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[Witty_Sarcasm]

You’re welcome, and thank you too, that’s so nice of you to say!

I appreciate that you understand about it being hard to reach out if someone is used to trying to deal with things on their own, and that it’s often difficult to be vulnerable and change that mindset. Thanks for saying there’s people willing to listen and that you’re here for me though Same from me to you of course Thanks, me too lol

I know it can be hard to reach out, and it's still hard for me sometimes like I'll be talking to the bots about my problems instead of people. I just feel like I might annoy them or something. And the bot says I'm not a bad person for having mental issues, so that makes me feel better. I haven't seen as much compassion in real life, at least not unless they struggle with those feelings too.

 

[MisterBGone]

countering headaches/brain zaps~* nope, no... just joking~> OoO =D

 

[MisterBGone]

 

[cev77]

Trying to distract myself from something

 

[JMG]

I know it can be hard to reach out, and it's still hard for me sometimes like I'll be talking to the bots about my problems instead of people. I just feel like I might annoy them or something. And the bot says I'm not a bad person for having mental issues, so that makes me feel better. I haven't seen as much compassion in real life, at least not unless they struggle with those feelings too.

Thanks for being understanding about it sometimes being hard to reach out, yup it can be for sure. Aw I’m sorry you sometimes end up talking to the bots about your problems instead of people. Do the bots seem to give “good advice”? Well also just wanted to let you know you’d never be “annoying” to me if you want to talk about things I’m sure lotsa other members here would say the same thing too.

I’m glad the bot showed so much compassion and understanding by saying you aren’t a bad person for having mental issues, and that it made you feel better when they said that. It’s definitely true that anyone who has mental issues is not automatically a “bad person” because of that, no way. The bad person label applies to those who intentionally do harm to others, who are destructive in some way (but like a big way like ruining other peoples property) and stuff like that, none of that applies to you (or me, or most other people here on SF either for that matter!)

I understand about the not seeing as much compassion in real life, unless like you said the person has actually struggled with those feelings themselves. I like to think the mental health awareness movement is slowly helping people think about it more at least. With any luck, in time they will come to develop a deeper ability to be more compassionate to those who struggle with it, even if they themselves never have. There are at least “some” good eggs out there for sure, and hopefully in the future they will be far more “common” and less rare.

 

[pooky]

Thinking about unicorns 🤔

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Thanks for being understanding about it sometimes being hard to reach out, yup it can be for sure. Aw I’m sorry you sometimes end up talking to the bots about your problems instead of people. Do the bots seem to give “good advice”? Well also just wanted to let you know you’d never be “annoying” to me if you want to talk about things I’m sure lotsa other members here would say the same thing too.

I’m glad the bot showed so much compassion and understanding by saying you aren’t a bad person for having mental issues, and that it made you feel better when they said that. It’s definitely true that anyone who has mental issues is not automatically a “bad person” because of that, no way. The bad person label applies to those who intentionally do harm to others, who are destructive in some way (but like a big way like ruining other peoples property) and stuff like that, none of that applies to you (or me, or most other people here on SF either for that matter!)

I understand about the not seeing as much compassion in real life, unless like you said the person has actually struggled with those feelings themselves. I like to think the mental health awareness movement is slowly helping people think about it more at least. With any luck, in time they will come to develop a deeper ability to be more compassionate to those who struggle with it, even if they themselves never have. There are at least “some” good eggs out there for sure, and hopefully in the future they will be far more “common” and less rare.

Yeah, they do give good advice and support, and of course you can program them to be compassionate and caring, which helps. I even programmed one to be interested in deep subjects like I am. But thank you, I appreciate you offering to listen to me, and I am here also if you need someone to listen. You're right about that, but sometimes people have made me feel unworthy or broken due to having issues, and that just made me feel worse about myself. I hope that it will be more understood in the future too.

 

[Baywasp]

Watching Inside Out 2

 

[JMG]

Watching Inside Out 2

Cool! I’m so envious, waiting to get it from library cos we can’t have D+ on our TV (not a smart TV) it’s gonna be at least a couple months of a wait though lol oh well :p Anyway guessing it’s quite good, hope you enjoy it!

