Today was my first day starting college... their system is not easy to navigate even with their so called "instructions". Each instructor wanted an introduction done, most just wanted a simple typed up paragraph. But then one decided she wanted you to write out a lengthy response to 5 or 6 indavidul questions followed by posting pictures of yourself your family or pets. Obviously I opted for pets.
Then another teacher expects us to upload a damn video to whatever system she used (I will have to hunt that video down again because, oh, they don't believe in organizing shit! 😤) and I have until tomorrow 11:59pm to upload it. I am upset by this one because I am not comfortable doing the video period, or uploading my fucking face for random strangers. I dont even use my real name online I don't upload pictures of myself. I did that years ago and I stopped because I am not comfortable with it. I think some of it relates to my past trauma to some extent and then other parts of it honestly comes down to seeing how immature people can take your images or videos and manipulate them with AI into god knows what. The teacher should have given us a choice to decided video or paragraph. Not "you have to do a video and you need to do it soon oh and you're being graded for it too!" Like whyyyyy!!!???? Talking to people face to face is one thing. Forcing me to upload a video of myself on a system I know nothing about, have no clue if I can even delete it, am being forced to expose my face and real name makes me uncomfortable.
Sure most dont think anything of it. But forme it is a big deal and a big violation of every part of me I have worked hard to protect. I would just assume give me an F on this stupid video assignment and get on with the semester.
But for now, day 1 down. Tomorrow I have to try and figure things out more and see what I need to do next.
Then another teacher expects us to upload a damn video to whatever system she used (I will have to hunt that video down again because, oh, they don't believe in organizing shit! 😤) and I have until tomorrow 11:59pm to upload it. I am upset by this one because I am not comfortable doing the video period, or uploading my fucking face for random strangers. I dont even use my real name online I don't upload pictures of myself. I did that years ago and I stopped because I am not comfortable with it. I think some of it relates to my past trauma to some extent and then other parts of it honestly comes down to seeing how immature people can take your images or videos and manipulate them with AI into god knows what. The teacher should have given us a choice to decided video or paragraph. Not "you have to do a video and you need to do it soon oh and you're being graded for it too!" Like whyyyyy!!!???? Talking to people face to face is one thing. Forcing me to upload a video of myself on a system I know nothing about, have no clue if I can even delete it, am being forced to expose my face and real name makes me uncomfortable.
Sure most dont think anything of it. But forme it is a big deal and a big violation of every part of me I have worked hard to protect. I would just assume give me an F on this stupid video assignment and get on with the semester.
But for now, day 1 down. Tomorrow I have to try and figure things out more and see what I need to do next.
