My particular cocktail of childhood traumas, personal insecurities and autistic tendencies turns a simple haircut into one of the most stressful things I can do in a normal day. I get a haircut as rarely as I can get away with, and it is never a pleasant experience. I tried writing a list of all the different mechanisms which work together to make this stressful, but it was turning into an essay so just know I had a haircut recently and it has shaken my self confidence for the past 2 days, and will likely continue to shake my confidence for the next few days or weeks.
I know how ridiculous this reaction of mine is, which only adds 1 more stressor to the entire thing: frustration at how stupid it is and how powerless I am to it anyway. Why cant I just get a bloody haircut like a normal person??