I am new here and just needed somewhere to write my feelings where I wouldn't be judged. Tears keep falling out of my eyes. I know I am not going to do anything and I don't want to but the thought is there and it hurts so badly. Just hoping that when I wake up tomorrow the feeling will go away or at least be lessened. I am looking for support groups in my area so I can feel less alone about having these negative feelings. I don't have the urge, just the thoughts and that is what bothers me the most. Right now I am going through a rough patch, missing a few people that have passed away and am very stressed. My sadness feels so overwhelming sometimes even though I have friends who care. I feel guilty for not being happy and wished there was a way for this pain to stop. For a few days I've felt lethargic and down and I want relief.