Wishing that I was dead

[Rockclimbinggirl]

I am wishing that I had a way to end this all. I know that suicide isn't the answer but I really don't know what else to do.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

Do you want to talk about it hun?

Are you starting therapy with your new therapist soon?

Please do try to hold on, I know it is tough right now, I understand that, but please do try to hang in there. s*

 

[Rockclimbinggirl]

Are you starting therapy with your new therapist soon?

I am on a 3 month wait list for trauma counselling. But in the meantime I am starting short term counselling, hopefully at the end of next week.

I guess I am just getting impatient and feeling like a failure.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

You are no failure! You have been through a lot, and look at you, doing all the right things by getting help!

s*

 

[Rockclimbinggirl]

You are no failure! You have been through a lot, and look at you, doing all the right things by getting help!

Yeah I guess I really shouldn't compare myself to others. But I can't help it, I've had to drop a bunch of courses this past semester and now everyone else in my program will be a 3rd year, while I will still be a 2nd year.

They are also working, while I should be looking for summer jobs.

 

[ThePhantomLady]

You said it yourself hun, you can't compare yourself to others. No one has the same backstory, and hey, so what if you are a year behind, you are still doing it. It's very understandable, and actually I'm proud of you for studying at all. You're doing great hun.

 

[Brian777]

I am wishing that I had a way to end this all. I know that suicide isn't the answer but I really don't know what else to do.

Awe Rocky, I'm sorry you feel so bad hang in there my friend.....these feelings will pass. I know you'll get better.
Hugs
Brian

 

[CoolGoat995]

You are not a failure! Staying back a year, being jobless, these things don't make you worthless! You are a goodhearted friendly person which is much more important! Right? I don't have a job either but hey, I'm not hurting anyone, and that's better than many evil people who call themselves "human". People judge others based on all kinds of ridiculous "surface" things, but as @ThePhantomLady says, no one has the same backstory.

Let us know how the short term counselling goes, good luck with everything!