BPD Support Thread

[dandelions]

When someone says they are happy you emailed then don't respond to your following emails.

i think i’m guilty of doing this sometimes, but when i do (to not reply) it is because my mind is in some kind of chaos and i’m not able to formulate coherent thoughts on the subject being spoken of.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I'm stupid because I think someone will actually love me one day, when I know I am essentially unlovable.

 

[Angie74]

I feel the same way. But YOU are not unlovable.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I feel the same way. But YOU are not unlovable.

Thank you, I don't think you are either

 

[Innocent Forever]

I feel the same way. But YOU are not unlovable.

Ditto @Witty✯Sarcasm

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Ditto @Witty✯Sarcasm

Thank you, I just wish I was able to feel that way about myself.

 

[Innocent Forever]

Thank you, I just wish I was able to feel that way about myself.

Sigh. I don't know if you need to now. Now you just need to believe that we feel it about you... know that we do. And believe in us. And if you can believe in our belief that would be major but knowing myself I don't expect it.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

It's not that hard for people to say, "Hey, I'm just busy and not ignoring you. I still want to talk". Instead they make me wonder, even though they know I have issues with this. But mostly I think my feelings don't matter at all.

 

[Innocent Forever]

It's not that hard for people to say, "Hey, I'm just busy and not ignoring you. I still want to talk". Instead they make me wonder, even though they know I have issues with this. But mostly I think my feelings don't matter at all.

They matter. You matter.

 

[Innocent Forever]

Constantly checking to see if she replied. The only reason it's not too much for her is that she has no idea how much I need her emails.

 

[Pebble mouse]

I wonder, how many people here with BPD experience auditory hallucinations? My meds were increased recently and they have faded away now, to the point they are barely audible. But yesterday, I got all worked up over something STUPID and minor and they came back. I was having trouble replaing the pads on my headphones, such a crazy thing to get agitated about! Does anyone else here hear voices??

 

[Aurelia]

Anyone else with BPD get really upset when someone you care about leaves in the middle of an argument or just generally on a bad note? I think my mind automatically tries to tell me, "What if I never see them again and this is the last thing we've said to each other?" Or "What if I just pushed them away and made them not want to come back?" I know most people come around after they calm down, but it just bothers me really badly.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Anyone else with BPD get really upset when someone you care about leaves in the middle of an argument or just generally on a bad note? I think my mind automatically tries to tell me, "What if I never see them again and this is the last thing we've said to each other?" Or "What if I just pushed them away and made them not want to come back?" I know most people come around after they calm down, but it just bothers me really badly.

Yeah, I think that all the time. But people leave me whether we argue or not, so I always have that in the back of my mind.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

A friend was suicidal and they disappeared. Now I keep repeating bad scenarios in my mind.

 

[Angie74]

I hope they're safe, and that you hear from them soon.

 

[Aurelia]

Making friends is fucking hard work. And it doesn't help that I don't feel like doing a goddamn thing with anyone, but yet still want the friendship. In other words, I would like one to just magically appear without actually putting any of the work into it.

 

[LOSTINSIGHT]

Ive only recently got clarity that i have BPD ,i have intense guilt ."quite BPD" explains alot about my strong inner critic and self harm of hangovers before i got sober ,,i always knew i didnt fit the typical alcoholic type .i internalised all the rage and misery .
I really could of done with realising this years ago .
Dam im in deep trouble .
Peace.

 

[LOSTINSIGHT]

Since I've accepted ive had this ,there's a feeling inside of leaning into the self-destructive part of it .I'm fighting it hard not too .
Cheers.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I absolutely hate the feeling of being alone. When I actually am ignored, then it just compounds the feeling. I don't want to deal with it at all.

 

[Aurelia]

I absolutely hate the feeling of being alone. When I actually am ignored, then it just compounds the feeling. I don't want to deal with it at all.

Many don't like it. But BPs take it to the next level because they really can't stand being with themselves the most. And having to fend for themselves without anyone else to lean on.