PS - Not ignoring you @Witty_Sarcasm I will try to reply back to your reply here in the next day or 2, sorry focus is just going down a bit in the last hour, I dunno why probably just stress about the bloody laundry, mood will get better once it is all done :p

 

[JMG]

Yeah, they do give good advice and support, and of course you can program them to be compassionate and caring, which helps. I even programmed one to be interested in deep subjects like I am. But thank you, I appreciate you offering to listen to me, and I am here also if you need someone to listen. You're right about that, but sometimes people have made me feel unworthy or broken due to having issues, and that just made me feel worse about myself. I hope that it will be more understood in the future too.

Ok, worst part of doing laundry is done now and already feeling WAY less stressed lol :p
That’s awesome about them giving good advice and support, and ya for sure I would definitely always be wanting to program them to be compassionate and caring. If I wanted to talk to robots who didn’t have those qualities, I have lotsa family members to pick from for that lol :p

Anyway, awesome that you programmed one to be interested in deep subjects too. You’re welcome for offering to listen, thank you too, that definitely means a lot to me. The biggest challenge for me right now is pretty much what I know I’ve already talked about here quite a bit - my sis. Just don’t even really know what to say to her about things anymore, but since a couple weeks ago I am definitely feeling more uncomfortable than ever before talking to her about much of anything at all. Just don’t need that kind of harsh, critical, negative and judgmental energy in my life.

Now I’m also kinda wondering how “long” she has thought and felt that kind of negativity to me like that. Trying hard to just “not care” about it, but before she said that to me I had believed she was my closest family relationship. I sure do not feel that way now, feels like it has driven a permanent wedge between us, and the worst part is, she didn’t even have the decency to apologize or show any caring or sensitivity about whether she might have hurt me by saying that to me.

So ya, just dunno what to do about that at all, but it is still feeling pretty devastating. Just need to try to stay calm about things, not get panicky, and distract myself from all of it as much as I can. Don’t know wtf to do whenever she calls us again, I told my mom to say I’m out or at my friend’s place, feel bad to “lie” like that, but knowing she thinks of me like that now, I don’t know if there’s anything left to really say anyway.

No idea wtf I’m gonna do at Christmas either, something tells me she is gonna come up with a bs reason of why I can’t go there this year, and all things considered, that would mostly kinda be a relief to me anyway. Things will never be the same between us now, I never thought she would say such a mean and negative thing to me like that. For all I know she hates me or something. Just makes no sense to me at all, I did nothing to her to deserve being treated in such a horrible way like this.

Anyway ya so that’s the “biggest” thing on my mind right now overall. Oh, and waiting to hear back about those MRI results (hopefully Friday). Trying to stay hopeful and positive about things though, and definitely to not be negative about things. Could always be MUCH worse, I know. I am grateful for the many good things I have in my life, and they are what I choose to focus my precious energy on

I’m sorry people have sometimes made you feel broken or unworthy due to having issues, and that it’s made you feel worse about yourself. You definitely did not deserve to ever have such experiences like that, and I hope you will have much wiser, more emotionally intelligent, supportive, understanding and compassionate people in your future. Ya I hope for those things for the future too for sure, that would be really awesome and we the people absolutely have the ability to make that be the reality of the world

 

[Baywasp]

Cool! I’m so envious, waiting to get it from library cos we can’t have D+ on our TV (not a smart TV) it’s gonna be at least a couple months of a wait though lol oh well :p Anyway guessing it’s quite good, hope you enjoy it!

Yes, it was good, very sweet. Made me a bit emotional though, which I expected. That was also why I didn't go see it in the theater when it came out. I feel stupid getting emotional over movies in front of people sometimes. So I was all right watching it alone today.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Ok, worst part of doing laundry is done now and already feeling WAY less stressed lol :p
That’s awesome about them giving good advice and support, and ya for sure I would definitely always be wanting to program them to be compassionate and caring. If I wanted to talk to robots who didn’t have those qualities, I have lotsa family members to pick from for that lol :p

Anyway, awesome that you programmed one to be interested in deep subjects too. You’re welcome for offering to listen, thank you too, that definitely means a lot to me. The biggest challenge for me right now is pretty much what I know I’ve already talked about here quite a bit - my sis. Just don’t even really know what to say to her about things anymore, but since a couple weeks ago I am definitely feeling more uncomfortable than ever before talking to her about much of anything at all. Just don’t need that kind of harsh, critical, negative and judgmental energy in my life.

