I would have liked to be with at least several females I've met. I was just afraid to tell them how I felt. I still remember a female crush I had at 14. We were best friends, but kind of flirty, and then she just disappeared though and we never spoke again. She had strict parents so I assume it had to do with that.
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I'm thinking about how I hate my job.
Two people lately have said how I'm a lazy fuck and I don't want to work. They're right and part of it is because I really intensely hate my job. I started to dislike it when there was a big change in direction in politics, lets say. And now there's a big change with me and that's really messing with my head. I'm not made for this, I'm not happy here. Why do I want to spend more time here? I need to work more, I need to get more hours, work overtime... but fuck the thought of being here more and being here in the day time with the people who are making shit worse makes me sick.
Tonight I came to work and they have celled two people side by side who are delusional as shit. One thinks he is Jesus... the other thinks he's Satan. Now I'm not gonna lie here, at one time I would've been pretty amused by this but now I find this repulsive. These two are over here arguing and yelling back and forth and Jesus is trying to "save" the other guy and .. it's such a shit shower. I hate these people. Why would you intentionally fuck with people?
I want to go home as soon as I get here. I need to work more because I'm a lazy dick. The fuck is the answer?
Two people lately have said how I'm a lazy fuck and I don't want to work. They're right and part of it is because I really intensely hate my job. I started to dislike it when there was a big change in direction in politics, lets say. And now there's a big change with me and that's really messing with my head. I'm not made for this, I'm not happy here. Why do I want to spend more time here? I need to work more, I need to get more hours, work overtime... but fuck the thought of being here more and being here in the day time with the people who are making shit worse makes me sick.
Tonight I came to work and they have celled two people side by side who are delusional as shit. One thinks he is Jesus... the other thinks he's Satan. Now I'm not gonna lie here, at one time I would've been pretty amused by this but now I find this repulsive. These two are over here arguing and yelling back and forth and Jesus is trying to "save" the other guy and .. it's such a shit shower. I hate these people. Why would you intentionally fuck with people?
I want to go home as soon as I get here. I need to work more because I'm a lazy dick. The fuck is the answer?
I've got a year left here before leaving to go be with Lu, you know? And I hate for this to sound like the most shallow materialistic thing on the planet but this job pays really well and I am fucking drowning right now. I need to keep this pay rate to be able to save anything to get over there to her. So not only do I need to work this -- but I need to work this MORE. I just.. hate it. It's killing me little by little. I hate these assholes (and I mean the humans next to me not the ones in the cells).
Edit: No job is ever paying me as much as I make here. I have no skills. I'm a deadbeat loser. I make far too much money here as it is.
Edit: No job is ever paying me as much as I make here. I have no skills. I'm a deadbeat loser. I make far too much money here as it is.
I bought this in the store today. It's weird, like trying to hold the Blob in your hands.
https://www.amazon.com/Poo-Doo-Slooze-Slime-Assorted/dp/B07CN9Q2D9
https://www.amazon.com/Poo-Doo-Slooze-Slime-Assorted/dp/B07CN9Q2D9
I like looking at the random things you buy for some reason @Witty_Sarcasm I guess I'm nosy like that :P
I do pick who I'm going to work with.
They let us choose where we will stay (like which housing unit or which post, etc) and with whom we will work with but christ, it's just old.
I'm tired. I hurt all the time. I'm TIRED. I feel like I'm just burnt out and then ... I'm getting this vibe that I need to do more... and I do. I need to work more overtime cause I'm paying my fricking exes bills still (long pathetic loser story but I'm trying to shake paying them little by little but I'm a fucking idiot so it's slow going).
I've cancelled as much of my own shit as I can, I think. I've pared down my own bills as much as I can and am trying to get rid the ex. I kicked her off my insurance and some other shit. She's only just started working so she's slowly taking over her own bills... after um 9 months.
They let us choose where we will stay (like which housing unit or which post, etc) and with whom we will work with but christ, it's just old.
I'm tired. I hurt all the time. I'm TIRED. I feel like I'm just burnt out and then ... I'm getting this vibe that I need to do more... and I do. I need to work more overtime cause I'm paying my fricking exes bills still (long pathetic loser story but I'm trying to shake paying them little by little but I'm a fucking idiot so it's slow going).
I've cancelled as much of my own shit as I can, I think. I've pared down my own bills as much as I can and am trying to get rid the ex. I kicked her off my insurance and some other shit. She's only just started working so she's slowly taking over her own bills... after um 9 months.