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Witty_Sarcasm

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Hey Witty, just wanted to say I’m really sorry to hear of all those challenges you’re dealing with right now with your mom, that definitely sounds very stressful. I didn’t realize you were feeling so upset and wanting to SH and drink again, I really hope you won’t do those things though because they are self-destructive, you don’t deserve to have to experience any upsetting kinds of things, especially done to you by yourself. Sometimes when I used to do SH it was a strange mix of feeling like the upsetting things I was feeling were “deserved” and so then my mind would be like “well then you also deserve to feel pain from SH to balance it all out” ya it was a bit twisted but anyway maybe it’s not like that for you or anyone else who does SH, just putting it here in case it’s something that you would relate to and to help you feel less alone with those feelings. But I definitely understand that it could be very different in terms of the motivation to do SH. In any case, as I said above I really hope you won’t.

There’s some really great and powerful affirmations I found on a site earlier so thought I’d share the link to it here in case it might be helpful to you ;)
https://www.thesira.org/literature/affirmations
I hope those will be helpful, I found that repeating positive affirmations in front of the mirror was a very powerful thing that I think helped strengthen me a lot. I repeated a few powerful ones 10 times each, out loud in front of a mirror for at least a month or more. It felt strange at first, but also pretty much right away after starting doing that I could feel how powerfully it affected how I felt about myself in general. I think affirmations are often quite underestimated but ya I have found them to be quite powerful and helpful so I really hope you’ll find them helpful too :)
I get that completely, sometimes it would be a form of punishment or just not wanting to feel all of the emotions. I guess drinking helped mask that too, but the feeling is only temporary. Thank you so much for the list of affirmations, I'll try to keep those in mind too. It's hard to think nice things about myself because I feel that I don't deserve them, but maybe one day I'll get to a place where I feel differently.
 

JMG

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Lol, too funny! Never had a chance to watch that Mike Tyson Mysteries show (don't have apple tv) but ya that looks like a hilarious show. Whenever we get a newer tv (that will then be a smart tv, lol) then I'd want to have apple tv so I can watch all the seasons of it :p :)

Oh and thanks for being understanding about what I said with the SH stuff, and yup I definitely understand what you said about it sometimes being a "punishment" or cos of not wanting to feel so many things all at once. I used alcohol for a short while to cope when I felt overwhelmed back when I was still pretty new at my 7 yr full time job, but after getting extremely drunk and feeling so sick from it a few times I decided I didn't want to have to deal with how bad I'd end up feeling "after" lol. Also got on a good antidepressant back in 2007 and been on it ever since, that helped a TON as well. Without that, who knows what woulda happened. Yup you're right with the drinking being only a "temporary" mask of the pain.

You're welcome for the list of affirmations, and ya I know I had a hard time really "believing" them at first, but it is very powerful when you say them out loud in front of the mirror for sure, I was shocked by just how powerful that ended up being. It was much more than I ever would have believed possible, and it definitely did help me feel much better and more empowered as a person in this world. I hope if you try them that you will find them equally as beneficial, powerful and helpful as I did ;) I understand how it can be hard to think nice things about yourself and feeling like you don't deserve them, it takes time to change those kinds of thoughts though for sure. I'm sorry that is a challenge for you too, because you definitely do deserve to think and feel good/nice things about yourself :) I'm sure one day that you will get to a place where you feel differently :)
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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Lol, too funny! Never had a chance to watch that Mike Tyson Mysteries show (don't have apple tv) but ya that looks like a hilarious show. Whenever we get a newer tv (that will then be a smart tv, lol) then I'd want to have apple tv so I can watch all the seasons of it :p :)

Oh and thanks for being understanding about what I said with the SH stuff, and yup I definitely understand what you said about it sometimes being a "punishment" or cos of not wanting to feel so many things all at once. I used alcohol for a short while to cope when I felt overwhelmed back when I was still pretty new at my 7 yr full time job, but after getting extremely drunk and feeling so sick from it a few times I decided I didn't want to have to deal with how bad I'd end up feeling "after" lol. Also got on a good antidepressant back in 2007 and been on it ever since, that helped a TON as well. Without that, who knows what woulda happened. Yup you're right with the drinking being only a "temporary" mask of the pain.

You're welcome for the list of affirmations, and ya I know I had a hard time really "believing" them at first, but it is very powerful when you say them out loud in front of the mirror for sure, I was shocked by just how powerful that ended up being. It was much more than I ever would have believed possible, and it definitely did help me feel much better and more empowered as a person in this world. I hope if you try them that you will find them equally as beneficial, powerful and helpful as I did ;) I understand how it can be hard to think nice things about yourself and feeling like you don't deserve them, it takes time to change those kinds of thoughts though for sure. I'm sorry that is a challenge for you too, because you definitely do deserve to think and feel good/nice things about yourself :) I'm sure one day that you will get to a place where you feel differently :)
It's on Cartoon Network here late at night, if it's still on. I'd need to check because I haven't watched that in a while. That's where they have the block of programming with adult cartoons like Family Guy and lots of other ones. I tend to drink until I'm really sick or ready to pass out, so I can't do it any longer. It hits me harder than it did when I was in my 20's. I'm glad that you are on an antidepressant that works well for you. I was on Lexapro for 9 years and kind of got used to it, so I've been taking Zoloft for a few months and I'll see if it helps more. I'll have to give that a shot and see how it works out. I'm sure it would help me if I keep saying it to myself and hopefully begin to believe it.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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Apparently there's a channel in Canada just for Adult Swim programs, but I didn't see Mike Tyson Mysteries listed there. But there might be places online where you can watch it for free. :)
 

