Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?
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I imagine you might be considering plans or thinking about that but do you have an opposite plan, as in, one where you are alive. This might be very small goals, things you might want to do. I have a basic plan, well more of distractions to do. Something else im looking at doing is putting a white board up and making a note of wildlife i see, as i live in the countryside.
I would encourage a few goals/ living plan, rather than just a death plan, doesnt give you many opinions.
I would encourage a few goals/ living plan, rather than just a death plan, doesnt give you many opinions.
@cinnnamonflakez and @everyone
I think I've said this on the forums before somewhere, but SF is like a lifeboat trying to rescue people after a shipwreck in the dark. Not that SF is guaranteed to solve everyone's problems, but the point is that it's really hard to keep track of everyone and where they're at. It's necessary to keep saying "Hey! Over here! I need help!" until you get as much as you need, or at least as much as SF can give.
So I hope you can keep posting at least, and if there's something you want SF to do to help, please say so.
I think you would make a great youth counselor or therapist someday. I hope for your own sake, and for the sake of everyone else that you might benefit that you'll be able to find a way through.
Sending hugs if you would like hugs
I think I've said this on the forums before somewhere, but SF is like a lifeboat trying to rescue people after a shipwreck in the dark. Not that SF is guaranteed to solve everyone's problems, but the point is that it's really hard to keep track of everyone and where they're at. It's necessary to keep saying "Hey! Over here! I need help!" until you get as much as you need, or at least as much as SF can give.
So I hope you can keep posting at least, and if there's something you want SF to do to help, please say so.
I think you would make a great youth counselor or therapist someday. I hope for your own sake, and for the sake of everyone else that you might benefit that you'll be able to find a way through.
Sending hugs if you would like hugs
Haven't been on in a few days- hope everyone is doing okay/the best they can.
I found out today that my soon to be ex wife finally got her driver's license just days after we separated- I have been begging her and begging her for years to get that license, because she drove illegally without it constantly and it terrified me. But she wouldn't because she was so petrified she'd fail the test again that she didn't even want to try- lo and behold, turns out when push comes to shove and she needs to do it she fucking can. I'm so hurt that it's been years of pain and arguments over this. I feel really low today, because I know she believes a falsehood about me. The story she wants to think is true about my emotional 'affair' if one can now even call it that just isn't true. Even worse, the individual I spoke to wrote me an email where she apologized, told me that she knew I was not okay, and that she feels she "manipulated me".
I'm barely hanging in there today guys. I don't want to be here anymore.
I found out today that my soon to be ex wife finally got her driver's license just days after we separated- I have been begging her and begging her for years to get that license, because she drove illegally without it constantly and it terrified me. But she wouldn't because she was so petrified she'd fail the test again that she didn't even want to try- lo and behold, turns out when push comes to shove and she needs to do it she fucking can. I'm so hurt that it's been years of pain and arguments over this. I feel really low today, because I know she believes a falsehood about me. The story she wants to think is true about my emotional 'affair' if one can now even call it that just isn't true. Even worse, the individual I spoke to wrote me an email where she apologized, told me that she knew I was not okay, and that she feels she "manipulated me".
I'm barely hanging in there today guys. I don't want to be here anymore.
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Thinking a lot again about the missing person and I dont know what to do, so i feel kind of frozen. Horrible feeling, helpless.
Worried about yesterday. I think i going to get a personality disorder label.
I could hear myself explaining my history - uninterested patients, bullied daily at school, didnt learn anything, started taking recreational drugs and developed depression. I dont mind if i do, just want a fair assessment.
It was funny when i told someone at work, that i might have a personality disorder and they said' you dont come across like a liar'. They think that all people with a personality disorder lye and make things up!
Worried about yesterday. I think i going to get a personality disorder label.
I could hear myself explaining my history - uninterested patients, bullied daily at school, didnt learn anything, started taking recreational drugs and developed depression. I dont mind if i do, just want a fair assessment.
It was funny when i told someone at work, that i might have a personality disorder and they said' you dont come across like a liar'. They think that all people with a personality disorder lye and make things up!
@Inastorm I hope you can still feel you've done the right thing for yourself in going to the doctor. I can imagine, if it was me, that I'd be feeling strongly of if not wanting to control the reactions, of at least wanting them to be supportive and show acknowledgent of me as a peson. To me it is sad and it is hurtful when people reveal those labels on boxes in their minds. Take care of yourself and keep us posted how you're doing.