Musings, ideas, what are you thinking about?

[astreetscene]

So I've decided to bite the bullet, and make that big decision I was talking about earlier. I think I'll lose a good amount of support from friends or our dynamics will change so drastically the relationships won't be the same. I've also lost hope for extended family. Immediate family is still up in the air. I can't just build the life I want to immediately but I've made a small action plan to work towards the life I really want for myself.

I still have a few people I think I'll be able to lean on.

 

[astreetscene]

I can't sleep because I still think. What else? What else are you implying by saying this, that, XYZ? There has to be something else you're implying. I cannot just take words at face value. Comments still stick with me but of course I have to move on and pretend, otherwise I'd be sad all the time and couldn't get on with my life

 

[Shelly]

18 years ago (I can’t believe it has been almost 2 decades, gosh i feel old), during med school our professor demonstrated how to dissect a frog, i mean it’s basic, but the frog was only sedated, it is not dead, the frog was haphazardly pinned, so while its body was opened, the frog twitched and unpinned itself, we all freaked out, the frog jumped off the table and to the floor, blood everywhere, we’re all screaming until the professor caught it and took it back…

at that moment, I was like — fuck this shit, sigh… just of the many reasons why I am no longer pursuing that degree…
and yes our professor often left us to our own devices, he only assigns the class work, leaves, then he comes back at the last minute of the class to check our work, and my group mate volunteered to do the dissection for me instead, she loved to dissect, perhaps a little too much.

 

[cev77]

That my psychiatrist is dumb

 

[puffymilk]

I hope I make it through the training. Please God please

 

[Lisa the Ferrociraptor]

The queen is dead.


Long live the queen.

 

[astreetscene]

Feeling threatened and disgusted. It is almost 4 in the morning which is ridiculous. I might not end up going back to sleep. I've gotten a load of comments on a specific thing which I won't go into detail here but I think god is that how people really see me? I feel disgusted every time but just brush it off. Fuck I can't escape it

 

[astreetscene]

It all circles back to that SAME question - "What else are you implying?" Almost fills me with anger? I can't talk to anyone about this in real life as I will sound terribly whiny.

 

[Shelly]

TIL from tiktok of all places that laboratories that make lab-grown diamonds do not create diamonds, they grow diamonds.

They actually need a piece of diamond to act as a seed, and then carbon powder, heat it up and compress it with all force for that seed to grow in to a bigger diamond.

I thought they create one out of carbon… no, they grow a pre-existing diamond… i mean it is in the name lab-“grown”… and now i’m wondering about the process of turning ash into diamond.

 

[puffymilk]

I want to find new communities/friends in real life

 

[KM76710]

I want to find new communities/friends in real life

I hope you find them, find some. Being here is good with how much you can do and express but support in person can be a wonderful deal.

 

[puffymilk]

All I want is to be at peace. Is that possible?

 

[SillyOldBear]

Death. Why can't there be an easy way to go?

 

[cev77]

Eating has become so frustrating and I don't really know why.

 

[Fbr27]

Brazil lost for Norway. Norway.

That's why I don't watch sports.

 

[Fbr27]

That's why americans play sports between themselves or something.

At least they don't go through that shit.

 

[Suyon]

We cheer, believe and try not to be negative, but the truth is that the Brazilian national team is over.

Our generation is made up of the greatest failures in history. We are five-time champions, but this is past, we have no more planning.
The generation of greatest commercial and financial success of Brazilian players, is the most failed in the history of our national team, we lost even Copa America at home, there are opponents in the qualifiers that we played 2x and did not win, too complicated...

 

[Fbr27]

We cheer, believe and try not to be negative, but the truth is that the Brazilian national team is over.

Our generation is made up of the greatest failures in history. We are five-time champions, but this is past, we have no more planning.
The generation of greatest commercial and financial success of Brazilian players, is the most failed in the history of our national team, we lost even Copa America at home, there are opponents in the qualifiers that we played 2x and did not win, too complicated...

Brazilian players don't have any will to actually win the game. They look like they are playing children's game and aren't actually serious about winning.

 

[Suyon]

Brazilian players don't have any will to actually win the game. They look like they are playing children's game and aren't actually serious about winning.

I agree. The problem does not seem to be only technical, it lacks attitude. The national team plays without intensity, without race and gives the impression that wearing the shirt no longer means what it meant before.

 

[Fbr27]

I agree. The problem does not seem to be only technical, it lacks attitude. The national team plays without intensity, without race and gives the impression that wearing the shirt no longer means what it meant before.