BPD Support Thread

[sourpatchmime]

I am glad, I don't know if I have even met another man with BPD.

 

[Gwyrdd]

I believe there are a few here at least. But besides SF same.

 

[Aurelia]

I'm back with my husband again. I really missed my family. And it's his birthday today so we're going out somewhere to eat, which hardly ever used to happen, so I guess to me that's pretty special. And I got my fucking pills back finally. So I'm no longer an emotional nutcase. Always a plus.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Lol damn though. But I try not to think that way.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Hopefully they say how great I am instead. lol jk

 

[Dope]

I keep thinking I made a friend in someone but today I found out, or she told me, she doesn't believe in mental illnesses. Last week she told me she hasn't cried in a decade, and when I told her I go to therapy once a week, she kind of scoffed. Not someone who can be a good sounding board for me. I guess I'm back to being friendless.

 

[Gwyrdd]

she hasn't cried in a decade

Sounds like she has a mental illness that she's denying from this alone.

I'm sorry it didn't work out, Dope

 

[Aurelia]

So I went back to my husband for about 3 days, quickly realized that it was the dumbest decision in the world, and in actuality, there was absolutely nothing for me there except misery. I thought I'd feel like I belonged somewhere again, but turned out, I felt nothing of the sort, and was just as confused and alone as before. So might as well stay separated and try to figure out who the fuck I am without him because I don't even know who I am with him anymore it would seem.

 

[Gwyrdd]

So I went back to my husband for about 3 days, quickly realized that it was the dumbest decision in the world, and in actuality, there was absolutely nothing for me there except misery. I thought I'd feel like I belonged somewhere again, but turned out, I felt nothing of the sort, and was just as confused and alone as before. So might as well stay separated and try to figure out who the fuck I am without him because I don't even know who I am with him anymore it would seem.

I think it's for the best. It sucks but ime people like that don't change as much as we wish they did. I'm open to talk if you ever want/need to.

 

[Aurelia]

I think it's for the best. It sucks but ime people like that don't change as much as we wish they did. I'm open to talk if you ever want/need to.

Not sure what it is I need at this point, except to be highly sedated, perhaps. But even my anxiety meds are only doing so much. Can't really focus on school, can't do much of anything except lay here and be miserable.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

I feel really stupid right now, like I want to cut everyone off and go live on a mountain somewhere. But I already feel like I'm the only person in the world, so how the hell would that even help? It wouldn't but that's where my brain goes.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Whoa buddy, I don't think grayness exists in BPD. haha

 

[Aurelia]

I feel really stupid right now, like I want to cut everyone off and go live on a mountain somewhere. But I already feel like I'm the only person in the world, so how the hell would that even help? It wouldn't but that's where my brain goes.

I would have totally did that by now of I could afford it lol. Sad that I can't even afford to live in the middle of nowhere :P

 

[Aurelia]

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Whoa buddy, I don't think grayness exists in BPD. haha

If it does that fucker has been missing for so long I forgot he even existed. Same with the rainbow one. Not even sure what white represents...looks like confusion maybe?

Either way, I think grey and rainbow may have run off together and said fuck this bitch, she's insane.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Posting BPD things on Facebook all the time, and no one seems to wonder if I'm doing alright. I think if I post them here, at least people get it and can commiserate with me.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

If it does that fucker has been missing for so long I forgot he even existed. Same with the rainbow one. Not even sure what white represents...looks like confusion maybe?

Either way, I think grey and rainbow may have run off together and said fuck this bitch, she's insane.

I got the rainbow one because of gayness lol. But it's either one extreme or the other, no gray here.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Just because I have quiet BPD doesn't mean things are all peachy keen and hunky dory. It means I stopped unleashing those feelings because it scared and alienated people. Now I just keep them to myself and suffer.

 

[Aurelia]

I got the rainbow one because of gayness lol. But it's either one extreme or the other, no gray here.

Yeah, we're usually pretty gay aren't we? Lol I've always wondered why those two things were kind of related.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Yeah, we're usually pretty gay aren't we? Lol I've always wondered why those two things were kind of related.

I think @Gwyrdd had a theory on this but forgot exactly what he said.

 

[Gwyrdd]

I think @Gwyrdd had a theory on this but forgot exactly what he said.

Ngl I forget what I said too. I've basically been self inducing a medically induced coma the past few days. So my brain no work.