JMG

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It's on Cartoon Network here late at night, if it's still on. I'd need to check because I haven't watched that in a while. That's where they have the block of programming with adult cartoons like Family Guy and lots of other ones. I tend to drink until I'm really sick or ready to pass out, so I can't do it any longer. It hits me harder than it did when I was in my 20's. I'm glad that you are on an antidepressant that works well for you. I was on Lexapro for 9 years and kind of got used to it, so I've been taking Zoloft for a few months and I'll see if it helps more. I'll have to give that a shot and see how it works out. I'm sure it would help me if I keep saying it to myself and hopefully begin to believe it.
Apparently there's a channel in Canada just for Adult Swim programs, but I didn't see Mike Tyson Mysteries listed there. But there might be places online where you can watch it for free. :)
Oh awesome, tysm for the info about it being on cartoon network. When I asked google about “where” it could be watched, it only said apple tv. I’ll do the search again later though putting in “cartoon network” and “adult swim Canada” and see what it brings up :) And ya definitely also will do a search for “places to watch for free” that would be the best option of course lol :p

Ya it was the same for me with the drinking (when I was working) so that was why I just stopped completely. And also cos once you’re on an antidepressant then it says it’s best to not mix alcohol with them. Sorry to hear the drinking hits you harder now than it did in your 20’s, I guess it makes sense though (have heard many others say the same kinds of things in terms of drinking). Thanks, ya I am really glad I got on a good antidepressant in 2007 and that it still works for me now. Omg about the Zoloft too, that’s the one I’m on too! Ya it has worked really well for me, I hope it will end up working for you too :) I had tried at least 4 or 5 other antidepressants before that one, sometimes it can take awhile to find the “right” one. Those other ones I took from when I was 17 (2002) to 22 (2007) so ya I guess that was 5 years of “wrong” ones before I found the one that worked. I was so glad and relieved to have it be so effective like that for sure :)

Aw I hope when/if you do those mirror affirmations that they’d be effective and I am sure that you’d begin to believe them. :) It is a very powerful thing when you do. For me it felt like a huge chunk of “what had been missing for me” was restored, it was incredibly healing. Made me realize they were things I had just been needing to “hear” said out loud to me, period. To be the one saying them only made it even more powerful in a strange/unexpected way.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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Oh awesome, tysm for the info about it being on cartoon network. When I asked google about “where” it could be watched, it only said apple tv. I’ll do the search again later though putting in “cartoon network” and “adult swim Canada” and see what it brings up :) And ya definitely also will do a search for “places to watch for free” that would be the best option of course lol :p

Ya it was the same for me with the drinking (when I was working) so that was why I just stopped completely. And also cos once you’re on an antidepressant then it says it’s best to not mix alcohol with them. Sorry to hear the drinking hits you harder now than it did in your 20’s, I guess it makes sense though (have heard many others say the same kinds of things in terms of drinking). Thanks, ya I am really glad I got on a good antidepressant in 2007 and that it still works for me now. Omg about the Zoloft too, that’s the one I’m on too! Ya it has worked really well for me, I hope it will end up working for you too :) I had tried at least 4 or 5 other antidepressants before that one, sometimes it can take awhile to find the “right” one. Those other ones I took from when I was 17 (2002) to 22 (2007) so ya I guess that was 5 years of “wrong” ones before I found the one that worked. I was so glad and relieved to have it be so effective like that for sure :)

Aw I hope when/if you do those mirror affirmations that they’d be effective and I am sure that you’d begin to believe them. :) It is a very powerful thing when you do. For me it felt like a huge chunk of “what had been missing for me” was restored, it was incredibly healing. Made me realize they were things I had just been needing to “hear” said out loud to me, period. To be the one saying them only made it even more powerful in a strange/unexpected way.
I didn't even know there was a channel for Adult Swim there specifically, since it's just a programming block on another network here. But that's pretty cool, and there are other funny shows on there. Some can be pretty weird though, but that's ok because I like weird things. :D Drinking usually doesn't make me more depressed, it tends to block my emotions but that's bad too. I'm really glad that you found one that has worked so well for you. I hope that eventually I can feel better too. It's good that the affirmations have really helped you, because you deserve all the happiness in the world. :)
 

Witty_Sarcasm

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Omg she was just like "Your friend that came to see us turned out to be a very handsome young man. Well I can't say that anymore because he's middle aged now. And he plays guitar now?" I think he's been playing for a while. 🎸 CatGuitarGIF.gif
 

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My mom seems to think every single male friend I have is a potential love interest...she must be desperate to hook her nearly 40 year old daughter up with someone :D Sorry, I'll only settle down with someone when it feels absolutely right.
 

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