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Suicidal Thoughts - Are you Feeling Suicidal Today?
- Thread starter Petal
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Yes, I am.
I am having to withdraw from college for medical reasons. I can't think to do the assignments now. This is so upsetting to me, that I've failed somehow but I don't see any other way than a medical incomplete grade.
I am working on getting transportation to the oncological surgeon's office next week. It sucks to have to ask for help and I know this is going to be that way for a long while.
A friend died. We hadn't been close for a long time, but back in the day we were inseparable. I was unable to go to her funeral. I feel guilty about that, too.
I am having to withdraw from college for medical reasons. I can't think to do the assignments now. This is so upsetting to me, that I've failed somehow but I don't see any other way than a medical incomplete grade.
I am working on getting transportation to the oncological surgeon's office next week. It sucks to have to ask for help and I know this is going to be that way for a long while.
A friend died. We hadn't been close for a long time, but back in the day we were inseparable. I was unable to go to her funeral. I feel guilty about that, too.
I am so sorry all this has hit you. But I am glad you are putting your health first. Once the cancer is gone (and it will be) you can resume school. So that is not lost. I know asking for help is hard. Especially when you are so used to caring for yourself. But we all need help at times. I am glad you have people who will help. Not being able to attend a friends funeral hurts, but is nothing to feel guilty about. It happened to me during covid. A dear friend passed and there was only a zoom funeral. Don't blame yourself for missing your friend's.
Please keep us posted as to what oncologist says and when surgery is scheduled.
Please keep us posted as to what oncologist says and when surgery is scheduled.
I hate myself and I hate my life. Everything good in my life has gone. I don’t know what to do with myself and I don’t think it would matter if I did. Everything I touch becomes failure. Everyone I depend on, especially when I am paying them to do a job, ends up betraying me. I want to die. Every day is only more pain.
it kind of goes hand in hand, pain and depression with si. try to hold on and work with your doctors to get something that works. besides opioids i use 5mg lidocaine patches with a mmj salve ( if not legal in your area try cbd ) if you can safely take it, just an idea you can talk to your doctor about. there are options. please don't give up
mike....
mike....
i am so sorry that you have to go through this @Angie . try to hold on until you have all of the facts in so you know exactly what your recovery will entail. any lengthy recovery will bring up those feelings but remember you have a lot of people that care about you. feel free to use my inbox to talk or just vent about anything.
mike......
mike......