I was sleeping, she called me when she was outside and started swearing out of nowhere.
I was very confused. Then she got home and kept swearing and ridiculing me and came to my room and punched my head 3 times. This was because when I was out with my friend yesterday, I hit then car to a very tiny tree when I was steering it. I got out and checked but I didn't see that it got hurt in the dark. She says I lack understanding and don't realize how my father has to work his ass off to bring home money to fix it.
It hasn't even been a month since she last did this (aka swore at me and beat me), and I had to buy her a gift so she would be nice to me again.
I know what you may be thinking, I'm not under 18 so I could defend myself or move out. Last time, when she swore at me, I just said "no you" and she started attacking me physically. I'm shorter and skinnier than her, she completely has control over me and hurts me like a b**** and even if I did defend myself, she would treat me like the worst child in the world. Last time we fought for another reason and she gave me the silent treatment for a month. It is always her recipe to humiliate me and then give me the silent treatment. She doesn't believe I hit a tree, she thinks I crashed into a car and ran away. She almost never believes what I say. Last time I got angry and said "no you" because she didn't believe me either. She just chooses to talk in a ridiculing language when I tell her the truth.
It's been like 6 months since I got my driver's license. I never crashed into a car, it has just been 2 or 3 times when I barely caused any damages when I was parking the car. When I was a kid and my parents had just started driving, they got into MULTIPLE accidents, even years after they started driving. They only became professionals after 5 or 6 years. Do they really expect me to drive so neat that never even causes the slightest damage?
Honestly, post-COVID when I came back home and classes were online, it has been HELL. I do realize why teenagers wish to move out as soon as they turn 18. When I got into college, I went to live in a dorm away from them, which made things better, but COVID came and I had to comeback. It gets worse and worse as everyday goes by. I can NOT move out, I know it is hard to realize for users on this site majority of whom come from western cultures, but that's a really rather weird and alien thing in my culture, specially if you are a girl. Not that, I believe in it, but it's unsafe. It's something that not even 1 in a million girls do before they are married. I do wish to leave the whole country, that depends if I do well in a certain exam this September. My parents are funding my migration, so you see I can't upset them or defend myself at the slightest or this might make them skeptical about allowing me leave. You could not imagine the amount of pressure on me in order to be able to succeed in this exam. I can't resist another f**king year here.
But I'm like, REALLY tired of having to deal with all this when it comes to my mom. It's exhausting and it's putting extra pressure on me in order to migrate exactly this year. She's one of the major reasons I have a depression and not to mention hypochondria. Ngl, when I heard people don't like their parents, I thought they were ungrateful. Maybe mine got worse with time, idk. I am hurting to my very core right now. I try to communicate with them and have them calm toward me but every time, the calm lasts like 2 days max and I regret ever talking to them about anything other than daily tasks. I think my mom has anger issues, I know she has mental health problems and took meds for it for a long time, but it still is humiliating for me to go through this.
My whole body hurts even physically, please tell me what do I do... what next, if I can't leave my country and home this year...?
She said I should eat sh*t and go under grave.
It hasn't even been a month since she last did this (aka swore at me and beat me), and I had to buy her a gift so she would be nice to me again.
I know what you may be thinking, I'm not under 18 so I could defend myself or move out. Last time, when she swore at me, I just said "no you" and she started attacking me physically. I'm shorter and skinnier than her, she completely has control over me and hurts me like a b**** and even if I did defend myself, she would treat me like the worst child in the world. Last time we fought for another reason and she gave me the silent treatment for a month. It is always her recipe to humiliate me and then give me the silent treatment. She doesn't believe I hit a tree, she thinks I crashed into a car and ran away. She almost never believes what I say. Last time I got angry and said "no you" because she didn't believe me either. She just chooses to talk in a ridiculing language when I tell her the truth.
It's been like 6 months since I got my driver's license. I never crashed into a car, it has just been 2 or 3 times when I barely caused any damages when I was parking the car. When I was a kid and my parents had just started driving, they got into MULTIPLE accidents, even years after they started driving. They only became professionals after 5 or 6 years. Do they really expect me to drive so neat that never even causes the slightest damage?
Honestly, post-COVID when I came back home and classes were online, it has been HELL. I do realize why teenagers wish to move out as soon as they turn 18. When I got into college, I went to live in a dorm away from them, which made things better, but COVID came and I had to comeback. It gets worse and worse as everyday goes by. I can NOT move out, I know it is hard to realize for users on this site majority of whom come from western cultures, but that's a really rather weird and alien thing in my culture, specially if you are a girl. Not that, I believe in it, but it's unsafe. It's something that not even 1 in a million girls do before they are married. I do wish to leave the whole country, that depends if I do well in a certain exam this September. My parents are funding my migration, so you see I can't upset them or defend myself at the slightest or this might make them skeptical about allowing me leave. You could not imagine the amount of pressure on me in order to be able to succeed in this exam. I can't resist another f**king year here.
But I'm like, REALLY tired of having to deal with all this when it comes to my mom. It's exhausting and it's putting extra pressure on me in order to migrate exactly this year. She's one of the major reasons I have a depression and not to mention hypochondria. Ngl, when I heard people don't like their parents, I thought they were ungrateful. Maybe mine got worse with time, idk. I am hurting to my very core right now. I try to communicate with them and have them calm toward me but every time, the calm lasts like 2 days max and I regret ever talking to them about anything other than daily tasks. I think my mom has anger issues, I know she has mental health problems and took meds for it for a long time, but it still is humiliating for me to go through this.
My whole body hurts even physically, please tell me what do I do... what next, if I can't leave my country and home this year...?