feels quite the same again, does it? I wish I had something thoughtful or insightful to say...but I don't... sorry. Thinking of you though.

 

[Luthien Tinuviel]

i miss a friend this time of year. she took her life in April and there is not even an obituary for for reasons i cant disclose.
it feels i never got closure. i used to dream she was still alive and it was a cruel trick by those who would want to harm her.
but i accepted it now. i guess.
i still feel bad for a fight we had even though i did apologize and she responded.

 

[Catch_22]

@Luthien Tinuviel you are forgiven, I'm sure, I understand so well how that can eat you up. Please try to forgive yourself for that, especially since she did. Try to focus on the other memories so you don't forget her.

 

[Catch_22]

I have a lot of stories of my brother. But I don't have the energy to type them out. He died 9 years ago, and to even write this feels wrong. Heavy and despairingly wrong. Grief and loss, the absence of the people you knew and loved is mind boggling.
Right now I'm crying inside because I missed his hugs. He was not a big person but he was taller than me, and he had this way of wrapping his arms around me and squeezing me just the right amount of tight.
One of my favorite things about his personality and nature was when he would leave for a trip and come back. He'd barely call while he was away Bec so busy, but the moment he got back, the moment I pick him up from the airport, he would light up the moment he saw me and drop his bags and run to me, pick me up and swirl me with the biggest hug.
I'd give ANYTHING for that hug. Please don't take your life if you have loved ones. Please. (I know it's selfish to ask)

Oh, and one time he was running away from a crazy dude in a wheelchair and dove into the driver's seat headfirst fast through the passenger side window over my body. It was hilarious and he got stuck. He was funny as hell so I will leave you with that.

 

[Catch_22]

I miss my mum so much. She was a lovely, caring, kind women. I remember her laugh, I remember her hugs. I remember her love. I never let her go. I never had closure. I had no idea she was going to die and when she did die I was stunned. It didn't seem real. It still doesn't seem real. I never said goodbye. It's been decades but it still hurts so much. Bye, mum. I hope I will see you again sometime.

I'm so sorry. 😭💔💓💓💓💓

 

[SummertimeSadness]

Today is the day my uncle passed on. It's officially been ten full years... I miss his love and protection.. i still remember him. i remember the visits he used to come here for holidays etc. i still remember the hat he gave me before he left for good... i even remember attending his funeral... he was going to adopt me... i will always miss him and love him for an eternity... i never got to say goodbye...

 

[Sunspots]

It was four years ago today I last saw my amazing friend Janet. We went out for ice-cream. I knew by that point that her cancer was terminal but never thought it would be the last time I saw her.

 

[Holding my breath]

It was four years ago today I last saw my amazing friend Janet. We went out for ice-cream. I knew by that point that her cancer was terminal but never thought it would be the last time I saw her.

Thinking of you. Xx

 

[Catch_22]

@Sunspots @SummertimeSadness
Wanting you to both know I saw your posts and thinking of you now.

 

[Holding my breath]

Sending hugs to you. My mom killed herself 20 years ago today and I feel the same way. All the "what ifs" and "lasts" and "lack of closure". Never really feels quite the same again, does it? I wish I had something thoughtful or insightful to say...but I don't... sorry. Thinking of you though.

Ive only just seen this post, I am so sorry for your loss, it is heart breaking. This date is my daughter’s birthday. She turned 1 on that day. Strange how things just carry on amongst all the pain and suffering. I’m so sorry. Sending hugs. Xx

 

[Holding my breath]

The one person I remember that I lost is my grandmother, my dads mum. Over 35 years ago now and yet she still has a special place in my heart. Growing up I always felt she understood me when so many other people in my family didn’t. She always told me that I was as good as my siblings and not to put myself down. 35 years on I still cry when I think of her. She had all her little ways which I still remember so clearly. She died when it was her time and at the end she wanted to go. I remember her struggling to hold a cup of tea and telling me she was ready. Now I’m watching my dad as he nears the end. He’s telling me all his stories from the past like he’s trying to make sure I know and remember them when he’s gone. It’s lovey to listen to and he’s starting to record them as he tells me so that i can listen back and hear his voice. I have such mixed emotions listening to him and my heart is breaking.

 

[Catch_22]

The one person I remember that I lost is my grandmother, my dads mum. Over 35 years ago now and yet she still has a special place in my heart. Growing up I always felt she understood me when so many other people in my family didn’t. She always told me that I was as good as my siblings and not to put myself down. 35 years on I still cry when I think of her. She had all her little ways which I still remember so clearly. She died when it was her time and at the end she wanted to go. I remember her struggling to hold a cup of tea and telling me she was ready. Now I’m watching my dad as he nears the end. He’s telling me all his stories from the past like he’s trying to make sure I know and remember them when he’s gone. It’s lovey to listen to and he’s starting to record them as he tells me so that i can listen back and hear his voice. I have such mixed emotions listening to him and my heart is breaking.

😢💔💓💓 So much beauty and heartbreak in your words and experiences. I'm sorry about your dad, I love that he's recording his stories, that is amazing.

 

[So so tired]

Remembering my lovely husband
I hurt so badly,my soul is crushed and my heart is broken beyond any type of repair.
I will always love and miss you.
I am totally lost

 

[Lane]

Thinking about my mother who passed a little over a year ago.

 

[Gonz]

Thinking about my mother who passed a little over a year ago.