Lately, I've been seeing the bad side of things a lot more and just isolating myself. My relationship feels so one-sided now even though not even 3 months ago he proposed. which honestly I feel was just him realizing he loved me but he never wants to listen to me but I always listen to him but then when I talk to him about it he says he does want to listen. on some level, i think I know I'm being manipulated but I don't have the strength to leave him I don't think I ever will. I mean I love this man but its killing me. this may all just be because I'm in a depressive episode (i have bipolar disorder) and normally I would never come to a place like this but my friends just don't care anymore or at least it feels that way. They are just never there when I need them to be and when they are I don't feel its really helpful. I wish someone would stick up for me like how I stick up for everyone in my life. Now I'm just rambling but all and all I just feel so down and so alone. I just don't know what to do anymore.
