Why does no one give a fuck :(

[ellierose]

I had surgery early this morning fuck me I feel rough. They put all sorts of bults in my legs and I am in pain the amount of pain meds their giving me fuck me its alot. My brother is taking my daughter out today so I feel better that she is okay with Teddy and that my baby girl is safe and well and not in danger.
Yes I wanted to take my life but I'm strong, Yes I fractured my leg in 6 parts along side of a dislocation i am here for my dog and my beautiful daughter who i love to bits and i miss her so much.
I am hurting and in emotional pain due to being raped by my dad 5 times and my foster brothers who really made me suffer I keep blaming myself for what happened and men only want me for my body but i want a happy life and at the moment i am seriously taking risks to die or not be here anymore.
I am going to bed at night wishing I was dead and that I was no longer here getting abused by men.

I am today wanting to die I am seriously thinking and I might. But, I hope if i do choose to die today it wont be just a attempt it'll be me gone. I am in distress. got brought back by police because last night i left the hospital and they took me back because of my safety fuck the police.
why does no one fucking care
I am wanting to die because I got nothing to live for

I suffer and people tell me to grow up and stop thinking of dying fuckl off im in pain you dickhead I been through rape, kidnap, sexual abuse and a eating disorder shut up I am wanting help

 

[ellierose]

I suffer and people tell me to grow up and stop thinking of dying fuckl off im in pain you dickhead I been through rape, kidnap, sexual abuse and a eating disorder shut up I am wanting help /\

 

[iloverachel]

That it is very awful what you have been through.
I might not know you personally but I care and hope you heal from this trauma.
Some people can be very cruel and heartless, ignore them

 

[ellierose]

That it is very awful what you have been through.
I might not know you personally but I care and hope you heal from this trauma.
Some people can be very cruel and heartless, ignore them

just give my heart out and people use it its not fair i may as well be dead

 

[ellierose]

fuck this im out

 

[iloverachel]

fuck this im out

 

[ellierose]

want to die i really do

 

[Aurelia]

want to die i really do

Your daughter and dog don't use you though and they still need you around.

 

[ellierose]

Your daughter and dog don't use you though and they still need you around.

everyone has used me

 

[Aurelia]

everyone has used me

Okay I do get that, but that's kind of what kids do when they're not independent yet, but doesn't mean they don't love you or need you.

 

[ellierose]

Okay I do get that, but that's kind of what kids do when they're not independent yet, but doesn't mean they don't love you or need you.

im not a kid... im a grown adult and i am meaning they rape me.

 

[Aurelia]

im not a kid... im a grown adult and i am meaning they rape me.

I thought you meant financially because I was talking about your daughter. And I didn't mean that you were a kid, just her being your kid. I don't know if she's adult age, but even then kids need their parents.

 

[ellierose]

I thought you meant financially because I was talking about your daughter.

no i wasnt' if you want to know my story go check the new one i put out cus i havent really explained my story xxx

 

[Aurelia]

no i wasnt' if you want to know my story go check the new one i put out cus i havent really explained my story xxx

Well I did read your original post here, so I do understand the sexual abuse part, and same here. But my abuser is already suffering pretty badly with dementia which I'm perfectly fine with.

 

[ellierose]

Well I did read your original post here, so I do understand the sexual abuse part, and same here. But my abuser is already suffering pretty badly with dementia which I'm perfectly fine with.

its not about the abuse... i can tag you///?

 

[Aurelia]

its not about the abuse... i can tag you///?

Yes, of course. You can private message or just chat message me too if you want.

 

[ellierose]

Yes, of course. You can private message or just chat message me too if you want.

ok

 

[Lady Wolfshead]

I read your story. I'm upset to hear that you went through so much. You seem like a child still yourself to me (I'm 52), although I know that a lot of very young women have children. Even though you are so young, remember you are like a god to your daughter and you are everything to her. For her as well as yourself you need to hang on and continue getting help. I hope you can see a good counsellor and join a support group for victims of sexual assault. There is love and help out there for you.

 

[ellierose]

I read your story. I'm upset to hear that you went through so much. You seem like a child still yourself to me (I'm 52), although I know that a lot of very young women have children. Even though you are so young, remember you are like a god to your daughter and you are everything to her. For her as well as yourself you need to hang on and continue getting help. I hope you can see a good counsellor and join a support group for victims of sexual assault. There is love and help out there for you.

thank you.

 

[ellierose]

im so useless