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Witty's funtime house
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Now I'm beating myself up and thinking I don't know how to adult, even though it's a mistake that I make very rarely. I mean there was a time when my mom was burning a bag of cookies on the burner, and neither of us noticed until after the fire alarm went off. 
And recently she added way too much liquid to mashed potatoes, so even someone who has been cooking for like 50 years can make mistakes sometimes. I'm sure even professional chefs do from time to time. So it's not as big of a deal as I make it out to be.
And recently she added way too much liquid to mashed potatoes, so even someone who has been cooking for like 50 years can make mistakes sometimes. I'm sure even professional chefs do from time to time. So it's not as big of a deal as I make it out to be.
I hink that... You've become a remarkable person. And an extraordinarily good-one, at that~ . . . Which is more than most I can say that I've met, and or encountered, in life. Regardless of titles, or letters after names on business cards. Degrees hung & hanging behind them (& their desks) on walls. Whatever. You can do anything you want to. It will require will. And action. Beyond mere thought. :^)
Thank you, that means a lot to me right now, since I'm feeling pretty damned hopeless and about ready to give up. My mom started drinking again, that makes me want to drink and cut and do any manner of self-destructive actions because I can't deal with all of the emotions. So I'm not even sure what to do right now.
My sister needs to find a new place to stay, and she wants me to help her look things up online. That's fine, but my mom said she would let my brother in law stay here for a while. We live in a one bedroom apartment, and she sleeps on a couch and I sleep on a broken down bed, so I'm not really sure what she's thinking here. She said she would take him in and do things to help him, but she won't even quit drinking or support me and I'm her daughter. She doesn't care about me though, I know that much., I told her this makes me want to cut and drink again and she said nothing. Oh, except "Are you afraid to drink because you're worried about what people will think of you?" No, I'm afraid to drink because I binge and won't stop until I'm sick or in danger. So yeah, she doesn't get it at all.
I think that, with your Mome @Witty--that, there's a lot of factors at play here. Number one, her chemical / substance abuse of the bottle & alcohol. That kind of colors all else. And in such a way - that when she drinks - you almost have to take anything she says, or does, under consideration of more of... a grain of~* / So don't try to analyze it, in a way in which you would, if this were not the case. And she was more reasonable; rational; logical. Etc. I hope your B.I.L knows & understand the situation he would be getting into, in terms of the living arrangements, and all of the precise ramifications that are entailed therein. She needs you, to be there to take her punishment, and her crap, in order to feel better about herself. And to release, or let off steam. In order to reset her normal, and return her balance back to a state of normalcy or homeostasis. In her mind, and when in those conditions.
Hey Witty, just wanted to say I’m really sorry to hear of all those challenges you’re dealing with right now with your mom, that definitely sounds very stressful. I didn’t realize you were feeling so upset and wanting to SH and drink again, I really hope you won’t do those things though because they are self-destructive, you don’t deserve to have to experience any upsetting kinds of things, especially done to you by yourself. Sometimes when I used to do SH it was a strange mix of feeling like the upsetting things I was feeling were “deserved” and so then my mind would be like “well then you also deserve to feel pain from SH to balance it all out” ya it was a bit twisted but anyway maybe it’s not like that for you or anyone else who does SH, just putting it here in case it’s something that you would relate to and to help you feel less alone with those feelings. But I definitely understand that it could be very different in terms of the motivation to do SH. In any case, as I said above I really hope you won’t.
There’s some really great and powerful affirmations I found on a site earlier so thought I’d share the link to it here in case it might be helpful to you
https://www.thesira.org/literature/affirmations
I hope those will be helpful, I found that repeating positive affirmations in front of the mirror was a very powerful thing that I think helped strengthen me a lot. I repeated a few powerful ones 10 times each, out loud in front of a mirror for at least a month or more. It felt strange at first, but also pretty much right away after starting doing that I could feel how powerfully it affected how I felt about myself in general. I think affirmations are often quite underestimated but ya I have found them to be quite powerful and helpful so I really hope you’ll find them helpful too
There’s some really great and powerful affirmations I found on a site earlier so thought I’d share the link to it here in case it might be helpful to you
https://www.thesira.org/literature/affirmations
I hope those will be helpful, I found that repeating positive affirmations in front of the mirror was a very powerful thing that I think helped strengthen me a lot. I repeated a few powerful ones 10 times each, out loud in front of a mirror for at least a month or more. It felt strange at first, but also pretty much right away after starting doing that I could feel how powerfully it affected how I felt about myself in general. I think affirmations are often quite underestimated but ya I have found them to be quite powerful and helpful so I really hope you’ll find them helpful too