Why does no one give a fuck :(

[Waves]

Are you near southern England?

 

[ellierose]

yeah

 

[Waves]

Contact them and the what Ellie?

 

[ellierose]

they can support you tonight and so on maybe put help in place for a future purpose

 

[Waves]

Oooh. I texted that crisis line. They follow a script. First determine if suicidal. Say no or the call police and kick me up. Then they say take a bath relax use mindfulness etc. They end call in 2o minutes

 

[Waves]

Lock*

 

[ellierose]

maybe try find some other ones.

 

[Waves]

Ellie. My cure is in survival security. I can’t get that alone and no one will or is going to help take care of me. Just a fact. So only resort is death. Many feel the same.

 

[ellierose]

ill support you. i cant force you to stay but i care

 

[Waves]

Other ones? What I need is daily care and support like in a roommate or family. Have neither and no one wants burden of caring. Everyone wants to be loved ad cared for.

 

[ellierose]

i know i know. im trying ok

 

[Waves]

You care. ? Thank you. I believe you. But you can’t take care of me

 

[Waves]

Thank you for trying and caring

 

[ellierose]

I do care, nothing will stop me from caring

 

[Waves]

Ellie. Why is it impossible to find love and support

 

[Waves]

Instead of abuse and victimization?

 

[ellierose]

because it takes time. i havent really found love but i am here. supporting you

 

[ellierose]

Instead of abuse and victimization?

i found abuse in my life but i am learning to see whos the people who are wanting my love and do actually care

 

[Waves]

Good you are finding love. At 19 people want to love you. At my age NO. So grab it and nurture it and maintain it Ellie. PLEASE

 

[ellierose]

I havent found it ! but i a helping you so forget about me