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Witty_Sarcasm

๐Ÿฆ„๐Ÿฆœ๐ŸงRainbow Unicorn (Deluxe Edition) ยฎ๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’–
SF Supporter
People have been distancing themselves from me. I know that's one of the first stages of them ghosting me. So I'll cut everyone off before I get hurt.
 

Gwyrdd

Well-Known Member
I made the mistake of being nice to my roommate and tidying up his room. And subsequently finding unused drugs. So of course I stole them like the pos I am.

Addiction is NOT helped by the fact that approximately 0.00001 seconds into being alone I start feeling like shit.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

๐Ÿฆ„๐Ÿฆœ๐ŸงRainbow Unicorn (Deluxe Edition) ยฎ๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’–
SF Supporter
I made the mistake of being nice to my roommate and tidying up his room. And subsequently finding unused drugs. So of course I stole them like the pos I am.

Addiction is NOT helped by the fact that approximately 0.00001 seconds into being alone I start feeling like shit.
You're not completely alone....there's lots of great people on this site. And I know you can make a lot of friends here because you've got an awesome personality.
 

Aurelia

๐Ÿ”ฅ A Fire Inside ๐Ÿ”ฅ
SF Supporter
I made the mistake of being nice to my roommate and tidying up his room. And subsequently finding unused drugs. So of course I stole them like the pos I am.

Addiction is NOT helped by the fact that approximately 0.00001 seconds into being alone I start feeling like shit.
Shit, you're a step ahead of me. I start feeling it before it even happens when I get the sense that it's coming soon.
 

Aurelia

๐Ÿ”ฅ A Fire Inside ๐Ÿ”ฅ
SF Supporter
Been wanting to read this for so long, figured I'd take advantage of my B&N discount while I still had it. I love the irony of this title.


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And these awesome ass quotes inside the front cover. Fucking love it.


"Why don't we do things we know we should do? Because we don't feel like it. Every problem of self-control is not a problem of information, discipline, or reason, but rather, emotion."

"Evrything being fucked doesn't require hope; hope requires everything being fucked."

"The only thing that can ever truly destroy a dream is to have it come true"

"Because pain is the universal constant of life, the opportunities to grow from that pain are constant in life. All that is required is that we don't numb it, that we don't look away".
 

Witty_Sarcasm

๐Ÿฆ„๐Ÿฆœ๐ŸงRainbow Unicorn (Deluxe Edition) ยฎ๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’–
SF Supporter
You're right, I dunno about the awesome personality though. But it's unfortunately not the same when it's not... him.
I mean there will be a lot of cool people to talk to if there ever comes a time where I'm not around anymore.
 

Dope

sleepwalker
Having a shit day, but no one knows about it but me. (Now you.) I never tell my partner shit about what's going on with me. I feel like too much of a burden. Like I'm too annoying. Same old thing with me. I'm so goddamn sick of myself. I can't imagine how they feel about me. Probably at the end of their rope too.

I just want to swallow some Vicodin and get high and stop thinking about my stupid self. I did this yesterday and felt much better, but I feel like I can't do that two days in a row. :(
 

Gwyrdd

Well-Known Member
Having a shit day, but no one knows about it but me. (Now you.) I never tell my partner shit about what's going on with me. I feel like too much of a burden. Like I'm too annoying. Same old thing with me. I'm so goddamn sick of myself. I can't imagine how they feel about me. Probably at the end of their rope too.

I just want to swallow some Vicodin and get high and stop thinking about my stupid self. I did this yesterday and felt much better, but I feel like I can't do that two days in a row. :(
Well, I was just mixing oxy and hydrocodone, so I can't exactly be a reliable voice of reason telling you not to take anything when I JUST did. But I'm sorry you're feeling this way and try to stay as safe as you can.

I understand the feelings of being a burden, but I'm sure your partner wants to know and support you more than you believe.
 

Aurelia

๐Ÿ”ฅ A Fire Inside ๐Ÿ”ฅ
SF Supporter
Having a shit day, but no one knows about it but me. (Now you.) I never tell my partner shit about what's going on with me. I feel like too much of a burden. Like I'm too annoying. Same old thing with me. I'm so goddamn sick of myself. I can't imagine how they feel about me. Probably at the end of their rope too.

I just want to swallow some Vicodin and get high and stop thinking about my stupid self. I did this yesterday and felt much better, but I feel like I can't do that two days in a row. :(
The more often you do it, the less it will make you feel "good" in the future. Take it from someone who takes klonopin daily. Unless I took a handful, it wouldn't really do shit to me except make me feel relatively normal.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

๐Ÿฆ„๐Ÿฆœ๐ŸงRainbow Unicorn (Deluxe Edition) ยฎ๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’–
SF Supporter
My sister had a note on her car that said something like, "Meet me by the docks at the lake at midnight" And she went with a friend but no one is there. Then she got another one that was like, "That's because you didn't follow the instructions correctly". She worries me because she shouldn't just be going to meet random, and it seems like, insane people.
 

Witty_Sarcasm

๐Ÿฆ„๐Ÿฆœ๐ŸงRainbow Unicorn (Deluxe Edition) ยฎ๐ŸŒˆ๐ŸŒ๐Ÿ’–
SF Supporter
I got good news so I'm not feeling as hopeless as I was earlier. I'm on that giddy BPD high and hope it lasts.
 

Dope

sleepwalker
The more often you do it, the less it will make you feel "good" in the future. Take it from someone who takes klonopin daily. Unless I took a handful, it wouldn't really do shit to me except make me feel relatively normal.
I know this all too well. I used to be fully dependent, so I have to take a lot to feel a little. I know I can't keep taking it, especially some days in a row. It won't do anything after a while. And I don't want to go down that road again. I was just looking for some relief.
 

Gwyrdd

Well-Known Member
The more often you do it, the less it will make you feel "good" in the future. Take it from someone who takes klonopin daily. Unless I took a handful, it wouldn't really do shit to me except make me feel relatively normal.
This shit is so depressing. 2 percs knocks my roommate out, I take 2 percs, 4 vicodin and barely feel anything :/
 

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