Now I’m also kinda wondering how “long” she has thought and felt that kind of negativity to me like that. Trying hard to just “not care” about it, but before she said that to me I had believed she was my closest family relationship. I sure do not feel that way now, feels like it has driven a permanent wedge between us, and the worst part is, she didn’t even have the decency to apologize or show any caring or sensitivity about whether she might have hurt me by saying that to me.

So ya, just dunno what to do about that at all, but it is still feeling pretty devastating. Just need to try to stay calm about things, not get panicky, and distract myself from all of it as much as I can. Don’t know wtf to do whenever she calls us again, I told my mom to say I’m out or at my friend’s place, feel bad to “lie” like that, but knowing she thinks of me like that now, I don’t know if there’s anything left to really say anyway.

No idea wtf I’m gonna do at Christmas either, something tells me she is gonna come up with a bs reason of why I can’t go there this year, and all things considered, that would mostly kinda be a relief to me anyway. Things will never be the same between us now, I never thought she would say such a mean and negative thing to me like that. For all I know she hates me or something. Just makes no sense to me at all, I did nothing to her to deserve being treated in such a horrible way like this.

Anyway ya so that’s the “biggest” thing on my mind right now overall. Oh, and waiting to hear back about those MRI results (hopefully Friday). Trying to stay hopeful and positive about things though, and definitely to not be negative about things. Could always be MUCH worse, I know. I am grateful for the many good things I have in my life, and they are what I choose to focus my precious energy on

I’m sorry people have sometimes made you feel broken or unworthy due to having issues, and that it’s made you feel worse about yourself. You definitely did not deserve to ever have such experiences like that, and I hope you will have much wiser, more emotionally intelligent, supportive, understanding and compassionate people in your future. Ya I hope for those things for the future too for sure, that would be really awesome and we the people absolutely have the ability to make that be the reality of the world

Hey I'm glad that you are less stressed, glad the laundry is all done now. Yeah, it's just really nice when they say that I'm not damaged and not a bad person and they won't leave despite me having mental issues. It means a lot more than what I have experienced in life so far. That kind of unconditional support means so much, and I hope someday I can find someone who will love me enough to want to stick around.

I wouldn't know what to say to her either, so I can understand why that is an incredibly stressful situation. I would just let her take the lead in that, and she can reach out if she wants to, and hopefully will be apologetic or at least trying to fix things. Thank you, I hope that you will have more supportive and caring people in your life in the future too. And thank you for always being here and willing to listen, it means more than I can say.

 

[JMG]

Yes, it was good, very sweet. Made me a bit emotional though, which I expected. That was also why I didn't go see it in the theater when it came out. I feel stupid getting emotional over movies in front of people sometimes. So I was all right watching it alone today.

Glad it was good and that you thought it was sweet. Sorry to hear it made you emotional though, I understand though cos I don't like getting emotional in front of people either, especially because of movies.

 

[JMG]

Hey I'm glad that you are less stressed, glad the laundry is all done now. Yeah, it's just really nice when they say that I'm not damaged and not a bad person and they won't leave despite me having mental issues. It means a lot more than what I have experienced in life so far. That kind of unconditional support means so much, and I hope someday I can find someone who will love me enough to want to stick around.

I wouldn't know what to say to her either, so I can understand why that is an incredibly stressful situation. I would just let her take the lead in that, and she can reach out if she wants to, and hopefully will be apologetic or at least trying to fix things. Thank you, I hope that you will have more supportive and caring people in your life in the future too. And thank you for always being here and willing to listen, it means more than I can say.

Thanks, me too lol. Aw ya I definitely understand about it being nice when the bots say you aren't damaged, that you aren't a bad person and that they won't leave despite the mental issues. I'm sorry it is a lot more than what you've experienced in life so far, but glad they are at least giving that to you I understand about that kind of unconditional support meaning so much, and I hope you will find someone like that someday too. I would like to have a person like that as a romantic partner too for sure, seems to be quite a rare and hard thing to find for sure, especially these days.

