OK school doesn't start till Tuesday. I thought it started Monday so that's good. But it is still not alleviating the anxiety in my stomach about starting another term. I just want to do good and be ok. I'm pretty tired of vehemently pretending everything is good. I'm not good most of the time, but what good does it do to think about that? If I could just stop being so sad all the time, I could actually commit to all the proactive things I want to do. Tired of being tired.