BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Don't give up on hope, @Witty⭐️Sarcasm ⭐️. Most borderlines DO tend to improve as they age. I'm now in my mid-forties and there is a world of difference between me in my twenties and me now.

I would hope so, because I feel like a burden to everyone around me.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

If I had anything but BPD, I wonder if people would take my feelings more seriously.

 

[KM76710]

If I had anything but BPD, I wonder if people would take my feelings more seriously.

Probably not, but true with so many of us. I was never really invited to join the human race and was always bored by it so I would not have joined but it would have been interesting to not be the only person excluded, so I just kicked myself out of the human race after seeing the closed door, but I admit that in some ways I am, or at least can be under the right circumstances, a monster.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Probably not, but true with so many of us. I was never really invited to join the human race and was always bored by it so I would not have joined but it would have been interesting to not be the only person excluded, so I just kicked myself out of the human race after seeing the closed door, but I admit that in some ways I am, or at least can be under the right circumstances, a monster.

People just assume I am being manipulative or clamoring for attention. But I don't do things with malice, I'm just hurting.

 

[Pebble mouse]

If I had anything but BPD, I wonder if people would take my feelings more seriously.

Yes the stigma attached to BPD is appalling. I once had a nurse infer there was nothing wrong with me after I cut myself quite badly. My shrink at the time found that amusing. Try not to get caught up in what people like that say or do, it will just cause you pain.

 

[Angie74]

Witty,

So much of what you are saying rings true for me.

 

[Angie74]

It's so lonely having this disorder.

 

[Pebble mouse]

It's so lonely having this disorder.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

If I feel bad about myself, my mom says they need to put me on new meds. But it's hard to explain that a personality disorder can't really be treated with meds. At least not in the standard sense.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Does anyone else feel panicked when they are reminded of being abandoned? Or am I just being a weirdo?

 

[Pebble mouse]

Does anyone else feel panicked when they are reminded of being abandoned? Or am I just being a weirdo?

Not weird at all @Witty⭐️Sarcasm ⭐️. I do that all the time!!

 

[Angie74]

Me too. Perceived abandonment is also problematic.

 

[Angie74]

I'll reject you, if I even remotely think you are thinking of rejecting me...

 

[Angie74]

I thought this disorder was supposed to get better as you aged....ha.

 

[Lane]

Does anyone else feel panicked when they are reminded of being abandoned? Or am I just being a weirdo?

I have been, so its triggering for me. Now I feel like o can only rely on myself and that's sad

 

[Lane]

I wonder what I'd be like now without medicine. It's been so long. I was diagnosed years ago but am so calm with medicine and routine. My life with its turbulence has needed constant work. I've never had the chance to talk to anyone about this, just basically take the meds, and there ya have it. Thanks for listening. I apologize for just jumping in the thread.

I know you were all talking about mental health stigmas. I'm often called crazy aycwork and they dont know I'm on medicine. Only my daughter and niece do. It's like leading a double life.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I have been, so its triggering for me. Now I feel like o can only rely on myself and that's sad

Same here because I feel like people will always leave me.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I wonder what I'd be like now without medicine. It's been so long. I was diagnosed years ago but am so calm with medicine and routine. My life with its turbulence has needed constant work. I've never had the chance to talk to anyone about this, just basically take the meds, and there ya have it. Thanks for listening. I apologize for just jumping in the thread.

I know you were all talking about mental health stigmas. I'm often called crazy aycwork and they dont know I'm on medicine. Only my daughter and niece do. It's like leading a double life.

No need to apologize, that's what the thread is here for

 

[MisterBGone]

If I feel bad about myself, my mom says they need to put me on new meds. But it's hard to explain that a personality disorder can't really be treated with meds. At least not in the standard sense.

Can some of the sympotoms be treated, though? (just wondering..!)

 

[MisterBGone]

I wonder what I'd be like now without medicine. It's been so long. I was diagnosed years ago but am so calm with medicine and routine. My life with its turbulence has needed constant work. I've never had the chance to talk to anyone about this, just basically take the meds, and there ya have it. Thanks for listening. I apologize for just jumping in the thread.

I know you were all talking about mental health stigmas. I'm often called crazy aycwork and they dont know I'm on medicine. Only my daughter and niece do. It's like leading a double life.

I think what you're describing, from an identity standoint, is very similar to what a much greater percentage of the population than efven we are aware (of) goes through. Meaning, a whole lot mor peeopl are out there walking the streets, etc (going to work) who are medicated fo r mental health/illness, tahn we are aware. Some who are not, maybe should (or could) be. It's not teh kind of thing you usuallly like to talk about or share with others, for obvious reasons. . : ) And so, who konws? maybe ev en some of your co-workers would fall into one of these two categories! And regardless of which, they may or may not be mentally ill (whether treated, diagnosed, or not!). But the banker you see, the lawyer on tv., What/whom ever, jsut becasue you don't know or see that they are medicated for insert any mental condition here, does not mean that they arent'. It 's jjustt taht we are unaware, because they have not worn it on their shirt.. peace.