A month ago , I would've said it was my ex because , I couldn't have imagined my life without him. Although his silence at times would pick at a wound , there were so many good moments which I would never trade for anything.
Now , he's gone and I'm left grieving a person that is still alive. I still can't imagine my life without him but , I see a flickering light that is telling me , 'things will get better.' I don't really have a reason to live right now , any reason that I do isn't worth the pain if it is to continue. I'm searching for a reason , it's out there so, I guess finding my purpose in life is why I'm still here. I have to try at least .Trying is something that defines me and , i'm not giving up yet.