My day

[Nick]

So apparently I'm not ready for talking therapy and I understand why. I don't have enough will power to follow through with the talks according to the therapist. It seems legit because when I think of doing things, the effort is just too much atm.

I get overwhelmed easily. When I have too many things to do I get stuck and end up doing nothing. This, of course, is counterproductive. What about taking smaller steps? It doesn't matter how small. Making progress moving forward. Think of one thing you could do that will help you feel better. Maybe that is walk to the mailbox. Keep building more and more with small steps. I don't know if this will work for you, but I thought I would throw it out there.

 

[Walker]

Hey there, just wanted to check on you today. Drop in soon and let us know how you're doing ok?

 

[Wikus]

I am fine. I woke up with a purple haze and everything shaking/wavy. I still feel like dying though.

 

[Jude]

As I've said prior, I don't think I have a real shitty life. It's better than most but I can't seem to want to live. Too many existential unknowns and a flawed belief system worldwide isn't making life enjoyable. Maybe because I don't have my purpose yet. This depression has taken away my passion and drive to better myself apart from me taking meds that don't even work for me. Oh and please elaborate what you mean by letting someone pamper me please. Thanks!

Inpatient is like a vacation if it’s a nice place. A time for yourself, someone else to cook, etc. that’s what I mean by pamper. Unfortunately we can’t do much about a flawed belief system worldwide. Maybe focus on what you can change, little things to give yourself s sense of purpose. I’m in recovery from alcohol and I’m on the local municipal alliance. We bring in presentations regarding stigma free, etc at schools. It makes me feel purposeful.

 

[Wikus]

Inpatient is like a vacation if it’s a nice place. A time for yourself, someone else to cook, etc. that’s what I mean by pamper. Unfortunately we can’t do much about a flawed belief system worldwide. Maybe focus on what you can change, little things to give yourself s sense of purpose. I’m in recovery from alcohol and I’m on the local municipal alliance. We bring in presentations regarding stigma free, etc at schools. It makes me feel purposeful.

I just don't know bro, it's amazing what you are doing btw. I genuinely can't get the drive to even take time to do anything, let alone work on myself. My days comprise of working shitty jobs no one wants to do for my father. I only do it so my mother doesn't have to hear of how her son is a shitty human being. Every call for "help" was called out as a manipulation attempt, especially when I told him about one of my suicide attempts. He doesn't even know about the other 2+ moments. No one does. Well now you know. All I know is that I'm on limited time.