sick to fucking death of being poked and prodded at

[Gonz]

Thanks all, I'm finally at a point where I have no more appointments for a few months, so I'm a bit less tense. @Inanimate, you hit the nail on the head; not just the appointments themselves which, in all honesty weren't especially horrible, but the anxiety of going out, and never really having a break from it because I'd always know I was gonna have to do it again in a couple days.

@Aurelia, yeah actually, a couple good ones: Klonopin three times a day in addition to the PRN Ativan I already have. Psychiatrist says she's more worried about what my anxiety levels are doing to my heart than the possibility of addiction and at this point I tend to agree.

Combine those with the assorted other meds, most of which make me sleepy on their own (and a few of which I am on for life), and I'm still out for close to 12 hours a day. And kinda out of it even when I am awake.

 

[HappyKitty]

I’m glad you let yourself see the doctor despite your anxiety and let yourself put to sleep Gonzie

 

[Innocent Forever]

That's a lot....
@Ash600 will know about interactions

 

[Ash600]

That's a lot....
@Ash600 will know about interactions

Yeah, if you ever wish to discuss any drug interactions etc with me @Gonz , then feel free to tap me up anytime.

 

[Gonz]

A couple days ago, I had some kind of cardiac event. Maybe a drop in blood pressure or something.

It was kinda like feeling you can't breathe, only you're filling and emptying your lungs just fine. But the same kind of weakness and everything kinda greys out around the edges in the same way.

Which, I guess makes sense, cause in both cases the problem is a sudden lack of oxygen to the brain.

Anyway, I almost passed out in the shower. Like, standing up was the extreme limit of my abilities. Just maintaining consciousness was a fight. I thought there was a chance I might be dying.

The only thing that kept me going was not wanting to be found collapsed naked on the bathroom floor. Because, goddamnit, how I'm found matters and I want it to be with some small measure of dignity.

So I managed the herculean struggle of throwing on a pair of sweatpants and staggering out of the bathroom to collapse into a seat, and let was gonna happen happen.

Maybe half an hour later, I felt better enough to get up and complete the whole shower ritual; finish drying off, comb my hair, put on deodorant, all that stuff.

I'm used to little moments of dizziness or unsteadiness, but this was like a full on fight to maintain consciousness for just a few seconds longer.

I have an appt with my cardiologist in a little over a week. I'll tell him about it, if I last that long.

 

[Sane Man]

It sucks dealing with unpredictable health problems... I also have that 'Elvis' fear of being found on the toilet or watching a lame dvd or something.

 

[Gonz]

It sucks dealing with unpredictable health problems... I also have that 'Elvis' fear of being found on the toilet or watching a lame dvd or something.

This, but for real.

 

[Walker]

jesus. Can you pllleeaassee try not to die? Seriously.

 

[dandelions]

@Gonz im’ glad that a couple days later you are ok enough to post here. could it have been a medication issue? just wondering. i’d have been in er 1,2,3. i know why you would not want to go but do take care....

 

[Gonz]

jesus. Can you pllleeaassee try not to die? Seriously.

Hey, I'm doing my best!

 

[Walker]

GOOD!

 

[Gonz]

@Gonz im’ glad that a couple days later you are ok enough to post here. could it have been a medication issue? just wondering. i’d have been in er 1,2,3. i know why you would not want to go but do take care....

I'm fairly sure it was a more extreme version of medication side effects that I'm used to, compounded by going back and forth between an air conditioned room (it's been godawful hot lately) and a hot shower.

 

[GFS]

Hey, I'm doing my best!

Just try a bit harder. People need you around here. Just as a bad example to show to the kids "If you don't behave you'll end up like Uncle Gonz". *bleh

Take care of yourself, Gonz.

 

[Ash600]

It does sound like a sudden drop in BP, what they call orthostatic hypotension, one of the causes can be due to cardiac issues. Apart from seeing your cardiologist, it's also important to follow @Walker 's advice. I mean, you don't exactly want to be dealing with a pissed of monkey know do you? *bleh

 

[Gonz]

Just try a bit harder. People need you around here. Just as a bad example to show to the kids "If you don't behave you'll end up like Uncle Gonz". *bleh

Take care of yourself, Gonz.

Like, I wouldn't be surprised if my actual nieces and nephews had actually heard that at least once or twice in their lives.

 

[Nick]

Hey, I'm doing my best!

You better!!! We like our Gonz.

 

[GFS]

Like, I wouldn't be surprised if my actual nieces and nephews had actually heard that at least once or twice in their lives.

@Lilmeowmeow if you're not a good kitty you'll end up like Daddy Gonz.

 

[sinking_ship]

Uh yeah, no dying allowed.

 

[Gonz]

Uh yeah, no dying allowed.

Awful lol of people trynna tell me what I can and can't do, hrmph.

 

[Angie]

Hey, that must have been scary!

and yah, lots of meds there that can do stuff...

do take care, as has been discussed, no dying!