BPD Support Thread

[Gwyrdd]

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[Witty_Sarcasm]

So much lesbian lol. Don't see the appeal

I wonder why that is. Maybe it has something to do with the rainbow avatar. lol

 

[Gwyrdd]

Yo that was meant to be a DM, I cant tell where I'm posting rn lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yo that was meant to be a DM, I cant tell where I'm posting rn lol

That's okay, now the whole site knows you're not straight. But they probably already knew that. lol

 

[Gwyrdd]

Lol I'm so gay I'm sure no one assumed otherwise

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol I'm so gay I'm sure no one assumed otherwise

There's two guys holding hands in your avatar, so it's not a huge surprise

 

[Gwyrdd]

Very true

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Now my mom said she hasn't been yelling at me all night and I'm full of shit.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Wow what a bitch. At least acknowledge it you're not gonna fix it

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Wow what a bitch. At least acknowledge it you're not gonna fix it

She said she was yelling about the TV situation. She was still taking it out on me.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Dude Kentucky... wtf. And Swag????? Come on.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Ok. My phone is being a brat. I was definitely on our dm this time.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Ok. My phone is being a brat. I was definitely on our dm this time.

Oh, sure you were

 

[Gwyrdd]

I was!

 

[Aurelia]

I fucked up bad today. I just miss my family, though. That's all I really want is just to feel like I belong somewhere again.

 

[Aurelia]

She said she was yelling about the TV situation. She was still taking it out on me.

Yeah, sometimes seems when people need to vent they don't realize that they do it AT you rather than TO you. There's a difference between sounding like you're in an unfortunate situation together and being supportive supportive each other and blaming the other person for it.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, sometimes seems when people need to vent they don't realize that they do it AT you rather than TO you. There's a difference between sounding like you're in an unfortunate situation together and being supportive supportive each other and blaming the other person for it.

She keeps saying she wasn't yelling at me, but I'm the only one here. Whether she can see it or not, she always takes her frustrations on everything out on me. In some ways, I'm used to people doing that, but it still sucks.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I fucked up bad today. I just miss my family, though. That's all I really want is just to feel like I belong somewhere again.

Oh no, what happened?

 

[Aurelia]

Oh no, what happened?

I don't even fully know. I used because the level of pain I'm in at this point made it seem worthwhile again. I'm lost, I'm alone. I pretty much defined myself by my role as his wife. That was my identity for 9 years because it was the only role I actually seemed to be good at. I can't keep a job and I generally suck at life. And now that my only sense of identity was suddenly stripped away, I don't know what I am, except miserable as fuck. This past month and half has shown me that I'm good at basically nothing else and don't really have anything going for me. What good is a degree if I don't have the tools to function properly while working? My family only act like they care when it looks as though I know what I'm doing and am successful. If I'm not, I'm not even worth talking to. I want my real family back and I want this feeling to go away. I'm not going to be able to ever sustain normalcy and stability so why try for it?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I don't even fully know. I used because the level of pain I'm in at this point made it seem worthwhile again. I'm lost, I'm alone. I pretty much defined myself by my role as his wife. That was my identity for 9 years because it was the only role I actually seemed to be good at. I can't keep a job and I generally suck at life. And now that my only sense of identity was suddenly stripped away, I don't know what I am, except miserable as fuck. This past month and half has shown me that I'm good at basically nothing else and don't really have anything going for me. What good is a degree if I don't have the tools to function properly while working? My family only act like they care when it looks as though I know what I'm doing and am successful. If I'm not, I'm not even worth talking to. I want my real family back and I want this feeling to go away. I'm not going to be able to ever sustain normalcy and stability so why try for it?

You don't suck and you are capable of many things. It's hard to find your identity when you're on your own. Because it seems like when you have BPD, your identity is defined by other people. I wish your family was more supportive, and I wish things weren't so difficult for you. I'm here for you, and so are others on the site. I think you're pretty awesome.