tired of life

I'm new to this kind of thing, but I feel like I should start getting help. Nowadays I feel empty, almost deflated. Its like a constant tiredness that I can't seem to get rid of no matter what I do, I've tried drawing, music and exercise to see if that would help with it and so far nothing has...

Dont even know what to write. Im just desperate to keep myself occupied at the moment. Oh god i dont even know what i want to say. I mean yeah im safe and all but its kind of wishing i wasnt, you know? Like, no im not in any immediate danger but i wish i was. I want to be. I dont want to wake up...

I almost placed this in the crisis forum, but I thought this was more proper as I just feel really discouraged. Monday was a pretty crappy day for me. Work was frustrating and walking through downtown that night was really hard. I was walking downtown and this group of people....I guess they...