BPD Support Thread

[Aurelia]

Guess we're back to screaming loud music and banging from the neighbors at...2:15 AM? Sounds perfectly suitable.

Same going on here, actually. I was like wtf...sometimes they're yelling at 3 in the morning, other times there are loud banging noises, etc.

 

[Aurelia]

Kind of wishing I could just disappear right about now. Like, literally, just cease to exist. I'm smackdab in the middle of shit that I don't want to be a part of at all, and can't control it.

 

[Aves]

Well the optimal way to get them off is typically to soak them in warm water for a while. A while may really be a while with these though lol

Dental floss works quite well too if you slide it under the nail and they should ping off (after you’ve soaked them for a while)

 

[Aurelia]

Dental floss works quite well too if you slide it under the nail and they should ping off (after you’ve soaked them for a while)

Thanks. I may have to try that. Not sure whether these things may have to be surgically removed at this point LOL.

 

[Aves]

Haha I hope not, at least it’s not a gorilla glue on the hair type situation

 

[Aurelia]

Haha I hope not, at least it’s not a gorilla glue on the hair type situation

No, but I've definitely set it on fire with cigarettes before lol.

 

[Aves]

No, but I've definitely set it on fire with cigarettes before lol.

Haha oh no! I used to be a nightmare with singeing my eyebrows and my hair or when I got a cigarette burn on my dress and I got so mad about it I ripped the whole thing off and danced around the car in my underwear

 

[Aurelia]

Haha oh no! I used to be a nightmare with singeing my eyebrows and my hair or when I got a cigarette burn on my dress and I got so mad about it I ripped the whole thing off and danced around the car in my underwear

Lol well at least you had fun with it. I totally hate burn holes too. Usually, though, that doesn't happen with me, but my husband was notorious for it. I kid you not, EVERY single item of clothing he had, had a burn hole in it. Even his shoes somehow. I was like wtf...how does that even happen??? He was constantly high at the time, and hence, would nod out with lit cigarettes. I can't tell you how many times I had to basically babysit him to make sure he didn't burn the house down.

 

[Aurelia]

However, from what I've heard recently, it seems he's stopped using, at least, which I hope is true. I never know when to believe him and when not to, but I just hope for his own sake that this is the case.

 

[Aurelia]

DUDE...wtf. I literally just burned a hole in my fucking pants. Right as I got done saying I don't do that. You can't make this type of shit up, FFS.

 

[Aves]

DUDE...wtf. I literally just burned a hole in my fucking pants. Right as I got done saying I don't do that. You can't make this type of shit up, FFS.

No way obviously I’m not laughing that you’ve burnt a hole in your pants but that’s crazy that you’ve done it straight after saying that you don’t do it. That’s the sort of shit that happens to me all the time! Hope it hasn’t gone through to your leg.

 

[Witty_Sarcasm]

Kind of wishing I could just disappear right about now. Like, literally, just cease to exist. I'm smackdab in the middle of shit that I don't want to be a part of at all, and can't control it.

I hope you don't because life wouldn't be the same without you.

 

[Aves]

However, from what I've heard recently, it seems he's stopped using, at least, which I hope is true. I never know when to believe him and when not to, but I just hope for his own sake that this is the case.

Hopefully he has stopped, has he still been turning up at your work?

 

[Aves]

I’m dissociating like a mf at the moment, I think it might be because it’s coming up to Christmas and I always get anxiety this time of year. Seriously, I can’t account for some parts of my days at the moment.

 

[Aves]

Definitely me right now

 

[Aurelia]

Hopefully he has stopped, has he still been turning up at your work?

Nah, he didn't even do it on purpose the first time. He came to buy something, not to start shit. And my ex apparently was the one who started it because he thought he was going to steal without actually seeing him do it. So my husband flipped the fuck out on him. And granted, it wasn't the same location I worked at, but still, he shouldn't have reacted that way because these locations all communicate with each other, so my manager heard about it Immediately and so did I. And then it also caused a bunch of other shit...but it wasn't all his fault from what he's telling me. I would say maybe 50/50 (though, in his mind, it's 0/100, lol). He's not trying to cause anything on purpose, though, no.

 

[Aurelia]

I’m dissociating like a mf at the moment, I think it might be because it’s coming up to Christmas and I always get anxiety this time of year. Seriously, I can’t account for some parts of my days at the moment.

Sorry...I've never personally experienced dissociation but saw my husband experience it, and it definitely seems tough to deal with.

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Definitely me right now

Totally counts as mindfulness LOL. You're focusing on an object and giving it 100% of your attention

 

[Aurelia]

No way obviously I’m not laughing that you’ve burnt a hole in your pants but that’s crazy that you’ve done it straight after saying that you don’t do it. That’s the sort of shit that happens to me all the time! Hope it hasn’t gone through to your leg.

Lol it did; thats how I realized it was happening :P but it's okay, it actually is pretty fucking funny.

 

[Aurelia]

I have to close with this fucking motherfucker today again...sigh. Guaranteed, he's going to start something at some point.

 

[Aves]

Nah, he didn't even do it on purpose the first time. He came to buy something, not to start shit. And my ex apparently was the one who started it because he thought he was going to steal without actually seeing him do it. So my husband flipped the fuck out on him. And granted, it wasn't the same location I worked at, but still, he shouldn't have reacted that way because these locations all communicate with each other, so my manager heard about it Immediately and so did I. And then it also caused a bunch of other shit...but it wasn't all his fault from what he's telling me. I would say maybe 50/50 (though, in his mind, it's 0/100, lol). He's not trying to cause anything on purpose, though, no.

Ah right, I suppose that’s good that he wasn’t intending to cause trouble even though some shit went down. And yeah I dissociate a lot. It’s weird because sometimes I quite like it, its very odd. Hope the close goes alright, he sounds like a right dick from what you’ve said before about him.