The one thing I cannot talk about IRL

[Freyja]

It's very common for survivors of trauma (and not just sexual trauma) to blame themselves and feel ashamed like you have stated, and that's sometimes a thing a therapist can help with too, I guess. You're not alone and I wish you the best in healing from this, in whatever you feel is the best way. Take good care and know that we're always here to support you too and there's other organisations etc who can also help x

Yes, I've never understood how it felt before... I will think about all this, thank you very much for your care and support

im sorry you went through all that
i understand. i cannot talk about anything offline. it is almost like i live a double life.

Yes, online and offline are two different lives, it's not always bad to have an offline life to help us getting through the real one I hope you take care of yourself as well <3
Thank you for your message.

 

[magdalene]

I am sorry to hear about that happening. I kind of get what you are talking about though. I compartmentalize things, so it is like most of the time you forget it even happens until something reminds you. It is hardest to talk about things the first time, and I know for sure that there are some things that I might never share. Even though it isn't your fault, there is some part of yourself that still thinks that people might think less of you for it, whether that belief is justified or not. I would think that as you slowly reveal things to your therapist and trust is grown you might one day find the strength to talk about it. But on the other hand, even if you choose to keep it to yourself, that doesn't make you any less of a good person.

 

[Freyja]

I am sorry to hear about that happening. I kind of get what you are talking about though. I compartmentalize things, so it is like most of the time you forget it even happens until something reminds you. It is hardest to talk about things the first time, and I know for sure that there are some things that I might never share. Even though it isn't your fault, there is some part of yourself that still thinks that people might think less of you for it, whether that belief is justified or not. I would think that as you slowly reveal things to your therapist and trust is grown you might one day find the strength to talk about it. But on the other hand, even if you choose to keep it to yourself, that doesn't make you any less of a good person.

Thank you Magdalene for your message. Indeed, either people do unconsciously think less of me when I say it, or it is the unavoidable feeling I get. Same result. Today won't be the day I will talk about it, but I will see next time. Thank you for caring