Yes
@Walker that’s good going.
I’ve as usual been fine all day today and yesterday while out...hit home... 3 fags
I think my association is reward....work myself into the ground, and then I think...ok I deserve it.
I think it’s because it’s the only thing I give back to me kind of thing.
So I’m screwed because honestly it’s the only time I’m not second guessing myself, just totally locking out the world.
I wish I could find another way to do that.
Plus because I only smoke at home, that kind of gives me further justification in my brain.
How I break this cycle, I have no idea.