I'm Tired, and I don't mean physically

[WiltedRose999]

I'm new to this kind of thing, but I feel like I should start getting help. Nowadays I feel empty, almost deflated. Its like a constant tiredness that I can't seem to get rid of no matter what I do, I've tried drawing, music and exercise to see if that would help with it and so far nothing has helped. I don't understand what's wrong with me, its not like I'm not cared for. I have a good family and loving friends.. Is it because I can't get a job? Or maybe because relationships never seem to work out for me?.. I don't understand. Can someone please help me? I don't want to live like this anymore, I'm so tired of fighting it and forcing myself to be happy so nobody else can see that I'm miserable, I just want to be normal again...

 

[Petal]

Hello @WiltedRose999

Welcome to the SF forums , I am glad you joined us here, a lot of us can relate to being mentally exhausted.

Your profile says you are 20, if that is correct then your adult life is just beginning, more relationships will come, you'll eventually get a job, life will move on.

I think you should see a professional regarding how you are feeling and stick to their advice. When I say a professional I mean a psychiatrist/therapist/doctor.

You can get through this , well done for trying to keep yourself occupied with exercise, drawing and music, that proves you have it in you to help yourself.

Best wishes and know SF is always here for you.

 

[may71]

Nowadays I feel empty, almost deflated. Its like a constant tiredness that I can't seem to get rid of no matter what I do

Sorry to hear that you are going through this.

How long has this been going on? Do you know why you feel this way?

A lot of different conditions can cause fatigue, including depression. You might want to go to the doctor and get checked out.

If the cause of your fatigue turns out to be primarily or exclusively depression, then there are a variety of treatment methods to try.

 

[WiltedRose999]

I can't afford to get a psychiatrist because I have no income as of now, I haven't been able to keep a steady job and the only jobs in my area require some form of certification or prior experience that I simply don't have. I've felt empty for almost six years, the feeling isn't constant, its like a wave that builds over time. For awhile I'm ok, and then slowly I'll start getting more and more depressed and start feeling exhausted all the time.

 

[Walker]

Sounds like soem grade A depression you've got there. You said it's been 6 years now that you've felt like this off and on. It's definitely time to try to get some help. That stuff goes on and on and on and the next thing you know you're still on this site when you're 40 because you've never tried to do more for it but wait and see.
Is there a state insurance or indigent program in your area that you can get on that has mental health maybe? Most places do have them but I don't know where you are.
Seems like you could be on your parents insurance at 20 years old. Are they not available for that? You should be able to be on there for a few more years.

 

[may71]

I can't afford to get a psychiatrist because I have no income as of now

If you are in the US or Canada, you could try calling 211 or visiting 211.org. They can help connect you to healthcare.

The links in my signature have some information about treatment methods, including some self-help methods.

 

[WiltedRose999]

I have state healthcare, but that won't cover mental health needs in the US unless you have a doctors recommendation and proof that you need the help. My parents both work and can't afford to get healthcare since it would cost them 400 a month for basic health benefits, so i can't get any kind of help from them monetary-wise.

 

[may71]

If you are formally considered disabled, you might be eligible for some additional benefits.

that won't cover mental health needs in the US unless you have a doctors recommendation and proof that you need the help

If you see a doctor, they may be able to make that recommendation for you.

211 is probably worth at least trying, if you haven't done that. They may not be able to help, but there's some chance that they could so it's probably worth it.

I wish the healthcare system worked better. I'm sorry that it's been a struggle to get help.

 

[JmpMster]

I have state healthcare, but that won't cover mental health needs in the US unless you have a doctors recommendation and proof that you need the help. My parents both work and can't afford to get healthcare since it would cost them 400 a month for basic health benefits, so i can't get any kind of help from them monetary-wise.

If you describe same way to dr as here I suspect would not be much of an issue to get a referral from a Dr. basically the reasons to feel sick- which includes constant fatigue as something would see a medical dr about after dealing with for more than a short while are either physical and the Dr can help or set up treatment for, or mental and they can either try to treat, or refer you to mental health for treatment. You mat want to look at the coverage for Apple Care again

https://www.hca.wa.gov/billers-prov...s/program-benefit-packages-and-scope-services

or call them 1-800-562-3022 and get more information as the coverage listed is fairly extensive. I am sure like many of these type of programs there wait times for appointments and is not as simple and straightforward as they imply (made much much harder by trying to deal with that you are feeling at the moment) but it is absolutely worth the effort to try to get some real help. Maybe your parents could help you in figuring out the plans or doing some of the calls to help set things up even if they cannot help financially. Parents can be a good source of support in these things if you are fortunate (or can be obstacles also- we can choose our friends but parents are luck of the draw unfortunately)

I hope you have some luck getting help and finding ways to feel better, nobody deserves to feel bad like that, but things honestly can get better so long as keep trying and not settle or give up out of tiredness or belief that it wont ever improve.

 

[Innocent Forever]

Hi Rose
I could relate a lot....
Could you look into getting counselling for a couple of sessions at least (you should be able to find charities that help with that), even if just online...
Sending hugs your way...