BPD Support Thread

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Clearly you need a suitcase full, like me. Oversharing and no filter, very BPD of me. Lol

 

[Aurelia]

I know enough lesbians to know they don't make the first move most of the time. Or at least they have a hard time until they're used to it lol. I WAS gone for a while. I fucking took like 8 pills drank a 40 of rum and just woke up on the toilet LOL

Lol I've had that happen before...better than the bathroom floor, though (which has also happened) or waking up wondering why your face hurts and then figuring out that it's because you pretty much knocked yourself out by crashing face first into some furniture (also happened).

 

[Aurelia]

Wow. So he calls me and expects me to hand him money when I'm literally living off my credit card right now. And then when what he wanted wasn't possible for me to buy online, he expected that I just hand him my fucking card. I was like no, not happening. A, I don't trust you. And B, what if I fucking need it and cant use it because you have it? And of course, when he doesn't get what he wants, he starts with the manipulation bullshit. And mind you, this is supposedly for transportarion to a warehouse job that he shouldn't even be doing right now in his physical condition.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Lol I've had that happen before...better than the bathroom floor, though (which has also happened) or waking up wondering why your face hurts and then figuring out that it's because you pretty much knocked yourself out by crashing face first into some furniture (also happened).

Yeah, I also did wake up on the bathroom floor. Mostly cuz I threw up, passed out, and continued throwing up again when I woke up lol. Stupid how I can be on like 4 pills be fine, have someone ruin my night by saying something a certain way they don't even intend it to be taken and then drown myself in rum and vicodin because of that.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Geez, I'm worried about you guys. Just try to be safe.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Geez, I'm worried about you guys. Just try to be safe.

Understandable. I just don't like how easily a man can ruin my fun by fucking accident...

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Understandable. I just don't like how easily a man can ruin my fun by fucking accident...

I just don't want you guys to OD or whatever. I'm worried about your safety.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Like I can't fathom how you guys can take that much. I mean you have a high tolerance but still concerns me.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Oh, I'm not THAT dumb. I'm dumb but not dumb enough to be doing opioids without naloxone.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Oh, I'm not THAT dumb. I'm dumb but not dumb enough to be doing opioids without naloxone.

I know but still...just be careful. I worry enough normally but this kicks up my anxiety.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Does anyone have a weird thing about the passage of time? It was just summer and now it's almost Christmas, and I have no idea where the time went.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Well, if it makes you feel better for right now at least. I'm completely sober and will have to be for the next 2 or 3 days.

 

[Gwyrdd]

Does anyone have a weird thing about the passage of time? It was just summer and now it's almost Christmas, and I have no idea where the time went.

Yes. It was just 10am 20 minutes ago. Now it's 5:53.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Well, if it makes you feel better for right now at least. I'm completely sober and will have to be for the next 2 or 3 days.

I know but I worry about the long term and the damage it does to your body. I don't want to lose my mom and if she keeps drinking, then I will. I don't want to lose my close friends either.

 

[Gwyrdd]

And thats small scale. It was September 12, then it was Halloween all of a sudden.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Geez...and it's getting even closer to my next birthday. Another year and nothing happened.

 

[Gwyrdd]

I know but I worry about the long term and the damage it does to your body. I don't want to lose my mom and if she keeps drinking, then I will. I don't want to lose my close friends either.

Well you're not wrong. But we both seem to know our limits, even... when we ignore them.

I dont normally go overboard like that though. I'd rather save up for another fix. Last night was just... worse

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Well you're not wrong. But we both seem to know our limits, even... when we ignore them.

I dont normally go overboard like that though. I'd rather save up for another fix. Last night was just... worse

You passed out in the toilet, though? What if you hit your head? Sorry, but I can't help but worry about it.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

You'd probably be concerned if I started drinking like I used to. Just to put it in perspective I guess.

 

[Gwyrdd]

You passed out in the toilet, though? What if you hit your head? Sorry, but I can't help but worry about it.

Well, I wasn't exactly holding my head up to begin with lol. I passed out on my arms on the toilet. But I get your point.

And yeah, I would be.