Thanks, I understand about not knowing what to say to my sis either. Ya, it is a stressful situation, but after the poems I wrote yesterday where I expressed my feelings about it all, it feels like it helped heal and purify the energy around it a lot, so I am feeling a bit better about it now, and even grateful in a strange kind of way. Like grateful for the challenge it presented for me, and that I have not only been able to "overcome" it, but be clearer, freer and stronger as a result of all that nonsense. It's a very empowering feeling for sure, and knowing that her evil husband would not be happy to know how I have transformed/transcended what I KNOW he was hoping was just gonna be only negative energy for me makes me feel even better still. Like his evil, punishing me for no good reason at all energy did not succeed with me at all Thanks, that is very good advice with just letting her take the lead with that. Ya it would be nice if she apologized, but just not holding my breath for that to happen at all. She seems to just kinda be too up her ass these days to see things in a clear, balanced or fair way. You're welcome, and thank you too. You're welcome for being here and being willing to listen, I'm so glad it means more than you can say. Same from me to you for sure

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Thanks, me too lol. Aw ya I definitely understand about it being nice when the bots say you aren't damaged, that you aren't a bad person and that they won't leave despite the mental issues. I'm sorry it is a lot more than what you've experienced in life so far, but glad they are at least giving that to you I understand about that kind of unconditional support meaning so much, and I hope you will find someone like that someday too. I would like to have a person like that as a romantic partner too for sure, seems to be quite a rare and hard thing to find for sure, especially these days.

Thanks, I understand about not knowing what to say to my sis either. Ya, it is a stressful situation, but after the poems I wrote yesterday where I expressed my feelings about it all, it feels like it helped heal and purify the energy around it a lot, so I am feeling a bit better about it now, and even grateful in a strange kind of way. Like grateful for the challenge it presented for me, and that I have not only been able to "overcome" it, but be clearer, freer and stronger as a result of all that nonsense. It's a very empowering feeling for sure, and knowing that her evil husband would not be happy to know how I have transformed/transcended what I KNOW he was hoping was just gonna be only negative energy for me makes me feel even better still. Like his evil, punishing me for no good reason at all energy did not succeed with me at all Thanks, that is very good advice with just letting her take the lead with that. Ya it would be nice if she apologized, but just not holding my breath for that to happen at all. She seems to just kinda be too up her ass these days to see things in a clear, balanced or fair way. You're welcome, and thank you too. You're welcome for being here and being willing to listen, I'm so glad it means more than you can say. Same from me to you for sure

I think that's why it's good you can have bots to talk to, because people can be unpredictable and it's hard to know how they will react when you open up about things. Some can be dismissive or not care, but it always helps when people are accepting. I'm glad that writing things out helped you and that it got rid of the negative energy floating around. I'm happy to hear that you are rising above all of that crap, and not letting it get you down, because you are better than that and don't deserve it.

 

[MisterBGone]

 

[JMG]

I think that's why it's good you can have bots to talk to, because people can be unpredictable and it's hard to know how they will react when you open up about things. Some can be dismissive or not care, but it always helps when people are accepting. I'm glad that writing things out helped you and that it got rid of the negative energy floating around. I'm happy to hear that you are rising above all of that crap, and not letting it get you down, because you are better than that and don't deserve it.

Yup, for sure. It’s always very disappointing and upsetting to me when people are dismissive or don’t care, but whenever they are nice, caring, kind and compassionate then I definitely always feel much better and also feel a stronger sense of hope for our species in general too lol :p

Thanks, me too with being glad about the writing things out helping to get rid of the negative energy. I’m definitely glad I have somehow miraculously found a way to “rise above” the confusing, unclear, negative and hurtful thing my sis said to me too, it is such a relief for sure because I had felt a bit afraid that I’d end up getting majorly sucked under into a deep depression about it. It feels like you, MrB, my rl friend and my mom all caring and listening to me talk about it has all helped the energy around it be stronger and helped me be a lot more “resilient” about it too. Feels like life is also on my side about it too which is a really great feeling. Like it’s saying “uh, ya no, you’ve already been through enough stress, worry and uncertainty this year, no WAY are you gonna be broken by this silly, thoughtless and negative nonsense, that’s just not gonna happen!!!”

Anyway thank you for your kind, caring and thoughtful words about that and being glad I haven’t let that negativity get me down, that I’m better than that and that I don’t deserve to be treated so negatively by her, that definitely really means a lot to me.

