BPD Support Thread

[Aurelia]

I'm just sick of feeling the same way after like 25-30 years. I can't fathom more of it.

You keep saying that. But clearly you can, because otherwise, you wouldn't be talking about not being able to handle it. And I hope you don't take that the wrong way, just trying to prove a point that if that was true, you wouldn't still be contemplating it, but rather acting on it.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

You keep saying that. But clearly you can, because otherwise, you wouldn't be talking about not being able to handle it. And I hope you don't take that the wrong way, just trying to prove a point that if that was true, you wouldn't still be contemplating it, but rather acting on it.

I probably don't act on it because ultimately I'm still too scared to die. But I hate being alive too, so I'm stuck at an impasse.

 

[Gwyrdd]

When was the last time yall seriously considered or attempted? My last serious consideration was July 18th. And had Tommy not literally interrupted me, I'd not be here today. And as painful as it is to live sometimes I've had good experiences lately to make me grateful he did.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

When was the last time yall seriously considered or attempted? My last serious consideration was July 18th. And had Tommy not literally interrupted me, I'd not be here today. And as painful as it is to live sometimes I've had good experiences lately to make me grateful he did.

I'm glad that he was there to save you. I pretty much have to rely on myself to not do anything because there would be no one to stop me. Haven't attempted because I wouldn't want it to be just an attempt. And I think about it more often lately as I become more isolated.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I had a nice dream last night...why can't I have more dreams like that? No, it wasn't about death, but I'm not saying what it was about. lol

 

[Aurelia]

I probably don't act on it because ultimately I'm still too scared to die. But I hate being alive too, so I'm stuck at an impasse.

You're not scared to die; you just don't want to die at this point and time. When we're pushed into a corner, like completely to the point where we know we have no other option but to act despite being afraid, then we still act. If I had no choice but to fight a fucking tiger right now, I guess I'd be fighting a fucking tiger, despite being afraid...because ultimately, my choices would then be to either fight for my life or just let myself get eaten. I would know that there would be no hope in trying to escape the situation (because obviously, that tiger is going to fucking outrun me if I try...probably after it gives me a 30 second head start just for kicks), so bottom line is, I'd have to confront it.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

You're not scared to die; you just don't want to die at this point and time. When we're pushed into a corner, like completely to the point where we know we have no other option but to act despite being afraid, then we still act. If I had no choice but to fight a fucking tiger right now, I guess I'd be fighting a fucking tiger, despite being afraid...because ultimately, my choices would then be to either fight for my life or just let myself get eaten. I would know that there would be no hope in trying to escape the situation (because obviously, that tiger is going to fucking outrun me if I try...probably after it gives me a 30 second head start just for kicks), so bottom line is, I'd have to confront it.

I would probably die anyway, because even if I end up fighting the thing, it still might eat me alive. lol

 

[Aurelia]

When was the last time yall seriously considered or attempted? My last serious consideration was July 18th. And had Tommy not literally interrupted me, I'd not be here today. And as painful as it is to live sometimes I've had good experiences lately to make me grateful he did.

Technically I never "seriously" attempted. If seriously means trying to take every precaution that it won't get fucked up.

 

[Aurelia]

I would probably die anyway, because even if I end up fighting the thing, it still might eat me alive. lol

Most likely, yeah. But if you have no choice, you have to take your chances, however slim they may be. Granted, if I have my blade on me, I'm stabbing that thing in the throat as soon as it tries to come at me. But if not, then yeah...I'm fucked.

 

[Aurelia]

I still keep getting job alerts in my inbox, and "Victoria's Secret Pink Manager" definitely sounds dirty. "What's this job exactly and what does it entail? Describe it to me slowly and in lots of detail."

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I still keep getting job alerts in my inbox, and "Victoria's Secret Pink Manager" definitely sounds dirty. "What's this job exactly and what does it entail? Describe it to me slowly and in lots of detail."

I thought you said "pink massager" so you know where my mind is at.

 

[Aurelia]

@Gwyrdd is like yeah...I'm gone.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

No, he secretly wants a pink massager. haha

 

[Aurelia]

I not-so-secretly-at-all want one and can't fucking find one for the life of me. What is it with women and absolutely refusing to make the first move in almost all cases? How do lesbians even do it with that being the case? How are they not all single?

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I not-so-secretly-at-all want one and can't fucking find one for the life of me. What is it with women and absolutely refusing to make the first move in almost all cases? How do lesbians even do it with that being the case? How are they not all single?

I don't make moves because I know I'll be rejected. haha

 

[Gwyrdd]

I not-so-secretly-at-all want one and can't fucking find one for the life of me. What is it with women and absolutely refusing to make the first move in almost all cases? How do lesbians even do it with that being the case? How are they not all single?

I know enough lesbians to know they don't make the first move most of the time. Or at least they have a hard time until they're used to it lol. I WAS gone for a while. I fucking took like 8 pills drank a 40 of rum and just woke up on the toilet LOL

 

[Gwyrdd]

Cleaning up vomit you don't remember making isn't fun :/

 

[Gwyrdd]

Also I "secretly" have a pink massager already.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Also I "secretly" have a pink massager already.

Only one? You fucking amateur. Lol

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Cleaning up vomit you don't remember making isn't fun :/

If I was there, I'd clean it up for you. And then hold your ass to the bed.