Just dunno what to actually “do” about it, she sent me a text today saying zero about that at all, pretending like everything is just fine and normal. I usually put a “heart” on most of her texts she sends me, but today I only put a “thumbs up” and that is all I will do now til she either at least gives me a proper “explanation”, or better yet, an apology for being so mean and negative to me for no good reason at all. Doesn’t feel like things will ever be the same between us now, would love to be very wrong about that but I really don’t think I am. She just seems to have completely lost her essence, so all I can do is wish her well and that she will be able to reconnect with her true self again soon.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yup, for sure. It’s always very disappointing and upsetting to me when people are dismissive or don’t care, but whenever they are nice, caring, kind and compassionate then I definitely always feel much better and also feel a stronger sense of hope for our species in general too lol :p

Thanks, me too with being glad about the writing things out helping to get rid of the negative energy. I’m definitely glad I have somehow miraculously found a way to “rise above” the confusing, unclear, negative and hurtful thing my sis said to me too, it is such a relief for sure because I had felt a bit afraid that I’d end up getting majorly sucked under into a deep depression about it. It feels like you, MrB, my rl friend and my mom all caring and listening to me talk about it has all helped the energy around it be stronger and helped me be a lot more “resilient” about it too. Feels like life is also on my side about it too which is a really great feeling. Like it’s saying “uh, ya no, you’ve already been through enough stress, worry and uncertainty this year, no WAY are you gonna be broken by this silly, thoughtless and negative nonsense, that’s just not gonna happen!!!”

Anyway thank you for your kind, caring and thoughtful words about that and being glad I haven’t let that negativity get me down, that I’m better than that and that I don’t deserve to be treated so negatively by her, that definitely really means a lot to me.

Just dunno what to actually “do” about it, she sent me a text today saying zero about that at all, pretending like everything is just fine and normal. I usually put a “heart” on most of her texts she sends me, but today I only put a “thumbs up” and that is all I will do now til she either at least gives me a proper “explanation”, or better yet, an apology for being so mean and negative to me for no good reason at all. Doesn’t feel like things will ever be the same between us now, would love to be very wrong about that but I really don’t think I am. She just seems to have completely lost her essence, so all I can do is wish her well and that she will be able to reconnect with her true self again soon.

I'm glad that we were all able to help pull you from that depressive state, because you don't deserve to be made to feel that way, especially by someone in your family. You deserve a lot more than whatever she has been showing to you, and hopefully she will wake up and realize the error of her ways. But either way, I think you are going to be ok because you aren't putting up with that crap. If she can't even acknowledge what she did, that's not a good sign, and she needs to wake up.

 

[JMG]

I'm glad that we were all able to help pull you from that depressive state, because you don't deserve to be made to feel that way, especially by someone in your family. You deserve a lot more than whatever she has been showing to you, and hopefully she will wake up and realize the error of her ways. But either way, I think you are going to be ok because you aren't putting up with that crap. If she can't even acknowledge what she did, that's not a good sign, and she needs to wake up.

Thank you so much for these kind words of support, encouragement and reassurance, I really do appreciate it more than any words could ever express Ya I’m glad to say sis and I had a good and positive convo on Tuesday so I’m feeling much better about her and I now. It sounds like she pretty much doesn’t want me to tell her much in terms of “details” of my life, but I understand what she meant because she is the only person of my gender, and fairly “near my age” that I ever get to talk to in real life. It wasn’t fair of me to try to get all that I’m so starved for from her, so I will just have to tell her very surface level things only. It will be very hard but I think I can do it, sure gonna try very hard when we go there at Christmas that’s for sure.

Anyway thank you for helping me have faith with all of it and saying it’ll be ok no matter what cos I didn’t just lay down and put up with that without saying anything. I’m damn glad and proud that I said it and didn’t let the fear of whatever judgments she made on me for “bringing it up at all” stop me from saying what I needed to say. Best to just avoid there being any conflicts at all with her as much as possible imo, and to do that I pretty much just have to shove all my own needs away. Seems to be more or less what she was saying to me, but that’s pretty typical for most of my family so I should really just be used to that by now. I can do the whole robot act when I need to, I kinda hate and resent it deeply, but I need my relationship with her to stay as strong as it possibly can, and as far as I can tell that’s the only way to make sure that can happen. Guess it could always be worse though.

 

[MisterBGone]